Please pray for my aunty Vicki, who is in Colchester Hospital with Lung cancer and secondary kidney cancer. I spoke to her today, she is having Radiotherapy although she initially declined on account of her age. She is comfortable and sounded cheerful. At least she is in a good place and they are caring for her nad she is not alone. She is my Godmother and I love her dearly.
Love Granny.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
WHAT CHRISTMAS IS ABOUT!
Christmas is of course about the birth of Christ although you would never think it judging from the rampant consumerism that grips the nation. Some, who are less fortunate cannot indulging in the feeding frenzie that goes on. I think it is important we remember that. And what about Bethlehem? nothing changes only the uniforms.
This year we mourned the death of Auntie Elsie, and Mick and I spent Christmas with her sister, my mother-in-law because there was a big empty space at the heart of her family. I was fortunate to be given a brooch (I am a collector) of an Elephant which had been Elsie's I was touched to have been given it - for me the perfect item to remember with since Elephants never forget. She was in all our hearts.
I was sorry to hear of the death of James Brown the Godfather of Soul on Christmas Day - his words, "I feel Good" I my mantra for obvious reasons. I suspect he is singing in heaven and rocking the joint. We also lost Charlie Drake this Christmas and I suspect he is teaching God some prat falls.
This year I have been very lucky, oh yes I have (oh no you haven't, it's behind you) that is to say in true Panto style I can only think of postives. Like.... catching up with old school friends on Friends Reunited, Orville and Paul. Learning a lot about myself has been crucial. I have been busy looking at nature to give myself a much needed boost. My sister in law Elaine, has been unfailing in her phone calls to cheer me up. My brother and sister in law Gill have watched over Mum because I could not get to visit as much as I would wish. This is what I call team work. I phone Mum everyday to have a chat and to check she is ok.
Mick has been a brick, and working very hard - the farm shop has been interesting to say the least. I could not have made it through without him. We are the couple who 'bicker' but stay together because it's fun and we are a great team.
Christmas has not been free of sadness this year for others. I was so sad to hear of the death of the pilots and passengers of a helicopter in Morecombe Bay. The deaths of soldiers and civilians elsewhere in the world.
I was glad to read that the stupid ruling about not being able to convict for rape where the victim is drunk isto be dealt with by the government. Some men have hidden for to long behind this defence. Consent should be informed consent and when you are drunk you cannot give this. I am not so much concerned about the introduction of drugs into drink, the problem is that in the current climate drinks are mixed when a person has had one or two becoming doubles or even trebles in some instances. The Sex Offences Act 2004 did already deal with the issue of consent and this has not be used correctly in the courts. You have to know what you are consenting to for it to be valid, and with whom you are consenting to do it with. It is just another form of force and a way to move blame. To have sex with another who is too drunk to know what is happening or give correct consent is an abuse of trust and a shame on those who do this. They seek then to shift the blame for their actions on the victim. I do believe however that where a woman is proved to have lied about rape, that is, made a false claim deliberately then she should be named, in order to protect genuine victims.
What Christmas is about? well Christ actually.
Love from Granny.
This year we mourned the death of Auntie Elsie, and Mick and I spent Christmas with her sister, my mother-in-law because there was a big empty space at the heart of her family. I was fortunate to be given a brooch (I am a collector) of an Elephant which had been Elsie's I was touched to have been given it - for me the perfect item to remember with since Elephants never forget. She was in all our hearts.
I was sorry to hear of the death of James Brown the Godfather of Soul on Christmas Day - his words, "I feel Good" I my mantra for obvious reasons. I suspect he is singing in heaven and rocking the joint. We also lost Charlie Drake this Christmas and I suspect he is teaching God some prat falls.
This year I have been very lucky, oh yes I have (oh no you haven't, it's behind you) that is to say in true Panto style I can only think of postives. Like.... catching up with old school friends on Friends Reunited, Orville and Paul. Learning a lot about myself has been crucial. I have been busy looking at nature to give myself a much needed boost. My sister in law Elaine, has been unfailing in her phone calls to cheer me up. My brother and sister in law Gill have watched over Mum because I could not get to visit as much as I would wish. This is what I call team work. I phone Mum everyday to have a chat and to check she is ok.
Mick has been a brick, and working very hard - the farm shop has been interesting to say the least. I could not have made it through without him. We are the couple who 'bicker' but stay together because it's fun and we are a great team.
Christmas has not been free of sadness this year for others. I was so sad to hear of the death of the pilots and passengers of a helicopter in Morecombe Bay. The deaths of soldiers and civilians elsewhere in the world.
I was glad to read that the stupid ruling about not being able to convict for rape where the victim is drunk isto be dealt with by the government. Some men have hidden for to long behind this defence. Consent should be informed consent and when you are drunk you cannot give this. I am not so much concerned about the introduction of drugs into drink, the problem is that in the current climate drinks are mixed when a person has had one or two becoming doubles or even trebles in some instances. The Sex Offences Act 2004 did already deal with the issue of consent and this has not be used correctly in the courts. You have to know what you are consenting to for it to be valid, and with whom you are consenting to do it with. It is just another form of force and a way to move blame. To have sex with another who is too drunk to know what is happening or give correct consent is an abuse of trust and a shame on those who do this. They seek then to shift the blame for their actions on the victim. I do believe however that where a woman is proved to have lied about rape, that is, made a false claim deliberately then she should be named, in order to protect genuine victims.
What Christmas is about? well Christ actually.
Love from Granny.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
A MILLION LOVE SONGS LATER, HERE I AM
Sorry to have been away, no mouse and no keyboard = no writing sorry.
Halfway through the radiotherapy and it's OK. My machine is Electa 2 at St Thomas's and the whole team are great fun. It is very strange I am laid out like a frog for disection and then they play battle ships on me.....with the computer all very technical. Matt is Australian and supervises the operation, he is great fun we talk cricket obviously and I think he is a little homesick. He thinks I am mad, that coming from a man who was going to three parties in one night!!!!
Lets look forward to Jan 5th when the treatment stops, and I can begin to be me again. I have a light covering of white baby hair now so perhaps when it comes through more I should dye it bright pink!!!!! Kylie looks very cool in her perfume ads with her short hair.
Let's here it for the Argentine Tango, as danced tonight on Strictly Come dancing, it is my favourite dance and I recommend anyone to see 'Tango Por Dos' when they come to London (usually at the Peacock Theater) for they do IT FANTASTICALLY as you would expect.
My heart is with the five prostitutes murdered in Ipswich. This is shocking and I wish I could be working on the case. I am a supporter of the legalisation of prostitution. However I do blame the punters, no punters (demand) no problem. It is sadly - Men who are the punters if they were not prepared to pay for sex or indeed want it then there is no trade. I have met many girls in the trade in Commercial Street and have seen the dire state that they are in when they cannot get a fix. They will do anything for 20 quid, and do. The result is running sores - many of the girls are pathetic heaps of humanity and having sex with them for cash can only be described as abuse. What man wants sex with a drugged diseased female? you would be surprised. Wives and daughters take note, in my experience it is middle class men smart and driving nice cars who go with prostitutes - not down and outs. I once found a group of men who had brought an Asian lad down for his stag night to have sex with a prostitute!!! make of that what you will, what did he pass on? and why the double standard? a girl who has sex before marriage in such cultures would be ostrasied or stoned to death. DOUBLE STANDARDS. The reality is the suspect for the murders is a husband or a brother, father or son. As I have said many times before the Drug supply trade is to blame for the decent of humanity into greater degredation. Yes these things have always been around, but so have the expoliters - those who make millions of pounds on the lives of others.
To young girls out there, this is not a glamourous life style, it is as low as you can get. But don't turn your back on these girls, turn on the men. Remember that women are generally on the lower end of the economics of a country. it is better to stay at school, get an education and beat men at their own game in the places were money is made.
It really does not help when certain famous folks flash their drugs habits in our faces and the law seems unable to deal. They are arrested for sure - only to get pultry fines and made even more glamourous by the courts. You know who I mean.
Now for FASHION. I have always been a Katherine Hepburn fan, in terms of style. In that style way I like Calvin Kline and Stella McCartney. See Instyle for jan page 31. Baggy trousers and tops are very me, in Black in grey and in blue.
Since I will never be on a Red Carpet I don't do that kind of glitz but I am Dita Von Teese fan who is just beautiful and does up front glam with panache. What I wore for a recent party was a long black linen skirt and black devore top with black beads and a large coin belt. I felt OK.
TRIBUTE. To my mother - in - laws sister Elsie Perry, who died on Wednesday. She had been ill for so long, and was determined to die at home. She was a very remarkable strong woman and I loved her dearly. When I last saw her she was in hospital, she was dressed and made up and I thought then - Yes that is the way to be - be yourself. Mum - in - Law Ellen and other sister Beattie will miss her as will I. My prays are with her. Elsie had her own style and was a great friend and sister, wife and mother.
LET'S BE POSITIVE THIS CHRISTMAS. GRANNY
Halfway through the radiotherapy and it's OK. My machine is Electa 2 at St Thomas's and the whole team are great fun. It is very strange I am laid out like a frog for disection and then they play battle ships on me.....with the computer all very technical. Matt is Australian and supervises the operation, he is great fun we talk cricket obviously and I think he is a little homesick. He thinks I am mad, that coming from a man who was going to three parties in one night!!!!
Lets look forward to Jan 5th when the treatment stops, and I can begin to be me again. I have a light covering of white baby hair now so perhaps when it comes through more I should dye it bright pink!!!!! Kylie looks very cool in her perfume ads with her short hair.
Let's here it for the Argentine Tango, as danced tonight on Strictly Come dancing, it is my favourite dance and I recommend anyone to see 'Tango Por Dos' when they come to London (usually at the Peacock Theater) for they do IT FANTASTICALLY as you would expect.
My heart is with the five prostitutes murdered in Ipswich. This is shocking and I wish I could be working on the case. I am a supporter of the legalisation of prostitution. However I do blame the punters, no punters (demand) no problem. It is sadly - Men who are the punters if they were not prepared to pay for sex or indeed want it then there is no trade. I have met many girls in the trade in Commercial Street and have seen the dire state that they are in when they cannot get a fix. They will do anything for 20 quid, and do. The result is running sores - many of the girls are pathetic heaps of humanity and having sex with them for cash can only be described as abuse. What man wants sex with a drugged diseased female? you would be surprised. Wives and daughters take note, in my experience it is middle class men smart and driving nice cars who go with prostitutes - not down and outs. I once found a group of men who had brought an Asian lad down for his stag night to have sex with a prostitute!!! make of that what you will, what did he pass on? and why the double standard? a girl who has sex before marriage in such cultures would be ostrasied or stoned to death. DOUBLE STANDARDS. The reality is the suspect for the murders is a husband or a brother, father or son. As I have said many times before the Drug supply trade is to blame for the decent of humanity into greater degredation. Yes these things have always been around, but so have the expoliters - those who make millions of pounds on the lives of others.
To young girls out there, this is not a glamourous life style, it is as low as you can get. But don't turn your back on these girls, turn on the men. Remember that women are generally on the lower end of the economics of a country. it is better to stay at school, get an education and beat men at their own game in the places were money is made.
It really does not help when certain famous folks flash their drugs habits in our faces and the law seems unable to deal. They are arrested for sure - only to get pultry fines and made even more glamourous by the courts. You know who I mean.
Now for FASHION. I have always been a Katherine Hepburn fan, in terms of style. In that style way I like Calvin Kline and Stella McCartney. See Instyle for jan page 31. Baggy trousers and tops are very me, in Black in grey and in blue.
Since I will never be on a Red Carpet I don't do that kind of glitz but I am Dita Von Teese fan who is just beautiful and does up front glam with panache. What I wore for a recent party was a long black linen skirt and black devore top with black beads and a large coin belt. I felt OK.
TRIBUTE. To my mother - in - laws sister Elsie Perry, who died on Wednesday. She had been ill for so long, and was determined to die at home. She was a very remarkable strong woman and I loved her dearly. When I last saw her she was in hospital, she was dressed and made up and I thought then - Yes that is the way to be - be yourself. Mum - in - Law Ellen and other sister Beattie will miss her as will I. My prays are with her. Elsie had her own style and was a great friend and sister, wife and mother.
LET'S BE POSITIVE THIS CHRISTMAS. GRANNY
Saturday, December 02, 2006
HERE WE ARE AGAIN.
I have just finished my first full week of radiotherapy, it aint that bad, the Auzzie radiographers are cool and we talk cricket of course. COME ON ENGLAND. LETS SHOW SOME FIGHTING SPIRIT. The journey is a bind but not a bad as it could be. I get tired, but last night I partied. Spotted a large rat at the station, I love rats as most people know, I am not sure my fellow passengers enjoyed it quite so much. Also when I go to Tommies I stop by the London Eye - I have become friendly with a Crow, who hangs out there, I hope to get him to feed from my hand. He is so curious and fun to watch as he decides if he can trust me or not. The pigeons from trafalgar Square may be subject to a feeding ban, it says nothing about crows.
It was the 'Close Do'last night and it was nice to see old and new neighbours enjoying time out. We ate, drank and sang at TWIN noodle bar which was a hoot.
I did turn up, head neatly polished - wearing a nice silky brown skirt, vest, blouse and shrug in the same tones. Now Michelle and I did not discuss this, but both managed to turn up tone atune and style together, if not exactly twins.
THE TREE was full of activity today, squirel versus two crows and three magpies, the crows were the heavy artillery and the magpies a harrying infantry, while squirel one rushed all over the show.
Now please tell me who voted Matt king of the jungle, nice guy but not the winner, Jason and Myleen yess. Oh well thats over for another year. Tonight I am going to watch Strictly Come Dancing, Oh when can I tango again? sorry to be a bore but I LOVE IT.
It was the 'Close Do'last night and it was nice to see old and new neighbours enjoying time out. We ate, drank and sang at TWIN noodle bar which was a hoot.
I did turn up, head neatly polished - wearing a nice silky brown skirt, vest, blouse and shrug in the same tones. Now Michelle and I did not discuss this, but both managed to turn up tone atune and style together, if not exactly twins.
THE TREE was full of activity today, squirel versus two crows and three magpies, the crows were the heavy artillery and the magpies a harrying infantry, while squirel one rushed all over the show.
Now please tell me who voted Matt king of the jungle, nice guy but not the winner, Jason and Myleen yess. Oh well thats over for another year. Tonight I am going to watch Strictly Come Dancing, Oh when can I tango again? sorry to be a bore but I LOVE IT.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
1ST RADIOTHERAPY
Mick accompanied me to St Thomas's yesterday for the first of my daily trips. It all went well and I am confident about the process. It is a really nice place. Free tea and coffee a nice bonus. Better yet when I cam out there was a guy playing the piano in the Central Hall where they Free concerts. This was brilliant, and sounded wonderful, what better way to feel better than to hear good live music, much better than recorded because there is te personal element. People can sit and listen and relax. Again a good remedial therapy. I was also impressed by the focus on multi faith availability there is someone for all faiths and I really do mean all.
I shall be off on my travels again shortly.
I shall be off on my travels again shortly.
IT IS SO WRONG
Further to my post about Janet Street Porters article, I must say I could not agree more. There should be NO mixed NHS wards. There is no dignity for either sex at a time when they are most vulnerable being placed in a mixed sex ward. I felt safe because I was in a female ward, I could talk to women in a similar condition and I was relaxed so I felt I could get better quicker. The talk is always of service according to need. The need is for privacy, security,care and dignity. The article was in the Mail and in the Independent on Sunday - worth a read.
Love Granny
Love Granny
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
THE TREE OF LIFE
After a quiet period The Tree has been a hive of activity. Mick and I saw 2 Woodpeckers not sure if they are a pair or siblings. They were very busy rushing up and down the trunk and under boughs. There has been a battle between a very large squirrel and 2 equally large crows. Squirrel 2 Crows 0. It has been sunny thus far today only now I think rain is on the way. There have been some Jays about but the Magpies seem to have done a disappearing act.
You will laugh, I went out singing last night the first time in ages, I felt I could give it a go. Wearing Black with my trade mark pink scarf and the 'Tickled Pink' breast cancer T shirt. I sang. 'Hello Again' (Neil Diamond) 'Over the rainbow' (Eva Cassidy version) 'The Long and Winding Road' and Jolene (Dolly Parton - and me with only one and half boobs) The songs were well received so I count myself a Bald Diva.
You must look at Joes site, He and Jen rescued an injured eagle, the pictures are wicked. http://www.sbynews.blogspot.com/ is the new address is.
Take care all Loves Yer. granny
You will laugh, I went out singing last night the first time in ages, I felt I could give it a go. Wearing Black with my trade mark pink scarf and the 'Tickled Pink' breast cancer T shirt. I sang. 'Hello Again' (Neil Diamond) 'Over the rainbow' (Eva Cassidy version) 'The Long and Winding Road' and Jolene (Dolly Parton - and me with only one and half boobs) The songs were well received so I count myself a Bald Diva.
You must look at Joes site, He and Jen rescued an injured eagle, the pictures are wicked. http://www.sbynews.blogspot.com/ is the new address is.
Take care all Loves Yer. granny
Monday, November 20, 2006
JANET STREET PORTER
I was sorry to read of her sisters death from Lung Cancer and a cancer that had reached her brain. It would appear her last months were painful and unhappy. I am sorry the NHS appeared to fail her. I send my condolences. Love Granny.
Friday, November 17, 2006
SHINE, GLOSS AND GLITZ
Before my last Chemo, I tripped over to Bluewater to see what I was missing.
Arrived when it was quiet, it did get very busy later in the day. The shops have upped their game and have some really cool stuff. There were still sales on, look in side shops for sale rails.
Don't be worried about colour there is plenty about, but as I so often say you cannot beat the black dress and there is plenty of those too. There should be something to suit everyone this season.
Colours, Teal, pewter, purple, gold, red, all the brown ranges - love chocolate. All dramatic and intense. Add to this shots of shine, gloss, glitz, glitter, tarten and lace with pearls and you're choice and you are on to a winner.
Style Icons, Scarlett Johnanson, Dita Von Teese, Kylie and Cate Blanchette.
Avoid, being tempted by tie up laces on shoes that go up the leg Roman Style, they look god awful and do nothing for the wearers legs. Just plain ugly.
There were some real glitter shows out there - Dorothy from Wizard of Oz would have been proud. I saw a pair of Emerald Shoes on killer heels - only for the very brave. Try Schuh's always have some extreme examples, but cost can be prohibitive.
The Black dress was everywhere, with some real Wow Factor. For a real experience look at the shop called 'Lucy in the Sky' even if you cannot afford, get some great ideas, great dresses and bling.
Hobbs and Laura Ashley are next to each other in the Mall, worth a look again, can't beat Hobbs for the perfect suit.
For cheap and cheerful party items look at H and M and New Look, the shops have had a make over, generally easier to look round.
Gold is very big, I will bring out my fabvourite gold dress this season and add a huge gold belt with bow to match the catwalk and high street. Tanned legs and gold shoes - great (any of the moisturiser/self tan products will help here - I like Dove)
Take a look at Vibe - very nice, but unusual. On one side of shop everything in Brown shades and on the other Blacks/greys with the appropriate highlight accessories and blouses etc. Had a lot of eye appeal, makes you think about possibilities. Excellent shop.
Monsoon, sumptuious with loads of fab dresses in wicked fabrics and shades. Never fails to impress.
Jane Norman was worth a look. As was 'Evans' for the larger fashionable lady, some very nice colours. Particularly liked this years must have the heavy knit long cardigan at £40 - a good all year round purchase. There was a great dress in Black devore over red, same fabric also in skirt. For that very smart event.
I hate belts on knits, and I hate them on coats - but it is up to you.
THE BLACK DRESS was in Wallis, Short very simple and sheer, with spagettie straps, square neck line with two detail narrow black flat bow empire line syle under boob. Simple to dress up or down. Pearls always look good and there are plenty about.
EAST is another favourite shop of mine and it had the red shirt. all rouched, ruffs with a lilly long double sleeve with lace inset. Over a Black skirt - devine. I would kill for this blouse, for those afraid of red it came in other colours. East also does a lot in Devore, this is a fabric I love, less heavy than velvet less seethrough than sheer fabrics.
I am still not into Mustard as a colour but there is a lot of it about. You have to be the right skin tone to carry it off.
DON'T FORGET THE SEXY UNDERWARE, No dress looks good without the right underneath look. Lumps and Bumps are not good on sheer or clingy fabrics for the unintended reveal. But under see through great under wear is a must and very sexy.
I love Golden Lady Tights, an Italian make, now not only in ASDA but Morrisons, They have a web site as well. They are well made, and wear well. I like the black tights witht smal white spot detail, and the Gold ones in a similar design. I always like to point up a plain skirt with nice tights. I love M and S footless tights,
There are great shrugs in most shops. For that extra warmth.
Give the designer shops a look, but - looks are good but too expensive in many cases.
Look at where items are made, such as cheap and cheerful Cambodia and Bulgaria. These crop up in most shops. Some of the cheaper shops pile in stuff unironed and looks cheap and can be off putting. Check stitching and such like - the finish of an item can affect how it looks on you.
Once again it was a mother and baby fest in the Mall - they were everywhere. The youngest I ran into was 14 weeks old!!!!! this mother was starting her child off in consumer hell very early. I do find these mothers some what baby 'Fashists!!!!!not fashionistas. They tend to think that anyone who does not wheald a pram should not dare to be there. Actually it was rather funny since the other main group was the elderly in wheel chairs, from cradle to grave Bluewater has it made.
I hope you don't mind but I have one more comment on Miss Naomi Campbell. Let her clean the streets - if she is willing to deal then there must be a guilty plea in the air or she is afraid what the case will out. I love fashion, but despair of the supermodel syndrome. It costs nothing to be nice.
Enough said.
Love Granny.
Arrived when it was quiet, it did get very busy later in the day. The shops have upped their game and have some really cool stuff. There were still sales on, look in side shops for sale rails.
Don't be worried about colour there is plenty about, but as I so often say you cannot beat the black dress and there is plenty of those too. There should be something to suit everyone this season.
Colours, Teal, pewter, purple, gold, red, all the brown ranges - love chocolate. All dramatic and intense. Add to this shots of shine, gloss, glitz, glitter, tarten and lace with pearls and you're choice and you are on to a winner.
Style Icons, Scarlett Johnanson, Dita Von Teese, Kylie and Cate Blanchette.
Avoid, being tempted by tie up laces on shoes that go up the leg Roman Style, they look god awful and do nothing for the wearers legs. Just plain ugly.
There were some real glitter shows out there - Dorothy from Wizard of Oz would have been proud. I saw a pair of Emerald Shoes on killer heels - only for the very brave. Try Schuh's always have some extreme examples, but cost can be prohibitive.
The Black dress was everywhere, with some real Wow Factor. For a real experience look at the shop called 'Lucy in the Sky' even if you cannot afford, get some great ideas, great dresses and bling.
Hobbs and Laura Ashley are next to each other in the Mall, worth a look again, can't beat Hobbs for the perfect suit.
For cheap and cheerful party items look at H and M and New Look, the shops have had a make over, generally easier to look round.
Gold is very big, I will bring out my fabvourite gold dress this season and add a huge gold belt with bow to match the catwalk and high street. Tanned legs and gold shoes - great (any of the moisturiser/self tan products will help here - I like Dove)
Take a look at Vibe - very nice, but unusual. On one side of shop everything in Brown shades and on the other Blacks/greys with the appropriate highlight accessories and blouses etc. Had a lot of eye appeal, makes you think about possibilities. Excellent shop.
Monsoon, sumptuious with loads of fab dresses in wicked fabrics and shades. Never fails to impress.
Jane Norman was worth a look. As was 'Evans' for the larger fashionable lady, some very nice colours. Particularly liked this years must have the heavy knit long cardigan at £40 - a good all year round purchase. There was a great dress in Black devore over red, same fabric also in skirt. For that very smart event.
I hate belts on knits, and I hate them on coats - but it is up to you.
THE BLACK DRESS was in Wallis, Short very simple and sheer, with spagettie straps, square neck line with two detail narrow black flat bow empire line syle under boob. Simple to dress up or down. Pearls always look good and there are plenty about.
EAST is another favourite shop of mine and it had the red shirt. all rouched, ruffs with a lilly long double sleeve with lace inset. Over a Black skirt - devine. I would kill for this blouse, for those afraid of red it came in other colours. East also does a lot in Devore, this is a fabric I love, less heavy than velvet less seethrough than sheer fabrics.
I am still not into Mustard as a colour but there is a lot of it about. You have to be the right skin tone to carry it off.
DON'T FORGET THE SEXY UNDERWARE, No dress looks good without the right underneath look. Lumps and Bumps are not good on sheer or clingy fabrics for the unintended reveal. But under see through great under wear is a must and very sexy.
I love Golden Lady Tights, an Italian make, now not only in ASDA but Morrisons, They have a web site as well. They are well made, and wear well. I like the black tights witht smal white spot detail, and the Gold ones in a similar design. I always like to point up a plain skirt with nice tights. I love M and S footless tights,
There are great shrugs in most shops. For that extra warmth.
Give the designer shops a look, but - looks are good but too expensive in many cases.
Look at where items are made, such as cheap and cheerful Cambodia and Bulgaria. These crop up in most shops. Some of the cheaper shops pile in stuff unironed and looks cheap and can be off putting. Check stitching and such like - the finish of an item can affect how it looks on you.
Once again it was a mother and baby fest in the Mall - they were everywhere. The youngest I ran into was 14 weeks old!!!!! this mother was starting her child off in consumer hell very early. I do find these mothers some what baby 'Fashists!!!!!not fashionistas. They tend to think that anyone who does not wheald a pram should not dare to be there. Actually it was rather funny since the other main group was the elderly in wheel chairs, from cradle to grave Bluewater has it made.
I hope you don't mind but I have one more comment on Miss Naomi Campbell. Let her clean the streets - if she is willing to deal then there must be a guilty plea in the air or she is afraid what the case will out. I love fashion, but despair of the supermodel syndrome. It costs nothing to be nice.
Enough said.
Love Granny.
UPDATE
Sorry everyone, I have been feeling very 'off' since last chemo but it is over. I have had my Radio therapy planning meeting - and now have my tattoo marks for postioning. 25 sessions from 22/11/2006 then by 02/01/2007 I will be free of the second stage of treatment. I have started my Tamoxifen so it is all action forward to the new year.
Visited work yesterday for another planning meeting this on for going back to work. Met a lot of friends and felt the old buzz. I do so miss being at work - how sad is that.
Love Granny XXXXX
Visited work yesterday for another planning meeting this on for going back to work. Met a lot of friends and felt the old buzz. I do so miss being at work - how sad is that.
Love Granny XXXXX
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
ITS OVER - THIS BIT
Last chemo done and dusted. Feeling V tired but OK. With love to the Oncology Unit at Queen Mary's Sidcup - who helped me through. Granny
Sunday, November 05, 2006
TELL ME ON A SUNDAY
Everybody knows that I love Sundays, and today is no exception. Everything is peaceful and quiet. I am able to sit and get my thoughts in order prior to the last chemo this coming wednesday. It has been a long journey thus far, but strangely it has gone quickly. I need to focus on the Radio therapy next which is a bit scary. I keep the positive vibes going by refusing to dwell on the future and any return of the cancer I focus more on the future and my life with Mick and 'doing stuff'.
I have looked at my hairless head and noted some regrowth and a very definate 'whiteness' rather than the grey I had naturally and the brown/blonde thing I had going with the dye bottle. I do hope that I go pure white which I will wear short and neat. I try to dress in a postive way, a little bit fashion and little bit country. I made one real purchase, a nice pair of burgundy ankle boots with nice high heels.. these are go any wear boots, smart and sassy.
I hope to go to the Kareokee tomorrow, to get a couple of songs off my chest before Wed, perhaps a nice meal on tuesday after the blood tests. I do hope they find some useable veins this time. 'Tell me on a Sunday' is the title of a song which I love to sing - perhaps I shall warble it on monday.
Love to all Granny.
I have looked at my hairless head and noted some regrowth and a very definate 'whiteness' rather than the grey I had naturally and the brown/blonde thing I had going with the dye bottle. I do hope that I go pure white which I will wear short and neat. I try to dress in a postive way, a little bit fashion and little bit country. I made one real purchase, a nice pair of burgundy ankle boots with nice high heels.. these are go any wear boots, smart and sassy.
I hope to go to the Kareokee tomorrow, to get a couple of songs off my chest before Wed, perhaps a nice meal on tuesday after the blood tests. I do hope they find some useable veins this time. 'Tell me on a Sunday' is the title of a song which I love to sing - perhaps I shall warble it on monday.
Love to all Granny.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
DEATH OF A COLLEAGUE
I have just learnt that a colleague and friend (Angie) died suddenly last week from an aneurysm in the brain. She was at the Gym and died before she hit the floor such is the speed of this condition. She was a very fine officer and mother of an 11 year old. I admired her and I am very shocked by the news, she was so strong and apparently fit. I looked up the condition and note that this is a silent killer, with few warning signs if any. My heart goes out to her family. It really makes you think about the fragility of life and the need to live life to the full.
Love to my friend from Granny.
Love to my friend from Granny.
Friday, November 03, 2006
UPDATE.
I saw the consultant yesterday, I will have 6 weeks of radiotherapy and I will be on Tamoxifen for 5 years. I am not suitable for Heceptin. Its all about the hormones, my age, the menopause, and the lymph glands that had also been infected.
The last few day have been beautiful, sunny but cold. the tree looks wonderful in the afternoon light.
I saw a green woodpecker on Monday, in the front of our house (on the street) climbing up the trunk of a tree, when I approached I saw it clearly when I looked it up in the books it was a perfect example. Wow that is two types of woodpecker in our locatity.
Mick took me to Hastings on Wednesday, it was beautiful, the sea was like a mill pond. We had great fish and chips (washed down with wine) in the 'Fish Hut' I recommend this place, small but clean and nice with well cooked good food. It is right by the Fishing Net buildings at the end of the old town. The shops were worth a visit too. It was a perfect day. I love the beach and the smell of the sea.
The little things mean a lot.
Love granny
The last few day have been beautiful, sunny but cold. the tree looks wonderful in the afternoon light.
I saw a green woodpecker on Monday, in the front of our house (on the street) climbing up the trunk of a tree, when I approached I saw it clearly when I looked it up in the books it was a perfect example. Wow that is two types of woodpecker in our locatity.
Mick took me to Hastings on Wednesday, it was beautiful, the sea was like a mill pond. We had great fish and chips (washed down with wine) in the 'Fish Hut' I recommend this place, small but clean and nice with well cooked good food. It is right by the Fishing Net buildings at the end of the old town. The shops were worth a visit too. It was a perfect day. I love the beach and the smell of the sea.
The little things mean a lot.
Love granny
MORE ANGELS!
What can I say - what a coward if true, that the father of Sayrah, Sophia, Alicia and Hannah and husband of Caneze killed them and himself by fire! apparently he was depressed by his son Adams terminal illness.....OK what is Adam going to do now?... who will visit him just when he needs his Mum and sisters this monster has taken his only comfort? Shame on him. I am feed up with these weak men who kill their families because of their own inadaquacies.
Then there is a man who killed his three year old daughter with clorform, because his wife had an affair. Shame on her, but shame on him. Fifteen years is not enough of a sentence. An affair is no reason to kill a child. I have no sympathy for him at all. The mother is a sad and deluded self absorbed individual who needs help - internet sex and affairs indicate a fundementally weak human being.
Madonna - dear god - surely this is the worst of stories, buying a child, not dealing correctly with the laws, showing money and power are corrupting. This poor little baby boy, purchased and haggled over by the greedy father who dumped him in a orphanage and by a rich power mad egotist who thinks fame and money overide everything. She will of course dump David if he becomes a burden or is not grateful. She is greedy, selfish and arrogant and is no example to anyone. I would love to adopt a child myself but understand that you cannot remove a child from its roots. It is better to help the society they come from by reducing debt, teaching and providing support to get the country back to selfsufficiency. This is all about her ego, which is already enormous one can only imagine what monsters her children will grow up to be if this is the example she sets. BIN her.
Then there are the two queens of the catwalk Campbell and Moss, vain ungrateful creatures who earn millions yet cannot control themselves.. Examples and role models they are not. Just spoilt brats near the end of their sell by date. I say sell because they have sold their souls, should we care? absolutely not. They will end up old and haggered like the rest of us. They are stupid and ignorant if they think they are important because they 'wear clothes' and the companies who employ them are shallow and dishonest. They are typical of this generation of wasters and short term icons of vainity. One is a violent individual who picks on her staff the other believes that an idot like Pete Docherty (who should have been in prison years ago) will be her knight in shining armour. He will never be clean he doesnt have the strength of character needed to lift himself out of addiction, he loves it too much. These three are silly stupid children who need to grow up and thank their lucky stars they dont have to clean loos for a living. They are perfect examples of the degenration of society that only loves money.
I am so angry, at the state of the world and the condition of humans. granny
Then there is a man who killed his three year old daughter with clorform, because his wife had an affair. Shame on her, but shame on him. Fifteen years is not enough of a sentence. An affair is no reason to kill a child. I have no sympathy for him at all. The mother is a sad and deluded self absorbed individual who needs help - internet sex and affairs indicate a fundementally weak human being.
Madonna - dear god - surely this is the worst of stories, buying a child, not dealing correctly with the laws, showing money and power are corrupting. This poor little baby boy, purchased and haggled over by the greedy father who dumped him in a orphanage and by a rich power mad egotist who thinks fame and money overide everything. She will of course dump David if he becomes a burden or is not grateful. She is greedy, selfish and arrogant and is no example to anyone. I would love to adopt a child myself but understand that you cannot remove a child from its roots. It is better to help the society they come from by reducing debt, teaching and providing support to get the country back to selfsufficiency. This is all about her ego, which is already enormous one can only imagine what monsters her children will grow up to be if this is the example she sets. BIN her.
Then there are the two queens of the catwalk Campbell and Moss, vain ungrateful creatures who earn millions yet cannot control themselves.. Examples and role models they are not. Just spoilt brats near the end of their sell by date. I say sell because they have sold their souls, should we care? absolutely not. They will end up old and haggered like the rest of us. They are stupid and ignorant if they think they are important because they 'wear clothes' and the companies who employ them are shallow and dishonest. They are typical of this generation of wasters and short term icons of vainity. One is a violent individual who picks on her staff the other believes that an idot like Pete Docherty (who should have been in prison years ago) will be her knight in shining armour. He will never be clean he doesnt have the strength of character needed to lift himself out of addiction, he loves it too much. These three are silly stupid children who need to grow up and thank their lucky stars they dont have to clean loos for a living. They are perfect examples of the degenration of society that only loves money.
I am so angry, at the state of the world and the condition of humans. granny
Monday, October 30, 2006
TWO MORE ANGELS
What can I say, two children Robert and Christie died on holiday in Corfu from an apparently faulty piece of equipment leading to carbon monoxide poisoning. How their poor mother (who was not there) must be feeling can only be guessed at. Their father remains very ill himself and does not yet know. My heart breaks for them all. I pray for them. Nothing will ease the pain of this loss, what must happen is that they get lots of love and support.
The lesson is that we all must check when we are on holiday that things are correct. This is not to blame the parents but to save a life.
Love from Granny
The lesson is that we all must check when we are on holiday that things are correct. This is not to blame the parents but to save a life.
Love from Granny
Sunday, October 29, 2006
DO'IN MY THING
Well viewers, I am feeling heeps better today.
The sun has been shining and I can only say a perfect Sunday. Mick is working sadly so perhaps not that perfect. He has been roped in to play his bagpipes for the farms halloween tractor rides. They have him dressed up as a mad monk as well, apparently on Friday there were a lot of screaming kids.
I shall indulge myself today, Jerk Chicken sour cream and salad and masses of Fruit - washed down with sparkling Pinot Grigio. Yes Sir a perfect sunday.
Love granny.
The sun has been shining and I can only say a perfect Sunday. Mick is working sadly so perhaps not that perfect. He has been roped in to play his bagpipes for the farms halloween tractor rides. They have him dressed up as a mad monk as well, apparently on Friday there were a lot of screaming kids.
I shall indulge myself today, Jerk Chicken sour cream and salad and masses of Fruit - washed down with sparkling Pinot Grigio. Yes Sir a perfect sunday.
Love granny.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
UPDATE
Sorry for not being up to date, but I have been asleep most of the time. Feeling pretty grim but again this expected. The day is grey which is pretty depressing, yet it is Autumn so I guess that it is to be expected. Mick is taking me on a treat tomorrow, I only hope I can do it justice. I really want to get back to work in November so here's hoping.
My brother and his wife are currently in Lake Como Italy which they say is wonderful, I am so jealous but they deserve it they work really hard.
Three little boys who live in my street, Charlie, Jack and Junior brought me round a card and some chocolate as a get well gift. These are nice decent kids, who we encourage - they wanted to earn money in the summer so we suggested clearing the close of rubbish weekly which they did. They brought us the results and we paid them. I believe starting young in teaching people to care for their environment. The guys are a bit scared of silly old bald me, but they light up my life at the moment. They did not have to get the card etc, they even drew a flower for me inside the card, now that was special. A beacon of hope.
However, somewhere in my memory I read this week we are less likely to challenge bad behaviour in our young. Shame Shame Shame.....what a thing to print, now of course the little perishers will think they have the upper hand. If true, the general public only have them self to blame, They do not! I would of course always intervene, and when I am angry 'yobs' had better be very afraid (I am even toxic now) Walk tall.
Remember that Halloween is not an excuse to rob, so trick or treat back. Firework night is nearly here, remember the new laws are in force and arrest is a very good option. For the elderly, do not open your doors at all to people you do not know nor whom you are not expecting. You are in control - no appointment no entry. Don't be fooled into feeling mean, if the kids parents want them to have stuff, let them buy it, it's not your problem. Shut the door and shut them out. Do not give on the streets to kids who do 'penny for the guy', this is begging. The less we give the less they will want to sit out side shops.
I want to see all schools in an area account for the behaviour of their students, and parents should be levied for the damage done to buses BY THEIR CHILDREN in money!. If a bus is delayed due to the behaviour of children from a school travelling free... then that bus should be withdrawn, ie not stop at a bus stop anywhere near the school. Children should walk to school. If a child is killed as one will undoubtedly be given the behaviour, who will get the blame, the bus or the kids? The mayor would have been better advised to provide small buses only for adults no kids allowed. Punish all until the lesson is learnt.
Pray for rain on firework night.
A very grummpy granny.
My brother and his wife are currently in Lake Como Italy which they say is wonderful, I am so jealous but they deserve it they work really hard.
Three little boys who live in my street, Charlie, Jack and Junior brought me round a card and some chocolate as a get well gift. These are nice decent kids, who we encourage - they wanted to earn money in the summer so we suggested clearing the close of rubbish weekly which they did. They brought us the results and we paid them. I believe starting young in teaching people to care for their environment. The guys are a bit scared of silly old bald me, but they light up my life at the moment. They did not have to get the card etc, they even drew a flower for me inside the card, now that was special. A beacon of hope.
However, somewhere in my memory I read this week we are less likely to challenge bad behaviour in our young. Shame Shame Shame.....what a thing to print, now of course the little perishers will think they have the upper hand. If true, the general public only have them self to blame, They do not! I would of course always intervene, and when I am angry 'yobs' had better be very afraid (I am even toxic now) Walk tall.
Remember that Halloween is not an excuse to rob, so trick or treat back. Firework night is nearly here, remember the new laws are in force and arrest is a very good option. For the elderly, do not open your doors at all to people you do not know nor whom you are not expecting. You are in control - no appointment no entry. Don't be fooled into feeling mean, if the kids parents want them to have stuff, let them buy it, it's not your problem. Shut the door and shut them out. Do not give on the streets to kids who do 'penny for the guy', this is begging. The less we give the less they will want to sit out side shops.
I want to see all schools in an area account for the behaviour of their students, and parents should be levied for the damage done to buses BY THEIR CHILDREN in money!. If a bus is delayed due to the behaviour of children from a school travelling free... then that bus should be withdrawn, ie not stop at a bus stop anywhere near the school. Children should walk to school. If a child is killed as one will undoubtedly be given the behaviour, who will get the blame, the bus or the kids? The mayor would have been better advised to provide small buses only for adults no kids allowed. Punish all until the lesson is learnt.
Pray for rain on firework night.
A very grummpy granny.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
I HATE TO SAY I TOLD YOU SO
In as recent post I likened North Korean actions to Nazi Germany and the Nuremberg Rallies, and low and behold up they come with a massive candle light rally a la Nuremberg. The iconography was not lost on the media who actually refered to this past era in its own analysis. People out there, you had better be scared. Forget the Cuban Missile crisis this is serious and the leader is unpredictable, posturing and without consicience a very dangerous combination.
This is what dictatorship is about and you bet your life being Muslim, Buddist, Sikh, Hindu, Christian or jewish is not tolerated here. There are no individuals here only machines. This is what a real totalitarian ideological state is all about. If that's what other people (and I mean all the people ) want for their children- on their own head be it. The dictator decides what you should read, listen to, paint, draw, write, who you should marry, how many children you have, what you earn, eat and own (if anything) what you wear and how, what you believe and how. Human Rights do not exist here. Religious freedom does not exist here... Watch and weep this could be your future.
In warning to all. Love Granny
This is what dictatorship is about and you bet your life being Muslim, Buddist, Sikh, Hindu, Christian or jewish is not tolerated here. There are no individuals here only machines. This is what a real totalitarian ideological state is all about. If that's what other people (and I mean all the people ) want for their children- on their own head be it. The dictator decides what you should read, listen to, paint, draw, write, who you should marry, how many children you have, what you earn, eat and own (if anything) what you wear and how, what you believe and how. Human Rights do not exist here. Religious freedom does not exist here... Watch and weep this could be your future.
In warning to all. Love Granny
ONLY ONE TO GO
Yesterday's 5th Chemo went well and I feel a whole bunch better than last time. I am tired of course but the team changed my anti nausea tabs to give me a better reaction. Apparently at about this stage this does become necessary due to build up of drugs needing a more powerful antidote.
I slept well which is important. Mick cooked me a lovely casserole and I could taste all the fresh veg he used, I am not a great lover of meat but strangely I love kidney and I could taste this also - I was so pleased.
On the day before my chemo I meet up with my team for coffee, which was so nice, chating like we do. I also had a goody bag from Cathy our (station reception officer) which was so thoughtful and kind including a great book, some body stuff and a very sexy lepoard print candle - I feel a bath coming on. One of the things I have found is that my friends have been so supportive, what more can you ask.
ONLY ONE TO GO NOW - last chemo is 8th November 2006 YIPPEE.
Love to all my friends. Granny. XXX
I slept well which is important. Mick cooked me a lovely casserole and I could taste all the fresh veg he used, I am not a great lover of meat but strangely I love kidney and I could taste this also - I was so pleased.
On the day before my chemo I meet up with my team for coffee, which was so nice, chating like we do. I also had a goody bag from Cathy our (station reception officer) which was so thoughtful and kind including a great book, some body stuff and a very sexy lepoard print candle - I feel a bath coming on. One of the things I have found is that my friends have been so supportive, what more can you ask.
ONLY ONE TO GO NOW - last chemo is 8th November 2006 YIPPEE.
Love to all my friends. Granny. XXX
Sunday, October 15, 2006
A LIFE CHANGING EXPERIENCE
Breast Cancer is a life changing experience. Why? well in the first instance your body is made different, you lose part or all of the most visibly female part of you, the thing that everybody appears to value as the most important simble of femininity - other wise why would women seek to enhance boobs beyond the natural to the biggest and bigger as a statement that says I am more woman than the next woman. It has a price this love of self - it destroys and makes the individual the some total of a boob job and nothing more. The boobs that are created are plastic, and have no feeling of connection to the person, you might has well be a blow up doll for all that others (men usually) care. This is such a shame. As a result of this boob obsession, women with breast cancer who lose one or both completely are made to feel less than womanly and this is not just a shame it is a crime. Women are more than the sum of their boobs.
Now my boobs are truly individual. I am not ashamed of my scars.
Secondly my body has to fight this invasion, this growth, this tumour and it has to fight the chemicals that are trying to keep further growth at bay. This may not work and I could die from the spread of the disease. Therefore I must take advantage of the time that I have. I don't want to die, but I am no longer afraid of dying I have settled my mind to that. It is a journey I must take alone, although I am fully aware of the impact it has on my husband and my family who have to deal with this new me. They also have to deal with the fear.
All my life I have been afraid of knockbacks, I have been guarded and afraid of being me because I need to be liked. I am opinionated, and I am now even more sure I must voice my views. I always wanted to be an artist and writer, so here I am writing. I want to think outside my comfort zone and give all that I have to the time that I have left. I am exploring my art, not well but I am trying.
I have always earnt my own living, I have never been kept! I intend to keep it that way.
Thirdly I have become slower, more likely to rest than in the past. The informed opinion tells you that you have to slow down and take care of yourself, so I am doing as I have been told.
I still boil when I see injustice, bad behaviour and bad citizenship. I am more likely to explore my faith, what God is or is not. I don't believe in being part of a particular religious tradition I believe what I believe and don't press it on others, and do not expect to be pressured by others to follow this or that path. You only have to read the titles on my book shelf to see how I read around the issue of faith, of history, to women and their lives.
Fourth, I am stronger as an individual. I do not need to be validated by anyone elses opinion. To see me you must listen to my words and look into my face - where the truth about my life is. I will not shroud myself, that is why I am proud to be bald, and walk with my head held high and uncoverd. To cover myself would make me an object and not a person. I watch peoples faces all the time, I communicate with them non verbally this way. I look into their faces and smile, I acknowledge that they exist. I watch them look at me and look away because they are afraid of what they see, a bald woman who must have something teribble or I am an object of curiosity or ridicule (usually the young) Do I care, not a jot. In fact it makes me more defiant.
You can see where I am going with this, the debate about the veil, I personally feel that it reduces a woman to an object and that it is rude not to acknowledge that others have difficulty with it, not on religious grounds but on the simple fact that it implies secrets, lies or hiding away or that other women are less modest. It also means that the hard of hearing are excluded, many of us lip read even if we are not deaf in order to fully understand what is being said to us, across a crowded room for example or in a noisy environment such (especially) as a classroom. It is a discriminatory and exclusory act. By my not covering up my difference I am including everybody, they can see who I am and why I am. The veil is a difference for sure, but it objectifies rather than defines, it sets apart since others cannot understand who 'you' are. It divides and sets apart. The other type of head wear does not do this, it explains a particular religious stance but does not depersonalise the individual. through our facial expressions we show joy, love, fear, anger, resentment, so by covering the face we are cutting out almost three quarters of our means of communication. It is not a religious issue, since Nuns also cover themselves, but not their faces - for there we often find serenity.
Another issue, is whether a woman can wear a cross to work or not, small and unobtrusive! of course she should. it does not affect her ability to do her job as a desk clerk. She was a little silly to wear out side her uniform for very sensible reasons but to suspend her is ridiculous. I wear a cross (a crucifix actually) as a symbol and always have, because I value it, I wear it close to my heart, but under my clothing, my common sense tells me that a violent person could rip it off me. It does tell people I am Christian, but if it is under my shirt they don't see it but I hope by my actions recognise that I have certain values associated with Christian values such as compassion. But if my shirt is open neck, I will not take it off, if I lose it then it is my fault, but I don't make it too obvious and button up high enough to cover it while still being open necked. For the same reason I don't take of my wedding ring. This doesn't mean that I won't under any circumstances. I would certainly take it off while doing physical training in a gym or close quarters self defence, it would be stupid not to. One of my own considerations about jewellery is that if a uniform is being worn (military or police) earings should not be worn, it is so out of place, inappropriate and dangerous. I act on this myself and never have worn earings at work when in uniform. I am not a do as I say not as I do kind of person. I hope I have always lead by example. Do you see where I am going with this? it is about common sense and balance.
Lastly, I have always wanted to rise up through the ranks and reach a position of authority, so I could make a difference, but I never got around to it because I was lazy. I did study to give myself a certain power when I leave my job (retire) so that I can be careful in my choice of further employment in the later years. This now seems to have been wasted. I hope that I can live long enough to work for the pleasure of it rather than necessity alone. Of course bills will still have to be paid but - I want to do what I want to do. I also have wished to live abroad, in a sunny and laid back environment, maybe I will and may be I won't now be able to, but I will explore those possibilities. I will learn a language, play golf, swim more, paint and write for the pleasure of it. Is this where I thought I would be at nearly 52, no it is not.
If fate puts a strict time limit on me then, I will travel until I no longer can. I will enjoy my life.
That it for now. Love Granny.
Now my boobs are truly individual. I am not ashamed of my scars.
Secondly my body has to fight this invasion, this growth, this tumour and it has to fight the chemicals that are trying to keep further growth at bay. This may not work and I could die from the spread of the disease. Therefore I must take advantage of the time that I have. I don't want to die, but I am no longer afraid of dying I have settled my mind to that. It is a journey I must take alone, although I am fully aware of the impact it has on my husband and my family who have to deal with this new me. They also have to deal with the fear.
All my life I have been afraid of knockbacks, I have been guarded and afraid of being me because I need to be liked. I am opinionated, and I am now even more sure I must voice my views. I always wanted to be an artist and writer, so here I am writing. I want to think outside my comfort zone and give all that I have to the time that I have left. I am exploring my art, not well but I am trying.
I have always earnt my own living, I have never been kept! I intend to keep it that way.
Thirdly I have become slower, more likely to rest than in the past. The informed opinion tells you that you have to slow down and take care of yourself, so I am doing as I have been told.
I still boil when I see injustice, bad behaviour and bad citizenship. I am more likely to explore my faith, what God is or is not. I don't believe in being part of a particular religious tradition I believe what I believe and don't press it on others, and do not expect to be pressured by others to follow this or that path. You only have to read the titles on my book shelf to see how I read around the issue of faith, of history, to women and their lives.
Fourth, I am stronger as an individual. I do not need to be validated by anyone elses opinion. To see me you must listen to my words and look into my face - where the truth about my life is. I will not shroud myself, that is why I am proud to be bald, and walk with my head held high and uncoverd. To cover myself would make me an object and not a person. I watch peoples faces all the time, I communicate with them non verbally this way. I look into their faces and smile, I acknowledge that they exist. I watch them look at me and look away because they are afraid of what they see, a bald woman who must have something teribble or I am an object of curiosity or ridicule (usually the young) Do I care, not a jot. In fact it makes me more defiant.
You can see where I am going with this, the debate about the veil, I personally feel that it reduces a woman to an object and that it is rude not to acknowledge that others have difficulty with it, not on religious grounds but on the simple fact that it implies secrets, lies or hiding away or that other women are less modest. It also means that the hard of hearing are excluded, many of us lip read even if we are not deaf in order to fully understand what is being said to us, across a crowded room for example or in a noisy environment such (especially) as a classroom. It is a discriminatory and exclusory act. By my not covering up my difference I am including everybody, they can see who I am and why I am. The veil is a difference for sure, but it objectifies rather than defines, it sets apart since others cannot understand who 'you' are. It divides and sets apart. The other type of head wear does not do this, it explains a particular religious stance but does not depersonalise the individual. through our facial expressions we show joy, love, fear, anger, resentment, so by covering the face we are cutting out almost three quarters of our means of communication. It is not a religious issue, since Nuns also cover themselves, but not their faces - for there we often find serenity.
Another issue, is whether a woman can wear a cross to work or not, small and unobtrusive! of course she should. it does not affect her ability to do her job as a desk clerk. She was a little silly to wear out side her uniform for very sensible reasons but to suspend her is ridiculous. I wear a cross (a crucifix actually) as a symbol and always have, because I value it, I wear it close to my heart, but under my clothing, my common sense tells me that a violent person could rip it off me. It does tell people I am Christian, but if it is under my shirt they don't see it but I hope by my actions recognise that I have certain values associated with Christian values such as compassion. But if my shirt is open neck, I will not take it off, if I lose it then it is my fault, but I don't make it too obvious and button up high enough to cover it while still being open necked. For the same reason I don't take of my wedding ring. This doesn't mean that I won't under any circumstances. I would certainly take it off while doing physical training in a gym or close quarters self defence, it would be stupid not to. One of my own considerations about jewellery is that if a uniform is being worn (military or police) earings should not be worn, it is so out of place, inappropriate and dangerous. I act on this myself and never have worn earings at work when in uniform. I am not a do as I say not as I do kind of person. I hope I have always lead by example. Do you see where I am going with this? it is about common sense and balance.
Lastly, I have always wanted to rise up through the ranks and reach a position of authority, so I could make a difference, but I never got around to it because I was lazy. I did study to give myself a certain power when I leave my job (retire) so that I can be careful in my choice of further employment in the later years. This now seems to have been wasted. I hope that I can live long enough to work for the pleasure of it rather than necessity alone. Of course bills will still have to be paid but - I want to do what I want to do. I also have wished to live abroad, in a sunny and laid back environment, maybe I will and may be I won't now be able to, but I will explore those possibilities. I will learn a language, play golf, swim more, paint and write for the pleasure of it. Is this where I thought I would be at nearly 52, no it is not.
If fate puts a strict time limit on me then, I will travel until I no longer can. I will enjoy my life.
That it for now. Love Granny.
Friday, October 13, 2006
FRIDAY MOAN
I have to say 'rock on' General Sir Richard Dannatt, I saw him a little while ago on TV and said to Mick, now here's a man who will speak his mind and yes he has. There is need for a plan, and there isn't one so this leaves our soldiers exposed. Being a history person, there is a real sense of being here before ie World War One and lots of political interference. Of course the Vietnam war seems to have been lost on the Americans. Lessons learnt? No. Don't get me wrong or misquote me I am not an anti war harridan, I am as opposed to that lot as I am the politicians and religious interferance.
There is no such thing as peacekeeping, war is war is war, do it and get out. You cannot get between to warring tribes when they both seek power you cannot win. Pull out and if they choose to fight each other and kill themselves and others while so doing then so be it, that is their problem and not ours.
There are greater issues for our safety than this that are going on under the cover of Iraq - North Korea and Iran do not like being sidelined by the issues of Afganistan and Iraq, so what do they do - they up the anti with saber rattling the nuclear bomb - this is dangerous! you had better believe they will use whatever they have. If that doesn't frighten us then nothing else should. Both states have no scruples and they both have a brainwashed population. Just take a look at the pictures of marching armies and faceless throngs coming from both states. I recall the pictures of Nazi Germany prior to World War Two - a very similar example of mass control by hysterical leaders as witnessed in the Nuremberg rallies, change the nation and you have both these states doing the self same thing. It is about control and their love of it, they are high on power and are dangerous for that very reason. Their own people mean nothing to them. They will destroy everything and everyone just to prove a point. Both will sell nucelar devices to the person who comes knocking on their door, why? for hard cash and any group who could destroy their enemies for them. We do not need any peace in our time bits of paper! because all politicians lie.
What of China, well they will pick up the pieces! they just have to sit back and let what is going to happen happen. Here is a country that kills its own people to harvest body parts for transplant in the name of justice, allows baby girls to die in the name of population control (boys are needed for the army of course) and makes a mockery of the animal world in an 'Olympic Games for Animals' and we are all going to be watching the real Olympics there soon - so much for moral stands. They will be only to happy if Korea and Iran do the hard work for them.
Come on open your eyes. love Granny
There is no such thing as peacekeeping, war is war is war, do it and get out. You cannot get between to warring tribes when they both seek power you cannot win. Pull out and if they choose to fight each other and kill themselves and others while so doing then so be it, that is their problem and not ours.
There are greater issues for our safety than this that are going on under the cover of Iraq - North Korea and Iran do not like being sidelined by the issues of Afganistan and Iraq, so what do they do - they up the anti with saber rattling the nuclear bomb - this is dangerous! you had better believe they will use whatever they have. If that doesn't frighten us then nothing else should. Both states have no scruples and they both have a brainwashed population. Just take a look at the pictures of marching armies and faceless throngs coming from both states. I recall the pictures of Nazi Germany prior to World War Two - a very similar example of mass control by hysterical leaders as witnessed in the Nuremberg rallies, change the nation and you have both these states doing the self same thing. It is about control and their love of it, they are high on power and are dangerous for that very reason. Their own people mean nothing to them. They will destroy everything and everyone just to prove a point. Both will sell nucelar devices to the person who comes knocking on their door, why? for hard cash and any group who could destroy their enemies for them. We do not need any peace in our time bits of paper! because all politicians lie.
What of China, well they will pick up the pieces! they just have to sit back and let what is going to happen happen. Here is a country that kills its own people to harvest body parts for transplant in the name of justice, allows baby girls to die in the name of population control (boys are needed for the army of course) and makes a mockery of the animal world in an 'Olympic Games for Animals' and we are all going to be watching the real Olympics there soon - so much for moral stands. They will be only to happy if Korea and Iran do the hard work for them.
Come on open your eyes. love Granny
Thursday, October 12, 2006
WISP IS BACK
On Tuesday I was looking out the office window and there she was 'WISP' making an elegant entrance into our garden, light of foot and so beautiful. She seems to have an afternoon beat, ariving between 2pm and 3pm.
Just a moment ago a Blue Tit arrived had hung out on the water overflow pipe under the eaves to take a little drink. This again gave me an excellent view.
After yesterdays very heavy rain, today is sunny and warm which is pleasant for me. The tree is quiet except for a crow who appears to ge drying out.
I am feeling better again today, which I am thankful for. I am going to try and write a couple of articles and to do some work on my PhD (If my brain will let me)
As a passionate England football supporter, I am sad about yesterdays game against Croatia. Bring back Beckham is what I say. For the under 21's 2 nice goals from Theo Woollcot. Please God let us play as a team. I think I would ditch Roony for a while he is too much the prima donna and in truth he is fading some what, too much too soon seems about right.
I am looking forward to seeing Mum at the weekend. Love Granny.
Just a moment ago a Blue Tit arrived had hung out on the water overflow pipe under the eaves to take a little drink. This again gave me an excellent view.
After yesterdays very heavy rain, today is sunny and warm which is pleasant for me. The tree is quiet except for a crow who appears to ge drying out.
I am feeling better again today, which I am thankful for. I am going to try and write a couple of articles and to do some work on my PhD (If my brain will let me)
As a passionate England football supporter, I am sad about yesterdays game against Croatia. Bring back Beckham is what I say. For the under 21's 2 nice goals from Theo Woollcot. Please God let us play as a team. I think I would ditch Roony for a while he is too much the prima donna and in truth he is fading some what, too much too soon seems about right.
I am looking forward to seeing Mum at the weekend. Love Granny.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
CLOSE ENCOUNTER WITH A BLUE TIT
That doesn't mean my left boob either!!!
Today while in the office I was amazed to see a blue tit trying to fly in the window, it then hung on the wall under the eaves for a splendid view. I became aware of a regular gaggle of Blue Tits in the trees. My neighbours Alan and Angela had hung out some fresh peanut dispensers and boy did these gyes know it, a regular feeding frenzie. I called to Mick and he saw this cute little fella and we were so close. If we had been outside this would not have been possible.
I am avidly watching Autumn watch on the BBC it is so interesting.
Mick took me out yesterday, which was wonderful, just being out. I have an aroma therapy appointment this week at the Hospital. As part of my treatment it is the most pleasant experience.
If you get into Joe's site, forget his local political stuff, just look at his wild life pictures and those of the environment at his place - he gets some magic shots. www.national-joe-a-graphic.blogspot.com/
Please engage in the debate 'history matters' on the web, I am passionate about history and its study so can not wait to see the film 'The History Boys' There was an excellent article in the times yesterday by Dr David Starkey. History really does MATTER.
Love Granny
Today while in the office I was amazed to see a blue tit trying to fly in the window, it then hung on the wall under the eaves for a splendid view. I became aware of a regular gaggle of Blue Tits in the trees. My neighbours Alan and Angela had hung out some fresh peanut dispensers and boy did these gyes know it, a regular feeding frenzie. I called to Mick and he saw this cute little fella and we were so close. If we had been outside this would not have been possible.
I am avidly watching Autumn watch on the BBC it is so interesting.
Mick took me out yesterday, which was wonderful, just being out. I have an aroma therapy appointment this week at the Hospital. As part of my treatment it is the most pleasant experience.
If you get into Joe's site, forget his local political stuff, just look at his wild life pictures and those of the environment at his place - he gets some magic shots. www.national-joe-a-graphic.blogspot.com/
Please engage in the debate 'history matters' on the web, I am passionate about history and its study so can not wait to see the film 'The History Boys' There was an excellent article in the times yesterday by Dr David Starkey. History really does MATTER.
Love Granny
Monday, October 09, 2006
AMISH EXAMPLE
It should be a lesson to us all, the Amish response to the killing of the 5 little girls. They had it in their hearts to invite the wife of the killer to the funeral, accepting that she and her children were as much victims as their own. This was an act of reconsilation we could well take heart from. The wife attended, was taken by carriage with the rest. It was peaceful and full of dignity. No one will ever understand this act, but to carry anger in your heart makes it harder to bear the loss and to heal. I admire this attitude of forgiveness, I wish I could be so inclinde.
As you can probably tell I am feeling better myself, Alan, Julie, Rachel and Sam came to see me yesterday and cheered me up so much. I have my taste back, tea is less like liquid iron on the tongue.
Today I have been 27 years in my job. Now theres a thing!
Love granny
As you can probably tell I am feeling better myself, Alan, Julie, Rachel and Sam came to see me yesterday and cheered me up so much. I have my taste back, tea is less like liquid iron on the tongue.
Today I have been 27 years in my job. Now theres a thing!
Love granny
Thursday, October 05, 2006
UPDATE
Well here I am again, not feeling well at all today. Fatigue is a real pain in the arse (and it's raining bah!!) I also feel sick all the time, not heavily just persistant and annoying. My head is also aching and feels heavy and nothing tastes as it should. Sorry to be a moaning minnie, just feeling Yuck. This really is to be expected of course and I knew I would feel this way. merlot and I will just keep at it, and try and move forward.
Love Granny
Love Granny
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
AUTUMN WATCH
Please try and watch Autumn Watch on BB2 with Bill Odie and Kate Humble it is the highlight of my day.
During the past 6 months Mick and I have been aware of a nocturnal visitor in our garden. We had reason to believe that it likes our overgrown shed roof that backs on to the cemetery wall and shelters there. Merlot goes completely ape about this 'phantom' lurking there because she cannot reach the roof. Well, yesterday I made a discovery. I just happened to be in the office and looking out of the window at the butterflies, when I noticed a movement, slinky and subtle the creature emerged from the roof undegrowth and slid over the wall into our neighbours garden. It was a beautiful young fox, a vixen I think. She moved with delicacy along the back of my neighbour garden pausing under the trees near the pond and looking intently at a plump woodpigeon. She carried on to the out house turned and returned sliping back over the fence to our shed, where she sat an gave me perfect look at her sweet little face. She was totally alert but comfortable sunning herself briefly, her muzzel was shiny white and her eyes bright. she then slipped without effort down between wall and shed. I have no doubt she is our resident. I was really eager to tell Mick, he said perhaps we will have cubs soon. Later that evening the noise from the cemetery was of fox calls, and I believe he will be proved correct. The place is ideal for her, good cover, ready water and food on the wing. Today there are tell tale feathers on the shed! Sadly I did not have my camera nearby to snap a picture. I hope to see her again. I think I will call her 'Wisp' it seems appropriate since she has been 'A will'o the wisp'.
Today the sun is out and the Red Admirals are back basking on one of our bushes. The berries are begining to colour up, some red and some shiny black.
I have noticed while sitting here these past months is that because the window is under the eaves, when the huge Woodpigeons decide to land on our gutter it is as if they are going to land belly up on the window. I get a perfect undercarriage view. I never cease to be amazed by nature and although there is an increasing chill in the air, I have two months of heavenly colour to enjoy.
Love Granny XXXX
During the past 6 months Mick and I have been aware of a nocturnal visitor in our garden. We had reason to believe that it likes our overgrown shed roof that backs on to the cemetery wall and shelters there. Merlot goes completely ape about this 'phantom' lurking there because she cannot reach the roof. Well, yesterday I made a discovery. I just happened to be in the office and looking out of the window at the butterflies, when I noticed a movement, slinky and subtle the creature emerged from the roof undegrowth and slid over the wall into our neighbours garden. It was a beautiful young fox, a vixen I think. She moved with delicacy along the back of my neighbour garden pausing under the trees near the pond and looking intently at a plump woodpigeon. She carried on to the out house turned and returned sliping back over the fence to our shed, where she sat an gave me perfect look at her sweet little face. She was totally alert but comfortable sunning herself briefly, her muzzel was shiny white and her eyes bright. she then slipped without effort down between wall and shed. I have no doubt she is our resident. I was really eager to tell Mick, he said perhaps we will have cubs soon. Later that evening the noise from the cemetery was of fox calls, and I believe he will be proved correct. The place is ideal for her, good cover, ready water and food on the wing. Today there are tell tale feathers on the shed! Sadly I did not have my camera nearby to snap a picture. I hope to see her again. I think I will call her 'Wisp' it seems appropriate since she has been 'A will'o the wisp'.
Today the sun is out and the Red Admirals are back basking on one of our bushes. The berries are begining to colour up, some red and some shiny black.
I have noticed while sitting here these past months is that because the window is under the eaves, when the huge Woodpigeons decide to land on our gutter it is as if they are going to land belly up on the window. I get a perfect undercarriage view. I never cease to be amazed by nature and although there is an increasing chill in the air, I have two months of heavenly colour to enjoy.
Love Granny XXXX
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
UPDATE
Still feeling poorly, but I was expecting this. I am trying to function normally. Love Granny XX
AMISH SHOOTINGS
How sad is this news, that one man with a grudge for twenty years takes it out on such innocents. Nothing justifies this action. It serves me to believe that in ordinary hands there is no need what so ever for guns, no matter what a constitution says (because that is a man made creed) The same applies to knives which in this country, where they have become a fashion item. A father stabbed in London for confronting teenages who have no respect for anything. We do not need to kill for food any more, we kill for grudges, greed, spite and !!!!
These poor little girls, who have been brought up in very old ways, who knew nothing of life executed in a horrific way - why? for being female. How great must their terror have been, shame on us all for allowing it to happen by not standing up to the gun lobby.
Yes this is a rant, because there is no justification whatsoever for this mans actions, none.
I also pray for the young polish student murdered in Scotland. What a sad world we live in.
Love Granny xx
These poor little girls, who have been brought up in very old ways, who knew nothing of life executed in a horrific way - why? for being female. How great must their terror have been, shame on us all for allowing it to happen by not standing up to the gun lobby.
Yes this is a rant, because there is no justification whatsoever for this mans actions, none.
I also pray for the young polish student murdered in Scotland. What a sad world we live in.
Love Granny xx
Sunday, October 01, 2006
GALAPAGOS
Please if you get a chance watch, BBC2 series (three progs) about the the Galapagos Islands. It is a must. the first was extraordinary (repeated tonight) called Born of Fire. If you want to understand the world and evolution then this is a must see. It can only get better and the wildlife photography is beyond belief, as is the view of the earth. It has made my week especially the Booby birds, who mate for life and have a wonderful ritual of love. Life is hare here on these islands, but miraculous.
Love Granny
Love Granny
DO I RANT?
Possibly, since I have strong opinions. But I do believe in balance and fairmindedness. I believe in the centre path. I am opposed to fanaticism, excess and overt celebrity which is so much disposable nonsence (tissues infact) I believe money is not everything and power is flawed. I distrust politicians and religious leaders who only have their own interests at heart. I condemn drug dealers who dine out on the bodies and frailties of the weak. I detest the famous who tell us it is cool to do drugs or carry a weapon shame on them!. When it comes to crime! murder, rape, child abuse and domestic violence are not to be tolerated ever. Yes I rant, but I hope in a good cause.
Love Granny XXXX
Love Granny XXXX
Saturday, September 30, 2006
STILL TIRED
This last session of chemo has made me very tired. I have been staying in bed where I feel cosy and comfortable and safe. I had quite a long talk with my chemo nurse Yvonne this time round (Keith was on his hols) I realise I must be careful about what I say about cancer and where I direct you. Firstly all our breast cancers are different really, we all react differently to treatment. This is important so that we don't build up unrealistic expectations beyond the nature of the cancer we have. This can be self defeating. Learn and discuss with your medical team. There is so much info out there, most recently in The Independent who had massive front page coverage on the subject (Friday 29th) 80% Rise in Breast Cancer since 1970's!!!! I believe my reasons are since this is a Hormonal Cancer that I have, 1) Never having children so no breast feeding 2) Fat, this is reflected in the fact I had my gaul bladder (fat related) removed last year I was over weight -result I have dramactically changed my diet, 3) Late menopause 4) Alcohol in take more than I should. Some of our experiences are good and some dreadful. Not every treatment works in each case but remember that a postive attitude is so important. We need not to apologise to the world for how we feel or look. Within safe parameters we need to get out there and show people we are not all dying but some sadly have/are and they need love and understanding. It is the big possibility, but not without a fight I can tell you.
I go to my local pub, and my dear friend 'Long John' always gives me a huge hug and says loudly "how is my sexy gorgeous girl", I say "you forgot to call my baldy!" He does wonders making me feel normal and it is a huge demonstration of his support. I hope it shows that I don't care squat about my hair. The Land Lord Kevin has my special drink ready (grapefruit and tonic water) and kisses my hand and other people come up and include me in their groups and fun. Now thats what I call friendship. I am also allowed to sit, read my paper, do my crossword and enjoy the general 'old fahionedness' of a place I love.
Love Granny XXX
I go to my local pub, and my dear friend 'Long John' always gives me a huge hug and says loudly "how is my sexy gorgeous girl", I say "you forgot to call my baldy!" He does wonders making me feel normal and it is a huge demonstration of his support. I hope it shows that I don't care squat about my hair. The Land Lord Kevin has my special drink ready (grapefruit and tonic water) and kisses my hand and other people come up and include me in their groups and fun. Now thats what I call friendship. I am also allowed to sit, read my paper, do my crossword and enjoy the general 'old fahionedness' of a place I love.
Love Granny XXX
Thursday, September 28, 2006
THE WORLDS WORST SPELLER
According to Mick, who read my blog, this is me - the worlds worst speller. I have to agree. I can write a word, look at it and not see that it is wrong. So I apologise to all. I do check but if you can't tell that a word is wrong it does little good. When I am at work Jackie spell checks for me. I am also not brilliant a grammar so you may wonder how I got through my degree courses! well with much blood sweat and tears believe me. I love to read, I read perfectly well I even do crosswords. I think much of my problem is when I write I see in my mind what I want to say, if it sounds right it is right and down it goes generally with letters out of place. So please read around any poor spelling, yes I know my Devine is spelt with an E and not Divine with an I but I am not a divinity am I!
Love Granny.
PS feeling a little better today.
Love Granny.
PS feeling a little better today.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
4 DOWN 2 TO GO
Well that that one done, no pain or discomfort at time of process. I do feel rotten now, very tired and sicky but hey I knew to expect it. I really could not do this without Mick, who is there beside me during the process, he also gives me lots of hugs but I know he is very worried.
Jusy a short one this time.
See you all later.
Love Granny
Jusy a short one this time.
See you all later.
Love Granny
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
SO MANY BREAST CANCER BLOGS
There are so many women like myself out there blogging about Breast Cancer. Look at www.thecancerblog.com which is a great link. Found some ideas that appealed. :-Cancer Vixen and Cancer Warriors are terms I would like to apply to myself.
Then I found a poem on www.grove.ufl.edu/~johndon/blog I researched and found the full version, which I have copied below
If I had my child to raise all over again,
I’d finger-paint more, and point the finger less.
I would do less correcting and more connecting.
I’d take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
I would care to know less and know to care more.
I’d take more hikes and fly more kites.
I’d stop playing serious, and seriously play.
I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars.
I’d do more hugging and less tugging.
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later.
I'd teach less about the love of power ,
and more about the power of love.
by ~Diane Loomans 'Full Esteem Ahead' Published by Kramer, California. Diane is a teacher and author.
It just says it all really and I really must be less judgemental, I should stop moaning and just get on.
The poem above my home desk is '17th Century Nun's Prayer' I will let you to find for yourself as it is quite long. I will leave you with one line:-
'Release me from craving to straighten out everybody's affairs'
Please Lord.
Love Granny xx
Then I found a poem on www.grove.ufl.edu/~johndon/blog I researched and found the full version, which I have copied below
If I had my child to raise all over again,
I’d finger-paint more, and point the finger less.
I would do less correcting and more connecting.
I’d take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
I would care to know less and know to care more.
I’d take more hikes and fly more kites.
I’d stop playing serious, and seriously play.
I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars.
I’d do more hugging and less tugging.
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later.
I'd teach less about the love of power ,
and more about the power of love.
by ~Diane Loomans 'Full Esteem Ahead' Published by Kramer, California. Diane is a teacher and author.
It just says it all really and I really must be less judgemental, I should stop moaning and just get on.
The poem above my home desk is '17th Century Nun's Prayer' I will let you to find for yourself as it is quite long. I will leave you with one line:-
'Release me from craving to straighten out everybody's affairs'
Please Lord.
Love Granny xx
THE DAY BEFORE 4TH CHEMO
RED ADMIRALS IN THE GARDEN!!!
I hate this day, because I know tomorrow I am going to have my chemo, today is the day Ifeel my lowest. The nice thing is that nature came to my rescue. The garden was invaded and awash with Red Admiral Butterflies, which I was surprised to see this late in the year. I am not a butterfly expert. They seemed attracted to a bush that has the early signs of berries, but i think they were attracted by the sun since they sat for ages basking with their wings open. They have been there ages and are indeed still there even as I write.
Mick knows how I feel so he is taking me out for a meal tonight, a treat before the treatment (punny) and because at least I will be able to taste it.
My heart went out to Darren Clark when he played in the Ryder Cup this weekend. Sorry America - Europe won again. But what a tournament, what matches what play. Loved it. Such sportsmanship. To see Darren cheered by his friends only six weeks after losing his wife Heather to Breast Cancer. A man not afraid to cry, is a strong man. He has to be strong for his two young sons who have lost their mummy. I am sure heather was there for him and cheering him on. God Bless them all.
I have to say, Don't blame the Dogs. I was sad to see of the death of a five month old baby apparently mauled to death by two Rottwieler's. These dogs are not vichious unless they are trained or ill treated to become so. They are big dogs with natural tendancies and a bite that can not be freed easily. They did not know she was a baby she was a noisy animal or a toy to them. They were put down and I do understand why. No one should take on these dogs unless they treat them correctly and it appears from the news that they were used as guard dogs. I wonder if the owners understand the law in relation to guard dogs? These dogs should not have been left outside on the roof terrace ever. I suspect that they became jealous of the baby who was in their space (indoors) and reacted as any animal would to an invasion of its space. A baby should not have been taken into this premises at all, responsible dog owners should not have allowed it even if it is family. Also the dogs 'Master' or pack leader were not there so they would see it as defending territory. They were trained to do this it was apparently their role as guard dogs. Ironically on that very day while Mick and I were out walking in local country side we saw two large Rottwielers out with their owner and children. They were well behave and walking calmly. What happens with the press portrayal in pictures and words of these dogs as devil dogs will cause people to view these other two dogs as the same. There is an imperative to treat dogs properly with love and appropriately by owners and strangers.
My dog Merlot (a staffordshire bull terrier cross whippet - a mouth on legs) who is loving, is very much my dog and would get jealous if I give attention to my grandchildren if I had not trained her. She has to understand her place. We seperate them, but do introduce them carefully. Merlot has a V large puppy cage, this is her space and when the children are with us she goes in there. She cannot get out. She would bounce around and I would not risk her scratching or biting the kids when she is excited. When they are older I will take the intrduction further. They are allowed to stroke her only when I have hold of her, they are told how to treat her - ie not tease her. Merlot knows she is loved.
Will write again soon, Love Granny XX
Monday, September 25, 2006
CHRISTMAS REMEMBERED
The pictures are of Ma doing what she does best. This was the christmas OAP party in 2005. Michelle was the booked singer and the landlady asked her to let Ma sing. I am sure she wondered what she was getting up on stage. Ma pulled it off as ever, so much so they did it all again. This is how I will always remember Ma.
Love granny xxx
Love granny xxx
Saturday, September 23, 2006
WELL I CAN LOOK
When a woman challenges a man if he looks at a PAGE THREE girl, he will say - I'm only looking. Sadly there are very few men who can be described as eye candy out there. That is to say worth looking at in a page three sort of way. Today however the Matalan catalogue (Autumn 2006) arrived through my door with what I can only describe as a 'nice surprise' within its pages. An exception that proves the rule. They have managed to find a male model that breaks all the rules and is just too beautiful to be true.
He is a tall very dark and oh so handsome black man! He has a shaved head and the most beautiful face, a smile that ignites and wonderful hands. Looks very nice dressed!!!!! (most men look better clothed) Fabulous eyes and then I came to the page where he is wearing only Jeff Banks and Pringle knitted boxer shorts - Oh my God what a body and in perfect perportion 'pecks and 6 pack' hips to die for. For the men out there this is why boxer shorts are so much better than any other male under wear, it keeps 'it' in and leaves all to the imagination which is so much better than the reality - and oh those neat little buttons!!!!! Not so much a lunch box more a three course meal. Guys if you want to pull a woman freshly washed underware is very important as is a well looked after body. I just know he smells heavanly as well. Not too much aftershave though please. He is what James Bond should look like, smooth, swave, sophisticated and deadly.
PS Matalan are on line, he's there but the pics are not so good, but you will get the idea.
For the girls in the office I think! Well I am only looking!!!!! Love granny
He is a tall very dark and oh so handsome black man! He has a shaved head and the most beautiful face, a smile that ignites and wonderful hands. Looks very nice dressed!!!!! (most men look better clothed) Fabulous eyes and then I came to the page where he is wearing only Jeff Banks and Pringle knitted boxer shorts - Oh my God what a body and in perfect perportion 'pecks and 6 pack' hips to die for. For the men out there this is why boxer shorts are so much better than any other male under wear, it keeps 'it' in and leaves all to the imagination which is so much better than the reality - and oh those neat little buttons!!!!! Not so much a lunch box more a three course meal. Guys if you want to pull a woman freshly washed underware is very important as is a well looked after body. I just know he smells heavanly as well. Not too much aftershave though please. He is what James Bond should look like, smooth, swave, sophisticated and deadly.
PS Matalan are on line, he's there but the pics are not so good, but you will get the idea.
For the girls in the office I think! Well I am only looking!!!!! Love granny
Friday, September 22, 2006
UPDATE
I visited the clinic yesterday for a check up with Dr Anne Rigg. She was happy with the fact that I was delayed a week, she said they could not take the risk. I cold and chest were much better and having listened to my chest Dr Rigg said she thought it was fine to have chemo next week. So I am booked in. I may have to have anti biotics every second week of the the cycle. I am prone to chesty colds and infections and there are a few about. The anti biotics are a proactive actions to prevent problems and delays. So I am only behind a week.
I like Dr Rigg, she works very hard at Clinic, (she normally works at St Thomas's) I noted that other patients are rediculously complaining about time issues, when all of us are there for help and information and treatment. If you are delayed so be it, Dr Rigg just about had time for a gulp of tea between paitents whom she saw from 08.30 to 13.30. Each person gets the time they deserve. I sat there listening ahnd thought, be a patient patient, you will get your turn. You are making your self worse (and me) by shouting at the top of your voice how 'crap' the system is. Yes there are wrongs, but for god sake in other countries you would be lucky to get treatment without insurance! SUPPORT YOUR NHS. I told Dr Rigg, she was the expert, I always do as I am told I am in her hands, I would never presume to tell her her job. I wish others did the same.
Oh by the way, I hate the fact that people at hospitals either patient or visitors who hang around outside smoking. ITS A HOSPITAL and SMOKING KILLS.
Love Matron granny
I like Dr Rigg, she works very hard at Clinic, (she normally works at St Thomas's) I noted that other patients are rediculously complaining about time issues, when all of us are there for help and information and treatment. If you are delayed so be it, Dr Rigg just about had time for a gulp of tea between paitents whom she saw from 08.30 to 13.30. Each person gets the time they deserve. I sat there listening ahnd thought, be a patient patient, you will get your turn. You are making your self worse (and me) by shouting at the top of your voice how 'crap' the system is. Yes there are wrongs, but for god sake in other countries you would be lucky to get treatment without insurance! SUPPORT YOUR NHS. I told Dr Rigg, she was the expert, I always do as I am told I am in her hands, I would never presume to tell her her job. I wish others did the same.
Oh by the way, I hate the fact that people at hospitals either patient or visitors who hang around outside smoking. ITS A HOSPITAL and SMOKING KILLS.
Love Matron granny
Thursday, September 21, 2006
MARKS AND SPENCER - POST SURGERY BRA
Found lerking on back pages of the web and in a local paper yesterday. Launched in August! Why was'nt it front page news?
Marks and Spencer along with Breakthrough breast Cancer have come up with a range of lingerie for women post Breast Cancer Surgery, - practical, pretty and affordable. from £12 for bra and £4 for matching briefs according to the blurb.
Designers take note, that there are enough of us out there (and sadly to come) to make this worth while. We also need fashionable clothes and head wear that meet our needs. We do not all have Kylie's funds but still want to feel and look like women. It is why I refuse to wear a head scarf. I am not a cancer 'victim' I am a woman with breast cancer the emphasis on woman.
The full range is stocked in the following stores-Argyle Street Glasgow, Bluewater Dartford, Camberley, Sandhurst, ChesterCribbs Causeway Bristol, Marble Arch London, Mary Street Dublin, Meadowhall Sheffield,Merry Hill Dudley, Metro Centre Gateshead.
Still keeping my eyes open, love Granny
Marks and Spencer along with Breakthrough breast Cancer have come up with a range of lingerie for women post Breast Cancer Surgery, - practical, pretty and affordable. from £12 for bra and £4 for matching briefs according to the blurb.
Designers take note, that there are enough of us out there (and sadly to come) to make this worth while. We also need fashionable clothes and head wear that meet our needs. We do not all have Kylie's funds but still want to feel and look like women. It is why I refuse to wear a head scarf. I am not a cancer 'victim' I am a woman with breast cancer the emphasis on woman.
The full range is stocked in the following stores-Argyle Street Glasgow, Bluewater Dartford, Camberley, Sandhurst, ChesterCribbs Causeway Bristol, Marble Arch London, Mary Street Dublin, Meadowhall Sheffield,Merry Hill Dudley, Metro Centre Gateshead.
Still keeping my eyes open, love Granny
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
NEWS JUNKIE
I have always been a news junkie, you really don't want to be with Mick and I when we discuss issues of news etc, we argue - a lot.
Recently I have been able to watch continuous news, and I have things to say on most things.
The ah factor, did you see those lovely baby (real) Panda's on Sunday and today in the Mail, I just love them. What a pity the chinese do not take such good care of human children, especially girls babies.
I again state there really has to balance in childrens lives - when it comes to food. No to '00' models who are quite ridiculous and encourage children to be far too thin IT IS NOT HEALTHY.
Just what are celebrity parents thinking of dressing their children up as mini mee's? I dread to think how many paedohiles will use the kind of photos recently seen to justify their often used excuse that 'children are sexual beings'. It will open the door to abuse. Actually many of these children are already lost because their parents are lost in the land of celebrity which is 'make believe'. These kids are just playing dressing up games (notice it's nearly always just the girls) Many of their parents are not rounded people many are still playing dressing up themselves. Many of the kids will end up like their parents either burnt out at an early age or still going into their pension years ever addicted to celebrity. Many will end up being extensions of their parents lives, who are not considered celebrity any more, as beens. For many it is the only way they can hold their parents attention. We are even now into third generation 'celebrity offspring' with kids trying to ape, grandparent and parent celebrities.
Equally some parents seem to think that excess junk food is Fine. It is fine as a treat, not every day. Obesity kills and the worse is yet to come, we don not yet know the full effects of childhood obesity in this generation of kids. Excercise and good food make for an active mind. Develops discipline and good foundations for adult hood. We don't know the effect because the children of previous generations did not have access to computer games and fast food. Those children had different issues. I like the Italian idea of SLOW FOOD as an antidote to the FAST FOOD CULTURE. the other thing I know about continental meals is that they are family meals, eaten over longer period. Not gulped down - nor washed down with sodas. I am with Jamie Oliver in this. He did a great programme about Italian food recently and eye opener. I grew up eating lots of Italian food because my Pa worked for an Italian company, there was always fruit. I was always welcomed to eat with the adults and enjoyed long meals with such people from whom I learnt such a lot. It is not only schools who teach - I learnt language, manners, history, geography, science (I spent a lot of time in ships enginerooms) I learnt how to mix with a wide variety of people, I learnt to hold my own. Perhaps that is why I have never been out of work.
I am definately against the silly mothers who are undermining the school head/policy on school meals by selling precooked, preordered food through the fence. Just who are the other parents going to sue when the kids go down with ecoli, salmonella or other food based infection. If these mothers are in a position to do this, they are in a position to take their children home for meals, or could it be that the walk might hurt the kids, or are the mums to lazy to actually cook themselves. I feel the same about these mothers as I do those who insist on driving their kids to school (often just round the corner) they are incompetent parents. We are in danger of breeding children with no legs. Yes I drive, but I learnt to walk developing leg muscle and did walk to school, I learnt road sense and I learnt about dangers at an early age. If Mum can't do it them Dad can - if not then stay at school, have a proper dinner, do some study.
As an Historian I am aware that this situation is not new, there have always been issues like this about children and parenting since the Victorians developed the concept of childhood. I don't go down the route, of all mothers should be at home blah blah. Again it is balance and common sense that need to be applied.
The grumpy granny.
Recently I have been able to watch continuous news, and I have things to say on most things.
The ah factor, did you see those lovely baby (real) Panda's on Sunday and today in the Mail, I just love them. What a pity the chinese do not take such good care of human children, especially girls babies.
I again state there really has to balance in childrens lives - when it comes to food. No to '00' models who are quite ridiculous and encourage children to be far too thin IT IS NOT HEALTHY.
Just what are celebrity parents thinking of dressing their children up as mini mee's? I dread to think how many paedohiles will use the kind of photos recently seen to justify their often used excuse that 'children are sexual beings'. It will open the door to abuse. Actually many of these children are already lost because their parents are lost in the land of celebrity which is 'make believe'. These kids are just playing dressing up games (notice it's nearly always just the girls) Many of their parents are not rounded people many are still playing dressing up themselves. Many of the kids will end up like their parents either burnt out at an early age or still going into their pension years ever addicted to celebrity. Many will end up being extensions of their parents lives, who are not considered celebrity any more, as beens. For many it is the only way they can hold their parents attention. We are even now into third generation 'celebrity offspring' with kids trying to ape, grandparent and parent celebrities.
Equally some parents seem to think that excess junk food is Fine. It is fine as a treat, not every day. Obesity kills and the worse is yet to come, we don not yet know the full effects of childhood obesity in this generation of kids. Excercise and good food make for an active mind. Develops discipline and good foundations for adult hood. We don't know the effect because the children of previous generations did not have access to computer games and fast food. Those children had different issues. I like the Italian idea of SLOW FOOD as an antidote to the FAST FOOD CULTURE. the other thing I know about continental meals is that they are family meals, eaten over longer period. Not gulped down - nor washed down with sodas. I am with Jamie Oliver in this. He did a great programme about Italian food recently and eye opener. I grew up eating lots of Italian food because my Pa worked for an Italian company, there was always fruit. I was always welcomed to eat with the adults and enjoyed long meals with such people from whom I learnt such a lot. It is not only schools who teach - I learnt language, manners, history, geography, science (I spent a lot of time in ships enginerooms) I learnt how to mix with a wide variety of people, I learnt to hold my own. Perhaps that is why I have never been out of work.
I am definately against the silly mothers who are undermining the school head/policy on school meals by selling precooked, preordered food through the fence. Just who are the other parents going to sue when the kids go down with ecoli, salmonella or other food based infection. If these mothers are in a position to do this, they are in a position to take their children home for meals, or could it be that the walk might hurt the kids, or are the mums to lazy to actually cook themselves. I feel the same about these mothers as I do those who insist on driving their kids to school (often just round the corner) they are incompetent parents. We are in danger of breeding children with no legs. Yes I drive, but I learnt to walk developing leg muscle and did walk to school, I learnt road sense and I learnt about dangers at an early age. If Mum can't do it them Dad can - if not then stay at school, have a proper dinner, do some study.
As an Historian I am aware that this situation is not new, there have always been issues like this about children and parenting since the Victorians developed the concept of childhood. I don't go down the route, of all mothers should be at home blah blah. Again it is balance and common sense that need to be applied.
The grumpy granny.
OH BOTHER!!!!!!
It was once said by a colleague that hearing me swear was like hearing your grandmother swear!!! I have to say I was rather colourful in my language yesterday. It was a bad day, I have had such a bad cold that the antibiotics I have been taking have not worked. Yesterday I nearly ended up being kept in hospital after xrays and blood tests (I am running out of veins). However worse news was that because I was so ill they could not do Chemo today, it has been postponed a week. I was given stronger antibiotics which seem to be working (they are seriously heavy duty). I am to see the oncologist tomorrow to look at the issue. I hope that this will be ok, I cannot afford to have a big gap in chemo and they may have to take me in to build me up.....I am hoping not.
On the bright side, and there is always a bright side I took delivery of my new car, a lovely Red Fiat Panda. This has five doors, it makes life easier for the grand kids and elderly rickety parents!
I know you are saying what does she need a car for now, well I do this every three year thing so I have three years of worry free motoring in terms of service, mot, tax etc etc. Also it is about my freedom. I have to have a car, to move about especially in terms of keeping my self infection free. It means I can get out quickly and back if Mick is not here and I am not as tired as if I were walking and carrying heavy shopping. I can also get myself to the hospital for checkups etc. Buses and trains are not good places for me at the moment, with people sniffing and coughing. Actually it may be how I got my cold when I had to go to Limehouse (work) and deliver some urgent forms - I went on the train.
There expense justified. Now for the environmental, better petrol consumption, lower tax and Lower emissions. New cars are much better than old in this respect.
On the bright side, and there is always a bright side I took delivery of my new car, a lovely Red Fiat Panda. This has five doors, it makes life easier for the grand kids and elderly rickety parents!
I know you are saying what does she need a car for now, well I do this every three year thing so I have three years of worry free motoring in terms of service, mot, tax etc etc. Also it is about my freedom. I have to have a car, to move about especially in terms of keeping my self infection free. It means I can get out quickly and back if Mick is not here and I am not as tired as if I were walking and carrying heavy shopping. I can also get myself to the hospital for checkups etc. Buses and trains are not good places for me at the moment, with people sniffing and coughing. Actually it may be how I got my cold when I had to go to Limehouse (work) and deliver some urgent forms - I went on the train.
There expense justified. Now for the environmental, better petrol consumption, lower tax and Lower emissions. New cars are much better than old in this respect.
Monday, September 18, 2006
BY WAY OF EXPLANATION
You will note the recent 'Ma' picks. The pose is similar to the one in the older picture with my Pa. Ma loves to bling it up as you can see, but I brought her the jacket! She is singing the old Music Hall Songs for a East End Sing a long at the old folks Christmas Party. Roll out that barrel, down Lambeth way, any evening anyday when my old man said follow that van!!!
Love Granny.
Love Granny.
A LONG OVEDUE TRIBUTE
It is long over due, because everything I am is down to these guy's - my Ma and Pa. As you can see I have posted three pictures that sum them up to perfection. Dad 'Fingers' was the man with the music and Ma 'The Voice' was exactly that and you cannot keep a good performer down. She still sings and has a fan base at my local pub. if you want to know the words to a song then Ma's your girl. Sadly Andrew Lloyd Webber didn't ask her to be Maria, but she would make a great mother superior, oh matron (she is also known as Matron). Since I left home at 19 I have rarely missed a day when I have not phoned her. She gives her diagnosis on my current condition, but really she is itching to get up here and nurse me. She is also her local area's very own Pauline Fowler, the Laundrette Lady.
Anyway I loved them both.
Granny xx
Anyway I loved them both.
Granny xx
MY LONDON TRIBE.
Following on from the Kylie thing the 'Style' mag took up the ideas of the 'London Tribes, Leading the Pack' How did I fit in? Being born to an East End Lass, in Essex and working on the Isle of Dogs do I fit the 'The Intellectuals' - I'd like to think so, but not totally. Am I 'Indie' - only the jeans bit, am I 'Hedonist', well only the 'Champagne' bit. I am definately not an 'Exhibitionist' contrary to popular belief! Nor am I 'New Wave' or a 'Dubsteppers' so it looks like I am in a tribe of my own the 'Independant Intellectual wanna be tribe' I have always been outside the tribe.
As Mick so rightly points out, all the problems in the world are down to 'tribalism' such as my gangs bigger than your gang, the silly play ground na na na na taunts to a fight over this very issue. Or my religion is better than yours etc etc. Out of which grow the bullies of this world.
Love Granny
As Mick so rightly points out, all the problems in the world are down to 'tribalism' such as my gangs bigger than your gang, the silly play ground na na na na taunts to a fight over this very issue. Or my religion is better than yours etc etc. Out of which grow the bullies of this world.
Love Granny
KYLIE AND BREAST CANCER
Not quite my last word on Sunday as you can see. How does the girl do it? She made the cover of the The Sunday Times 'style' magazine and the Mail on Sunday 'You' magazine and she is completely different in both. More importantly she is showing off her upper body in revealing under wear, arms up and no scars. She must have had a terrific physio since she has both her arms up in most pictures. I speak from experience about this, since getting your arm on the side operated on up and running at full stretch is very important. I have to stretch and exercise every day to keep my mobility. Also the scar takes ages to soften over the damaged soft tissue.
She looks a little thin, but hey she's not that big anyway. I was not wild about the gold and black diamond out fit but the other stuff in the 'Style' mag was interesting and diverse.
However I was overjoyed abouth the 'You' set with the Showgirl look. Hey no scars here either. But best of all she has Shebba, her 'fella' Olivier's Rhodesian Ridgeback. Of whom she says " Sheeba and I are devoted to each other. She was very important during my treatment - there were many long hugs on the sofa during that time". This I understand one it reminds me of Bacchus my Rhodesian Ridgeback who died in 2000 to whom I was devoted. I also understand because Merlot and I do the sofa thing all the time she and I are joined at the hip. Now this is the point, the love of family and friends is vital, but the love of a dog, which is unconditional and unquestionning does not demand an answer when you have non to give and you are tired. Merlot just lies with me as close as she can, lets me stroke her and in the quiet answers all my needs. Merlot is also a small version of Bacchus which is why I loved her instantly the moment I saw her. She combines both his personality and that of my sweet Cindy the Westie, who died two years ago. Not only does Merlot offer comfort, she provides excercise because walking is important even if you feel tired when you have Breast Cancer, she provides the motivation. Ridgebacks it must be said are 'One family dogs' historically they will fight to the death to protect their owners. One Woof from Bacchus was enough to send any would be burglar running when he meant it he really meant it. Merlot has a language all her own!
HAIR
On another note I love Kylies hair, very chic. Mine to my surprise has not yet started to fall out this cycle. I was sure it would all be gone by now but No, it is hanging on in there and even I do believe staging a fight back. I must admit poor Phil got a shock when he saw me yesterday, it was in his face, bless him. I really wish tha my hair would grow back curly and blond like Kylie's.
Kylie, please throw a few designer clothes my way!!!!!!!!!!!
She is very lucky to have such a devoted boyfriend, and I am lucky to have Mick.
Love Granny.
She looks a little thin, but hey she's not that big anyway. I was not wild about the gold and black diamond out fit but the other stuff in the 'Style' mag was interesting and diverse.
However I was overjoyed abouth the 'You' set with the Showgirl look. Hey no scars here either. But best of all she has Shebba, her 'fella' Olivier's Rhodesian Ridgeback. Of whom she says " Sheeba and I are devoted to each other. She was very important during my treatment - there were many long hugs on the sofa during that time". This I understand one it reminds me of Bacchus my Rhodesian Ridgeback who died in 2000 to whom I was devoted. I also understand because Merlot and I do the sofa thing all the time she and I are joined at the hip. Now this is the point, the love of family and friends is vital, but the love of a dog, which is unconditional and unquestionning does not demand an answer when you have non to give and you are tired. Merlot just lies with me as close as she can, lets me stroke her and in the quiet answers all my needs. Merlot is also a small version of Bacchus which is why I loved her instantly the moment I saw her. She combines both his personality and that of my sweet Cindy the Westie, who died two years ago. Not only does Merlot offer comfort, she provides excercise because walking is important even if you feel tired when you have Breast Cancer, she provides the motivation. Ridgebacks it must be said are 'One family dogs' historically they will fight to the death to protect their owners. One Woof from Bacchus was enough to send any would be burglar running when he meant it he really meant it. Merlot has a language all her own!
HAIR
On another note I love Kylies hair, very chic. Mine to my surprise has not yet started to fall out this cycle. I was sure it would all be gone by now but No, it is hanging on in there and even I do believe staging a fight back. I must admit poor Phil got a shock when he saw me yesterday, it was in his face, bless him. I really wish tha my hair would grow back curly and blond like Kylie's.
Kylie, please throw a few designer clothes my way!!!!!!!!!!!
She is very lucky to have such a devoted boyfriend, and I am lucky to have Mick.
Love Granny.
WHY I LOVE SUNDAYS
Sunday has always been my favourite day of the week. I do me stuff, but this Sunday ws even better - My cuddly teddy bear (youngest stepson) Phil and his girlfriend Vicki came to see me. Vicki had made really super Strawberry sponge cake (with real strasberries) which so delicious. What a nice thing to do! Phil was his smiley self and their company was as always a joy. They really are the perfect couple, so in tune and obviously in love. Jon was there to (he is middle stepson) and later Laura his girlfriend came too.
Poor Laura is getting over the tragic death of her mother last week, following an short intense battle with non hodgkinson lymphoma. She is coping and all of us hope she doesn't try to hard to be strong at the funeral this week. It is ok to cry she will really need that release. Both she and her father were with mum at the end which was important. I never had the chance to meet Laura's mum because either she or I was in hospital. I told Laura that I believe strongly that her mum was now at peace and not in any more pain and that she should take some comfort from that.
Because we were altogether in the garden on a sunny Sunday I hope that Laura took some comfort from that. Laura had also been very kind to me early on in my chemo when she made a really lovely cheese cake, she also cooked a lasagne when she thought I might not feel like cooking. These gestures by both girls means more to me than anything, they both have kind and generous hearts, and put something of themselves into each dish.
What better finish to a perfect day could I have had - As Time Goes By, Last of the Summer Wine, Songs of Praise and Antiques Road Show on the Telly. The last three porgammes of the Road Show have looked back at past progs and the discoveries but this time with a look at what happened after. this week was stunning with a wonderful cigarette case by Bucheron of Paris and a stunning portrait from the 1920's of Jessie Clover and the story of her life after the painting when she was 14. That is the beauty of history, each artifact has a story to tell, which for me is beyond price.
My last word on the story of Sunday, TO THINE BE THE GLORY, risen, conquering son, endless is the victory thou o'er death hast won.
Love Granny
Poor Laura is getting over the tragic death of her mother last week, following an short intense battle with non hodgkinson lymphoma. She is coping and all of us hope she doesn't try to hard to be strong at the funeral this week. It is ok to cry she will really need that release. Both she and her father were with mum at the end which was important. I never had the chance to meet Laura's mum because either she or I was in hospital. I told Laura that I believe strongly that her mum was now at peace and not in any more pain and that she should take some comfort from that.
Because we were altogether in the garden on a sunny Sunday I hope that Laura took some comfort from that. Laura had also been very kind to me early on in my chemo when she made a really lovely cheese cake, she also cooked a lasagne when she thought I might not feel like cooking. These gestures by both girls means more to me than anything, they both have kind and generous hearts, and put something of themselves into each dish.
What better finish to a perfect day could I have had - As Time Goes By, Last of the Summer Wine, Songs of Praise and Antiques Road Show on the Telly. The last three porgammes of the Road Show have looked back at past progs and the discoveries but this time with a look at what happened after. this week was stunning with a wonderful cigarette case by Bucheron of Paris and a stunning portrait from the 1920's of Jessie Clover and the story of her life after the painting when she was 14. That is the beauty of history, each artifact has a story to tell, which for me is beyond price.
My last word on the story of Sunday, TO THINE BE THE GLORY, risen, conquering son, endless is the victory thou o'er death hast won.
Love Granny
Sunday, September 17, 2006
INFECTION WATCH!
My cold has remined my priority this weekend. Feeling pretty Naff. Still the precautionary antibiotics are holding chest infection at bay. Very important for newly diagnosed women, remember you immunity goes way down. Keep yourself infection free.
Saw Kylie strutting her stuff in London last night, bravo girl.
Love to all Granny. xx
Saw Kylie strutting her stuff in London last night, bravo girl.
Love to all Granny. xx
Saturday, September 16, 2006
THE BABY HOUSE
In 2000 I read an article in The Sunday Times (23/04/2000), it was about abandoned babies in Russia and one in particular called Kolya, who I fell in love with. He was 9 months old and having been born two and half months premature he was considered unadoptable because of his lack of development. He lived in Cot number 9. His picture broke my heart, he was lying on his front with his head up and looking directly at the camera, and directly into my heart.
Foreigners were not being allowed to adopt him, as a matter of government policy. I have kept that picture to remind myself that every child is worth something. Today I looked up the name of the home on the internet, people are now working there - look it up on 'Maria's Babies Our Baby House Project' and read for yourself about the life these babies lead! Life? now that is a contradiction in terms when it comes to these children. They live a regimented and loveless existence. The staff don't like the children crying following the visits by this group. Kolya cost 50p a day to keep????
I am torn, between understanding that each country in the world has this problem, children in the UK languish in orphanages without individual care and love - torn because I would love to help, I would love a child and that is unrealistic. I was, I believe, never meant to have a child of my own and it would be too idealistic to imagine that I could sweep in and save 1 child. Playing lady bountiful would be a huge ego trip. Still I just cannot help wondering if Kolya would have responded to me.
I am never quite sure if the items donated like clothes and nappies or money actually are received by these children.
Take a look at the list of children's homes in Russia, the sheer scale is beyond belief, of course a lot is to do with illigitimacey, illness such as HIV and or as Yulia had syphilis caught from her mother. There is also the poverty, drugs and alcohol abuse. It is easier to dump a child than to try. It all comes down to economics, yet without help these children will become a problem since they are not socialised, not educated and do not understand love.
When I think about this world wide problem, I get angry that some people want to design their own babies or fight tooth and nail to have a baby of their own just because they think it is their right when there are children out there desperate for parental love, who lie in numbered cots, for hour upon hour who are never picked up or cuddled.
At the end of the day like others I did nothing, and I should have done something.
With love to the worlds unwanted children. Granny
Foreigners were not being allowed to adopt him, as a matter of government policy. I have kept that picture to remind myself that every child is worth something. Today I looked up the name of the home on the internet, people are now working there - look it up on 'Maria's Babies Our Baby House Project' and read for yourself about the life these babies lead! Life? now that is a contradiction in terms when it comes to these children. They live a regimented and loveless existence. The staff don't like the children crying following the visits by this group. Kolya cost 50p a day to keep????
I am torn, between understanding that each country in the world has this problem, children in the UK languish in orphanages without individual care and love - torn because I would love to help, I would love a child and that is unrealistic. I was, I believe, never meant to have a child of my own and it would be too idealistic to imagine that I could sweep in and save 1 child. Playing lady bountiful would be a huge ego trip. Still I just cannot help wondering if Kolya would have responded to me.
I am never quite sure if the items donated like clothes and nappies or money actually are received by these children.
Take a look at the list of children's homes in Russia, the sheer scale is beyond belief, of course a lot is to do with illigitimacey, illness such as HIV and or as Yulia had syphilis caught from her mother. There is also the poverty, drugs and alcohol abuse. It is easier to dump a child than to try. It all comes down to economics, yet without help these children will become a problem since they are not socialised, not educated and do not understand love.
When I think about this world wide problem, I get angry that some people want to design their own babies or fight tooth and nail to have a baby of their own just because they think it is their right when there are children out there desperate for parental love, who lie in numbered cots, for hour upon hour who are never picked up or cuddled.
At the end of the day like others I did nothing, and I should have done something.
With love to the worlds unwanted children. Granny
Friday, September 15, 2006
THE BIG DEAL HUNTER
I have been reviewing the situation (a cue for a song!!!) in fashion terms that is.
Delighted that super wiafs are not treading the cat walk in Madrid. Not a good image for young girls to adopt. It is a question of balance, to be too big can put pressure on the heart and joints. Too slim and your body forgets who it is, lose periods and other body functions. I am not a Kate Moss fan, she is so stupid, money and success does not happiness make even if it can appear to buy justice. Drugs are a no no and such a bad role model for the young who think it's cool.
I love the black pencil skirt from H and M at £14.99 not a bad deal.
In Happy this month was a two page feature on the Buys for Breast Cancer Awareness Month I myself have the new ribbon brooche and a key ring. What I love best in the feature is the Wellies from ASDA £12 with 15% to BC pink with ribblons - brill.
I also like the bath ducks in pink at £4.99
Who's Look? well I am a Sophie Ellis-Bexter fan ( the face of Monsoon)but I also like Dita Von Teese. She is a Burlesque artist and looks just fab in her 1940's make up - just wish I could do the eyeliner. I like refined elegance with minimal chic and monochrome look. The shirt dress is cool however you are wearing it.
I still have my black shirt dress, which this year I will wear with leggings and flat shoes/pumps
Watch out for peep toe shoes - I love them but can, if not fitted properly, hurt the big toe - big time.
A recent visit to Next ( I rarely go there - too expensive) pleasantly surprised, some really good skirt and jacket combo's (could be suits) not to expensive. Accessorised correctly will make the perfect business impression. Good first impressions seal the deal.
The skirt for me was a brown tone tarten, long length (ankle) pencilish, with a tuck up at the top a la Vivienne Westwood or Marc Jacobs. This was stunning, and very fine fabric, so not bulky. Also has a belt. Mix with great blouses and a brown jacket - varied for different occasions.
Noticed in Peacocks today that shirt I have mentioned before with the wrap/tie front mid sleeve with cuff and in black and red - now in a soft brown, a great green with self green stripe and a purple version as well. All four with a matching/toning thin sleeveless t shirt would be my staple for work. The store has some really great shirts. I also like the v neck shirt that has a kind of empire line and no buttons (a pull on) in white, oat, black, red equally useful for work, no need to worry about buttons popping open. Boobs on display is not a good business look and leads to stereotyping, sexy yes it's ok but not tarty. A good fitting pretty bra makes all the difference, even for me who hates bras. When I am putting on a presentation or teaching I am careful about my look with special consideration to my audience and the impression I want to make. I am most definately not one of the boys. I always want to make sure that every one knows I am a woman, but I am professional.
One of my key tips is that beach wear does not fit the urban scene - dead Naff with capital N.
AUTUMN 2006
Been here before! I keep a style book of my own where I keep ideas and clippings that I like, have done this for years. Included with my collection was the Daily Mail Lifestyle Magazine for Autumn 2005 and nothing seems really to have changed. The shoes are wedges and platforms, the Military coat, the denim, the heavy knits, ankle boots and big bags and clutches etc etc. Fashion editors should remeber people like me keep records.
My big find was on one of my trips to the charity shop. Found a hand knitted long line navy jacket (very heavy cable) with the new cross over and shoulder button design that is in many of the style books. the price £3.95 brand new. Perfect for over jeans with that layered look that is so big this year (always A FAV of mine - layers are fab) will look fab with white shirt and blue platforms. I am a fan of wraps to change the emphasis of an outfit.
Don't over look Bon Marche (not trendy I know) - the one in Dartford has had a face lift and a change of stock. Still aimed at the over 50 market and with the staples. However they have up graded and was pleased to see some really trend led designs. Nice for the older woman who need that special cut and fitting but likes style as well. Shops really need to understand the changing older market, people like me who love fashion but who are over 50. Designers need to remember size and cut for the older figure.
Check out Matalan for home furnishings at affordable prices, love their bucket chairs. They are bringing out a tarten dress which I will look at.
My leopard print shoes are coming back out of the closet, so nice I am still in fashion!
I have created a great party look in blue, but will keep it under wraps for now, I want to make an entrance at Christmas!!!!!! to go with my bald look.
love Granny. XX
Delighted that super wiafs are not treading the cat walk in Madrid. Not a good image for young girls to adopt. It is a question of balance, to be too big can put pressure on the heart and joints. Too slim and your body forgets who it is, lose periods and other body functions. I am not a Kate Moss fan, she is so stupid, money and success does not happiness make even if it can appear to buy justice. Drugs are a no no and such a bad role model for the young who think it's cool.
I love the black pencil skirt from H and M at £14.99 not a bad deal.
In Happy this month was a two page feature on the Buys for Breast Cancer Awareness Month I myself have the new ribbon brooche and a key ring. What I love best in the feature is the Wellies from ASDA £12 with 15% to BC pink with ribblons - brill.
I also like the bath ducks in pink at £4.99
Who's Look? well I am a Sophie Ellis-Bexter fan ( the face of Monsoon)but I also like Dita Von Teese. She is a Burlesque artist and looks just fab in her 1940's make up - just wish I could do the eyeliner. I like refined elegance with minimal chic and monochrome look. The shirt dress is cool however you are wearing it.
I still have my black shirt dress, which this year I will wear with leggings and flat shoes/pumps
Watch out for peep toe shoes - I love them but can, if not fitted properly, hurt the big toe - big time.
A recent visit to Next ( I rarely go there - too expensive) pleasantly surprised, some really good skirt and jacket combo's (could be suits) not to expensive. Accessorised correctly will make the perfect business impression. Good first impressions seal the deal.
The skirt for me was a brown tone tarten, long length (ankle) pencilish, with a tuck up at the top a la Vivienne Westwood or Marc Jacobs. This was stunning, and very fine fabric, so not bulky. Also has a belt. Mix with great blouses and a brown jacket - varied for different occasions.
Noticed in Peacocks today that shirt I have mentioned before with the wrap/tie front mid sleeve with cuff and in black and red - now in a soft brown, a great green with self green stripe and a purple version as well. All four with a matching/toning thin sleeveless t shirt would be my staple for work. The store has some really great shirts. I also like the v neck shirt that has a kind of empire line and no buttons (a pull on) in white, oat, black, red equally useful for work, no need to worry about buttons popping open. Boobs on display is not a good business look and leads to stereotyping, sexy yes it's ok but not tarty. A good fitting pretty bra makes all the difference, even for me who hates bras. When I am putting on a presentation or teaching I am careful about my look with special consideration to my audience and the impression I want to make. I am most definately not one of the boys. I always want to make sure that every one knows I am a woman, but I am professional.
One of my key tips is that beach wear does not fit the urban scene - dead Naff with capital N.
AUTUMN 2006
Been here before! I keep a style book of my own where I keep ideas and clippings that I like, have done this for years. Included with my collection was the Daily Mail Lifestyle Magazine for Autumn 2005 and nothing seems really to have changed. The shoes are wedges and platforms, the Military coat, the denim, the heavy knits, ankle boots and big bags and clutches etc etc. Fashion editors should remeber people like me keep records.
My big find was on one of my trips to the charity shop. Found a hand knitted long line navy jacket (very heavy cable) with the new cross over and shoulder button design that is in many of the style books. the price £3.95 brand new. Perfect for over jeans with that layered look that is so big this year (always A FAV of mine - layers are fab) will look fab with white shirt and blue platforms. I am a fan of wraps to change the emphasis of an outfit.
Don't over look Bon Marche (not trendy I know) - the one in Dartford has had a face lift and a change of stock. Still aimed at the over 50 market and with the staples. However they have up graded and was pleased to see some really trend led designs. Nice for the older woman who need that special cut and fitting but likes style as well. Shops really need to understand the changing older market, people like me who love fashion but who are over 50. Designers need to remember size and cut for the older figure.
Check out Matalan for home furnishings at affordable prices, love their bucket chairs. They are bringing out a tarten dress which I will look at.
My leopard print shoes are coming back out of the closet, so nice I am still in fashion!
I have created a great party look in blue, but will keep it under wraps for now, I want to make an entrance at Christmas!!!!!! to go with my bald look.
love Granny. XX
Thursday, September 14, 2006
MARIANNE FAITHFULL
I am so sorry to hear Marianne has been diagnosed with early stage Breast Cancer. I love her music and she is one of my style icons. I wish her lots of love. Granny
IT'S A LONG JOURNEY
Went to the hospital today to see my oncologist. I was told my Radio Therapy will be monday to friday for 5 weeks, followed by one week of a super dose. By which time I will be glowing in the dark (joke). All targetting my scar and my upper shoulder.
This will take place 3 weeks after my last chemo on 1st November 2006. I hope to be back at work part time at that stage.
I will have three little permanant tatoos to mark the location of the treatment. I shall have a super duper scan that will look at every detail of that part of my body.
My bloods were OK, but I do have a bit of a cold so it's back on the antibiotics. Any chest infection (which I am prone to) could see me in hospital and I don't want that. The staff at Queen Marys Sidcup are really very nice. I really can not speak more highly of the NHS.
Love Granny.
This will take place 3 weeks after my last chemo on 1st November 2006. I hope to be back at work part time at that stage.
I will have three little permanant tatoos to mark the location of the treatment. I shall have a super duper scan that will look at every detail of that part of my body.
My bloods were OK, but I do have a bit of a cold so it's back on the antibiotics. Any chest infection (which I am prone to) could see me in hospital and I don't want that. The staff at Queen Marys Sidcup are really very nice. I really can not speak more highly of the NHS.
Love Granny.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
DMITRI HVOROSTOVSKY
Saturday was the last night of the proms, and I loved it, especially as Maureen Lipman put it so succinctly. Dmitri Hvorostovsky was 'Drop Dead Gorgeous'. Who the hell needs Brad Bitt et al when this guy looks the part and can sing. He would make a believable hero or villan, he has a wicked twinkle. I was not so ill that he did not rock my socks.
Another opera singer who I rate is Jose Cura, another gezzer with looks to boot. Love Granny.
PS I am an Alan Rickman fan as well.
Another opera singer who I rate is Jose Cura, another gezzer with looks to boot. Love Granny.
PS I am an Alan Rickman fan as well.
A DAY IN THE LIFE OF A TREE
Last night we had a very heavy storm, thunder - the whole 5 yards- the rain was particularly heavy. This morning when I looked at my pine/fir tree the cones that had been there had all gone. There was a spectacular amount of 'fluttering' of tiny wings in the branches, closer examination revealed dozens of blue tits, I can only assume that a lot of insects had come to the surface of branches. In addition my neighbour had put out a fresh peanut holder full on his tree and sure enough there were these charming little birds rushing between feeder and branch. Quite lovely. Granny
Friday, September 08, 2006
MOONLIGHT SERANADE
Hit that Glen Miller track (well I told you I was old, and I love his music)
Just a quicky.
For the last two nights I have fallen asleep in the light from a full moon shining into my bedroom window. And what a light, so clear to clean so sharp so soft. The perfect shape of a moon is forever changing, I have seen huge moons in bright orange, I have laid on beaches in Greece and watched the moon and stars I am never failed to be inspired by 'Her' glory.
I hope that the families of the victims of 9/11 Twin Towers are able to rest on this 5th anniversary in the light of a moon where ever they may be. My hero is Jay Janus captain of Rig 6 who was trapped in the towers and saved by being in stair well 'B' because he and his crew stopped to help Josephine Miller. To survive this attack, is beyond words. Perhaps the perfect Glen Miller piece for him is 'American Patrol' an all time favourite of mine.
I send my love to the lost, their families and the surviors. Granny
Just a quicky.
For the last two nights I have fallen asleep in the light from a full moon shining into my bedroom window. And what a light, so clear to clean so sharp so soft. The perfect shape of a moon is forever changing, I have seen huge moons in bright orange, I have laid on beaches in Greece and watched the moon and stars I am never failed to be inspired by 'Her' glory.
I hope that the families of the victims of 9/11 Twin Towers are able to rest on this 5th anniversary in the light of a moon where ever they may be. My hero is Jay Janus captain of Rig 6 who was trapped in the towers and saved by being in stair well 'B' because he and his crew stopped to help Josephine Miller. To survive this attack, is beyond words. Perhaps the perfect Glen Miller piece for him is 'American Patrol' an all time favourite of mine.
I send my love to the lost, their families and the surviors. Granny
GONE A ROMIN
Got you thinking, what is the girl on about? Well aromatherapy, thats what. I had my first session yesterday at the Macmillan Centre in Queen Marys Sidcup. Now let me tell you that have a wonderful garden to sit in, with shade and trees and flowers. I noticed a climbing flower with a huge bell shape in the prettiest shade of light blue, so delicate and it just lit up my day. it is a wonderful place to sit and read which I did prior to my treatment. Susie was the therapist and very nice. The experience was amazing, my mixture was bergermont and lavender (my favourite - I use these at home) and the hand massage was so relaxing but the effect afterwards was one of rejuvenated joints etc. The two arms were however complete different in feel. My right was - relaxing my left was warm bordering on hot and freed my arm up perfectly. I had intended for the experience to allow me to forget for a hour that I had breast cancer and to concentrate on me rather than 'it' if you see what I mean. The process was accomapnied by soft musical, sea and sea bird sounds.Again I love this, I am a sucker for the sea, which I why I can not wait to get back to Ventnor to walk along the front and hear the sea.
Was it worth it, oh yes.
PS those dragon flies have been back - it is like watching Spitfire aces catching the late evening flies who dare to be about.
Was it worth it, oh yes.
PS those dragon flies have been back - it is like watching Spitfire aces catching the late evening flies who dare to be about.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
SUPPORT PENNY DEACON
My mother lives in the Southampton area and read in the Daily Echo about Penny Deacon. She like me is a police officer. She had her operation in July to remove her breast cancer lump. On the 16th September 2006 she in company with 15 colleagues is going to undertake a 60 mile challenge (by cycle) to raise money for the Chemo unit at St Anne's Hosptial Newport. Anyone who knows me knows that the Isle of Wight is my dream home/place to visit (Ventnor) so please try and help my colleague reach her target. This can be done by visiting www.justgiving.com/pennydeacon There are a number of entries on the web, ie interviews with Penny etc.
I am so not a bike rider, I would like to get a fashion show - all full on glamour, in aid of Breast Cancer research - with me modeling of course and any other 'surviour' who wants to hit the catwalk. Lots of Bling, lots of confidence, lots of power and perhaps even a record in the charts!!!!!!
I note that Penny's Chief Superintendent is female, and I will be asking her has I will other senior women across the country to join me in making sure that the women employed in the police family are made fully aware of the issues and debates and need to check ourselves. As a member of the Commissioner's Women's Focus group I do have access to key officials and coleagues. This could be such a postive thing, because if you think about in terms of research there is no better fixed cross section of women anywhere. As an Historian of women in the service, I have an idea from looking at Metropolitan Police Women Service records how many women across the years have been diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Of course it is not just women who get Breast Cancer men can to. What a great opportunity to increase the knowledge of the disease lets have health pages with links across the Constabulary web pages.
SUPPORT PENNY PLEASE. THANK YOU. Love Granny
I am so not a bike rider, I would like to get a fashion show - all full on glamour, in aid of Breast Cancer research - with me modeling of course and any other 'surviour' who wants to hit the catwalk. Lots of Bling, lots of confidence, lots of power and perhaps even a record in the charts!!!!!!
I note that Penny's Chief Superintendent is female, and I will be asking her has I will other senior women across the country to join me in making sure that the women employed in the police family are made fully aware of the issues and debates and need to check ourselves. As a member of the Commissioner's Women's Focus group I do have access to key officials and coleagues. This could be such a postive thing, because if you think about in terms of research there is no better fixed cross section of women anywhere. As an Historian of women in the service, I have an idea from looking at Metropolitan Police Women Service records how many women across the years have been diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Of course it is not just women who get Breast Cancer men can to. What a great opportunity to increase the knowledge of the disease lets have health pages with links across the Constabulary web pages.
SUPPORT PENNY PLEASE. THANK YOU. Love Granny
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
A FASHION THING
The October Glamour Mag is out with a very good article on Breast Cancer victims who are under 50 - get reading.
Fashion is very much my thing as you know. Well this seasons Leggings with dresses or jumpers is devine. Thick tights, mentioned by me before, but essential. Comfortable elegent and warm, with a hint of sex underneath. Yes.
Granny loves yer.
Fashion is very much my thing as you know. Well this seasons Leggings with dresses or jumpers is devine. Thick tights, mentioned by me before, but essential. Comfortable elegent and warm, with a hint of sex underneath. Yes.
Granny loves yer.
MICK THE FARMER
It's Wednesday and a week since the last chemo, I feel much better today.
Mick started his new job yesterday at the organic farm shop. His family were Sussex farmers and had pigs. Some of the property is still in the family. He wants to get back to his roots, and away from the dry drone of his thrity plus year career. It is a challenge, he said that working a till his harder than it looks, but he has lots of ladies to help him, he will be in his element. Better is the challenge to the mind and body, being outside and close to the growing of things rather than the 'shop' culture that we have. We will benefit as well from getting nice fresh meat and veg. He will be able to cycle to work so he could also get really fit.
Today, and I am really trying not to make this a - diary blog, I visted Erith Deep Water Wharf, wlaking out along the really nice pier, with plenty of space, seats and it was clean. There were people sitting, eating, fishing and walking. Mums with their children and people having lunch away from their desk. Why can't Erith shake off it's end of the road feel? The sun was lovely and the water interesting in it's subtle changes of current and ripples caused by the wind. It is rather more industrial in aspect that perhaps the classic upper Thames, however this is the place to watch the life on the river move up and down.. I wonder why no one has thought of building a Yacht Marina here, to bring new people here. It could open the water front to cafes and shops.
There is a lot of new housing here, I particularly like one of the retirement developments, for me it would be an ideal spot with my balcony over the river and sitting in the evening with a glass of chilled Pinot Grigo watching the water and sea birds. I know that the borough is trying to rejenerate the area, but they lack purpose and direction, you need housing - of course, but also a river front area that is attractive with things to do. I have noted that the Running Horses, the Cross Keys and the White Hart very close to this area have made an effort to smarten up. What is needed is good food, good wine and good music. The White Hart has been very very clever and had a wonderful Thames Barge mural painted on its wall, I like this - perhaps they could make more of their lovely garden area down to the river. The older population that lives quite close could be a good customer source if they got away from the spit and sawdust type drinkers, the rowdy noisy and boring drinkers who inhabit Erith. The borough wants to bin the Running Horses, that used to have a carvery.
The areas biggest mistake was it's redevelopment of the shopping area, it went for two story concrete, please please why did you not look at the lay of the area, make it like it was in decades past with small shops. We have a Matalan, a Peacocks and one Select shop there is also a Wilkinsons, a Woolworths and a betting shop/ No imagination. Mostly what you see is dreary security guards who keep out the yob element. Yes perhaps employment is important but on the face of it these shops find it hard to hier staff. The Morrison's restaruant, does a roaring trade, most days breakfast and lunch. People come here for Sunday Lunch - you know a proper roast! Now if people are entised there to eat then why not to other proper food venues. Please no more Macdonalds or Burger King ( we have them as well) That is all there is in the evening. The borough even kicked out the market, which I liked to shop in. So why not a Farmers Market on Sundays?
Erith might seem like the end of the world but it has has railway station, which means people other than car drivers or locals could get here if there was something more than Morrisons. For god sake you built a huge road here, now do something with the town.There is a museum that is so much in need of reinvention that it is practically criminal to leave it. There is a lot of history in this area - what we need here is a historical mastermind. We even have a theater, yes a real live place for plays, THE ERITH PLAYHOUSE (it has a web site which mentions the lack of restaurants) £6 a ticket!!!!!!!. Surely this means something more than bland benality and medocre ideas could flourish here. VITALITY AND LIFE come on ERITH.
We need some dynamism with a heart here not stuffy political quick fixes.
Love Granny
Mick started his new job yesterday at the organic farm shop. His family were Sussex farmers and had pigs. Some of the property is still in the family. He wants to get back to his roots, and away from the dry drone of his thrity plus year career. It is a challenge, he said that working a till his harder than it looks, but he has lots of ladies to help him, he will be in his element. Better is the challenge to the mind and body, being outside and close to the growing of things rather than the 'shop' culture that we have. We will benefit as well from getting nice fresh meat and veg. He will be able to cycle to work so he could also get really fit.
Today, and I am really trying not to make this a - diary blog, I visted Erith Deep Water Wharf, wlaking out along the really nice pier, with plenty of space, seats and it was clean. There were people sitting, eating, fishing and walking. Mums with their children and people having lunch away from their desk. Why can't Erith shake off it's end of the road feel? The sun was lovely and the water interesting in it's subtle changes of current and ripples caused by the wind. It is rather more industrial in aspect that perhaps the classic upper Thames, however this is the place to watch the life on the river move up and down.. I wonder why no one has thought of building a Yacht Marina here, to bring new people here. It could open the water front to cafes and shops.
There is a lot of new housing here, I particularly like one of the retirement developments, for me it would be an ideal spot with my balcony over the river and sitting in the evening with a glass of chilled Pinot Grigo watching the water and sea birds. I know that the borough is trying to rejenerate the area, but they lack purpose and direction, you need housing - of course, but also a river front area that is attractive with things to do. I have noted that the Running Horses, the Cross Keys and the White Hart very close to this area have made an effort to smarten up. What is needed is good food, good wine and good music. The White Hart has been very very clever and had a wonderful Thames Barge mural painted on its wall, I like this - perhaps they could make more of their lovely garden area down to the river. The older population that lives quite close could be a good customer source if they got away from the spit and sawdust type drinkers, the rowdy noisy and boring drinkers who inhabit Erith. The borough wants to bin the Running Horses, that used to have a carvery.
The areas biggest mistake was it's redevelopment of the shopping area, it went for two story concrete, please please why did you not look at the lay of the area, make it like it was in decades past with small shops. We have a Matalan, a Peacocks and one Select shop there is also a Wilkinsons, a Woolworths and a betting shop/ No imagination. Mostly what you see is dreary security guards who keep out the yob element. Yes perhaps employment is important but on the face of it these shops find it hard to hier staff. The Morrison's restaruant, does a roaring trade, most days breakfast and lunch. People come here for Sunday Lunch - you know a proper roast! Now if people are entised there to eat then why not to other proper food venues. Please no more Macdonalds or Burger King ( we have them as well) That is all there is in the evening. The borough even kicked out the market, which I liked to shop in. So why not a Farmers Market on Sundays?
Erith might seem like the end of the world but it has has railway station, which means people other than car drivers or locals could get here if there was something more than Morrisons. For god sake you built a huge road here, now do something with the town.There is a museum that is so much in need of reinvention that it is practically criminal to leave it. There is a lot of history in this area - what we need here is a historical mastermind. We even have a theater, yes a real live place for plays, THE ERITH PLAYHOUSE (it has a web site which mentions the lack of restaurants) £6 a ticket!!!!!!!. Surely this means something more than bland benality and medocre ideas could flourish here. VITALITY AND LIFE come on ERITH.
We need some dynamism with a heart here not stuffy political quick fixes.
Love Granny
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