Thursday, August 31, 2006

DAY AFTER CHEMO.

Yesterday after the chemo, late afternoon I was not feeling so well. I was really very tired, cold and miserable. I am worried about the effect the steroids will have on my body in terms of weight gain especially around my middle. Not to bad night sleep, so feel somewhat better today. It is only 11.30am.

Love Granny

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

SPEAKING OF FASHION?

The key fashion item of this season appears to be the white shirt, but hey it never went away really. Nothing beats the clean white shirt for effect, there are some super ones on the high street. Selection is important crisp and neat or frilly and linen. Looks great with jeans, but must be clean, red wine stains are a NO.

According to You magazine in the Mail on Sunday 27/08/2006 Wallis has been reborn, a great shop that I have always liked so if even better I shall make a special trip to see if it lives up to the hype. Still this shop can be on the expensive side.

Yesterday I popped into Sidcup for my pre chemo blood test and stopped in at Woolworths, well really this takes the biscuit. The lady in front of me was being served (half heartedly) by one member of staff while a rather younger member regailed us all (by accident) about her torrid dream, its odd references to hating her mother, her father drowning, her feeling of low self esteem Blah Blah Blah, not sure she had been drugged or was drunk, she did not stop for breath. Her colleague moved on to me and served me in the same half hearted fashion while listening to this drivel and offering worlds of wisdom to this - wreck. She barely batted an eyelid in referrence to me. Is this true multi tasking? shop assistant and councellor all in one deal, cheap sessions at the counter!!!!! Actually this is not what I call customer service. One member of staff who appeared less that capable of managing her life distracting a second member of staff. The cruncher was when said patient said "I really don't think I am being listened to" oh really, I beg to differ.

It may seem that I have been a little hard, the girl clearly needed help, but not on the shop floor in the presence and hearing of customers. There is a time and place, her friend would be wise to advise this young person to seek professional help.

One grumpy old granny sends her love.XXXX

HALF WAY THERE

Well today I had my third chemo session, only three more to go. You will note that I have posted a picture on me 'en process' I took with me a silly balloon and kept holding it in front of my face and saying "What's up Doc" well it had to be done, didn't it? They think I'm mad anyway, so mad I was.

Keith was his usual efficient self, I felt nothing except that strange sensation you get in the nose, of all places, a sort of electric shock type tingle. It was all over by 11.45am so and hour all told. Now more tablets - which I hate taking. The important thing is to take your temperature 4 times a day for at least three days, then twice a day after that. Infection is the problem, and any sign of a temp increase and I have to call into the unit.

I did feel a little down today, I guess I just want it over and done.

Love Granny.

I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW WONDERFUL THIS WAS
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WATER DELIVERY CUBAN STYLE AT BANANA COOPERATIVE
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CASTRO'S WORDS
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OUR CUBAN BEACH HEAVEN
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HOGUIN IN CUBA
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THE THIRD CHEMO SESSION
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Saturday, August 26, 2006

BEXLEYHEATH -V- THE REST

I have lived in London Borough of Bexley since 1983. Over the years I have watched with horror the terrible mess Bexleyheath has become. I rarely if ever shop there now, I hate with some passion the monstrosity they call a shopping centre. It has no character, that has been driven out. Replaced by large pubs aimed at the young resulting in nightly antisocial behaviour. the shopping is dire, the shops are same o same o as every where else but lack any sparkle.

The pedestrian area is frequented by aimless young people from around the borough and beyond, who have this idea that only they have a right to be there and behave accordingly. I never go there in the evening, why should I? with only the choice of juvenile drinking establishments and fast food and mediocre chain eateries. I want some where adult - ie over 21 please, noise free where good food and good music are the order of the day. There is only one restaurant that is worthy of the title and accordingly it is pricey, so not a regular place to visit. There is not one quality night time venue anywhere in the borough, who seem hell bent on concreting the borough over. Traffic management is a joke, as are the parking restrictions.


THE REST.

I prefer to shop in Dartford and Woolwich - same general problems but I just find it more appealing to shop in these two areas. They still have some sense of identity.

Dartford has a small shopping mall but it has some nice shops, although if you shop in Primark beware, over stocked and not well managed in terms of floor space or marketing stratergy, which is I guess pile it in sell it cheap and on the whole the staff are slow, bored and demotivated. However my bargin was a black heavy linen long multi gored skirt for £5. In Peppermint I purchased a pair of khaki base ball boots for £5 which you could buy similar in Schuh for £34 (some mark up!!!) These two items should last me all winter.


As you know I like an early visit to Bluewater, it is funny what a difference the sum makes when it streams in through the roof lights. The best of both worlds. Outside is maturing nicely with trees, streams, wildlife and over by the Village, the restaurants have space outside to eat. Except you must not feed the Wildfowl!!!

My one moan is that it brings the Mums with babies out in force, they also bring their uber trendy mini me's with a disasterous result, me listening to spoilt children moaning "but I want it" reflections of the mothers I guess in the 'I' want society we have become. Given the cost of things in the shops of Bluewater, I guess the credit cards get a hammering.

I noted a sad trend of trainers on wheels worn by the very young, who not only run between the narrow aisles of shops they skate and look at others (Me) as if I am in their way. I love children, I believe we should love and care for them, but not to allow hyperactive out of control under fives to run around and jump on seating in coffee shops without restraint. I was horrified when a couple of Mums with a child each, sat a the table where I was and proceeded to chat with the occassional, 'now' to the respective children. One of these children with a full set of teeth apparently doesn't like to chew his food (or more likely won't) and clearly mum is pandering to this by her less than helpful atttitude she actually allows this behaviour and virtually encourages it, he had a very small current which immediately had to be washed down with water Quote "It is the only way he will eat anything". Could this be the only way he gets her attention? oh I think so.

I do not know which is worse, dippy mothers or those who scream torrants of abuse at their young. Children need boundaries, they feel secure if they are encouraged. Children learn to scream from adults, because they (parents) scream at each other, children won't eat because they don't. Loving is not about pandering to tantrums and demands. Behaviour is learnt in the home. You have children then it is the whole deal, manners, feeding, education, health the parents responsibility not the state.

In Cuba, I heard one mother complain that there were no chicken nuggets on the buffet at lunch. What? we were in Cuba and the food we had was better than good, plentiful, fresh and there was a lot of stuff for any child to eat, not least fresh cooked pasta while you wait with the sauce of your choice, what was wrong with that and a little salad and fresh fruit? nothing. This child was a product of it's education, why visit Cuba? go to Bexleyheath if chicken nuggets are all you want.

Back to Bluewater, Gold star for Evans and Elvi who fly the flag for the larger woman, they both had some nice stuff.

Monsoon, Zara, Strawberry Bunny, East are very nice shops as is 'Lucy in the Sky' but far too expensive.

My biggest complaint about any shopping is that staff are Snooty, Lack manners, are condecending and just not interested in customers. Have none of these shops heard of Staff Training?

I know I have had a moan, but really - I am sad for this country.

Love Granny

Thursday, August 24, 2006

OLDCHURCH HOSPITAL

This the hospital where my brother and I were born, it is in Romford Essex. It is also where my Mum trained as a nurse. She worked as an operating theater sister there, and when she had the both of us she stayed home to look after us. Later she worked at Southampton General Hospital for 20 years until her retirement. My question is, does anybody care that this wonderful old hospital in Romford has gone?

I cannot complain at my treatment at Queen Mary's Sidcup, but I would say this. Nursing is a vocation and a career and it is about care of patients. My mum was held in high esteem, she was never afraid to get her hands dirty (she then washed them of course) she did what had to be done. Recently I heard of a nurse who refused to deal with a bed pan, because it was not her job. Nonsense and get a life.

Love Granny.

QUITE A FEW BITS

Firstly, the hair has begun to fall out again, this is about right. I had a shortish period when no hair fell out and I judged that last time the hair begun to fall about five days before the next round of chemo and the same appears to be happening. No problem, just another stage.

Secondly, there has been a great deal written about breast cancer in the press. I noted an article by Kerry Ross (Paul Ross's ex wife) in the Mail. Very interesting and informative and hugely positive. She had only recently remarried prior to her diagnosis, which was an awful shock for her. This is a must read.

Thirdly, the suff about new drugs is very disruptive for people, not all the drugs work on all people, it very much remains an issue as to what kind of cancer a person has. I fear peoples expectations are built up unrealistically - this fuels demands which do not reflect what is right for the patient.

What makes me angry is the money the drug companies are making, yes it costs money for research, development etc etc I understand that. but come on chaps the bottom line is your share holders who are making money on the back of other peoples pain and suffering. this is morally and ethically repugnant. Reduce the cost to the Health Services, no one should have to decide on cost grounds who can have what treatment, these decisions should only be made on clinical evidence. I think it is appaling to put a cost on HIP REPLACEMENT versus CHILD HOOD ILLNESS TREATMENT. I also worry that people 'chase' cures and demand a treatment for themselves those who are well off can of course do this, the poor cannot. I also think that to mortgage ones self is unrealistic.

Fourthly, the issue of death. There are people who demand the right to end their life, when in their view their quality of life is not worth it, there may be a number of reasons for this and who am I to judge what is right for them. The manner of death is important, I would rather die without pain and there are wonderful places where this process is made easier, I mean hospices of course. This would be my choice, to die well when it is my time. I find it apporant that some legal and religious voices seek to determine what this should or should not mean for individuals, they add to a persons sense of fear and pain by punishing them with arguments that reflect an ideology rather than humanity. The other issue is of course, we all die, nothing else in this world is more certain. No one has the right to take life, murder etc this goes without saying, but to prolong life beyond nature is repugnant because it is not life.

We are born, we live our lives and we die, it is arrogant of an individual to think that they should live forever, why should I for example live longer than you? am I better or of more value you that you? No, I am equal to you in value. What matters to me is how I live my life and how I die, peacfully and knowing I am loved.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006


CINDY AND MERLOT BEFORE CINDY DIED
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A STREAM FOR DREAMING
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A CUBAN POLICE BIKE
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A CUBAN CAB
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

HAIR TODAY, GONE TOMORROW

Hi World, You will have seen that I have posted two pictures, which are acurate representations of myself, losing hair. If anybody is afraid of this happening to them, please don't be. I have read so much lately in fashion magazines and today in the paper about women who have lost their hair, some like me through Chemo, who are just inspirational about how they dealt with it. I have choosen not to do the wig thing, but that's me. Today however wigs are incredable, even Trevor Sorbie markets a wig design. Don't be sad, because I look on it as a fresh start, it is visible but if people find it difficult then it is their problem not yours or mine, it is their fears. I might have to get the setson out soon, can't have a sunburnt head.

I have made contact with a friend from Junior School, after all these years - via - Friends Reunited. It so happens his sister, was diagnosed about 10 years ago, she lives in Jamaica where she has given up her career to work for Breast Cancer and is an artist. I cannot wait to talk to her, to gather inspiration from her. You know It Is Life Changing, I refuse to be punished by other peoples expectations of the disease.

If I survive, which I hope I will (nothing is guaranteed) then for the rest of the time that I have I will smile, laugh, sing and DO THINGS. I will travel, I will learn about Britain and nature. I want to be able to pass on to my grandchildren, a love of life. We have one life, it is not a rehersal, we cannot undo (realistically) things that should not have be done - that is a persons history. But whats coming we can impact, what ever time we have. It is really not about how much time an individual has but what they do with that time. Talk to family, share a meal, share a tear, share a hug - create a memory. This is the way to proceed with things that frighten us. If I get sicker later in the process, so be it. Other people out there have been less fortunate than I and I recognise how difficult it is for them.

More tomorrow. Love Granny

REAR VIEW ACTION.
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FRONT VIEW, NEARLY ALL GONE
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Monday, August 21, 2006

ALL THINGS SILLY, PS I CAN'T SPELL

Just so you know, I am a collector of all things silly and trivial - or so Mick thinks. I am also someone who mooches, the very essence of 'Minni the Moocher'. Mick says I am the only person he knows who can shop for no reason, I just amble sedately from shop to shop - browsing and being uber critical. He says I am the only person he knows who can be there one minute and he is talking to me and the next I have vanished down some aisle or other - good thing for my mobile he just rings me to find out which shop I happen to be in. I call my silly and trivial items my treasures, and they can range from a paper butterly to a concrete model of a classical nude on a cheise longue I have Teddies and model cars, icons, pictures, glass and jewellery. My biggest collection is of BOOKS, BOOKS AND YET MORE BOOKs. These are my sources, my references for my work with history, the law and women's issues, I AM UNDER STRICT ORDERS - NO MORE BOOKS but what does Mick know, I slip the odd one under his radar.


I have been reviewing some more fashion stuff this morning, I was delighted to get, among all the Sunday paper dross, The Sunday Times Boden Autum catalogue. I love their stuff but can never afford to purchase. For you busy ladies out there who work in business I have to say that I like their stuff particularly for work, why? mostly the range of colours and the basics that could be your capsual business wardrobe.

This season they have a classic Velvet trim v neck (jumper), a flattering line in soft cotton jersey the colours are scrummy, from Dusky Turquoise to a mid brown, I am into the pink shades myself. At £21 not bad a price either for a staple/classic. They have a similar cardigan range which I like at £29. Their full Sateen cotton skirt is also excellent and I would wear with the jumper noted above. I like waistcoats and they have a nice velvet collection. Another skirt that they have is either in a stripe or check I like boot, but a £55 quite and expensive item.

Boden have some great T shirts (long sleeve with v neck) a lovely range of Cami, a wicked short jacket in black or check. Their bags are to die for as are their loafers and ballet pumps.

They have what they describe as the essential shirt, I would say yes but the price of £38 is too much. If it were cheaper I would probably buy 2 or 3 with a jumper and a cardigan and a mix of skirts that would be my work wardrobe. You can play around with basics to make a statement. One of my other 'silly collections' are my brooches, I have over 100 of all sorts, from craft shop picks to second hand shops and stall, a particular hunting ground for these is Greenwich Market. PS we must save Greenwich from the developers. My other little secret is tights in all sorts of colours.


Many moons ago when I used present cases in court in child care matters and long before the CPS I nearly always wore a black suit - the thing the magistrates used to try and guess was what colour my tights might be - my idea was to look like a Liquorice Allsort (not bertie however)

I had pink (well you know I would) and blues and green tights to choose from. These days bless them I can buy patterned ones. At work they laugh because I have a passion for Fishnets, my boss (and I did this to wind him up) was in a panic when I was teaching a class on prostitution and how to deal with these issues when I wore, black fishnets, black tight skirt and very killer heels, so that I could (yes I know, a stereotype) show the class how to view 'loitering' - well it made people laugh. I do like to 'Act up'.


By the by, I love killer heels. but I also love uber flatties.

In the YOU magazine in the Mail on Sunday there are some great ideas, and dont say I didnt warn you the knitted dress is well back. Super sexy to if worn properly. My favourites was the well priced H and M dress in a cream knit with a scoop neck and a front waist bow detail. NOT EVERYBODY COULD or SHOULD wear this and I perhaps would not but I still love it (I can dream at least) and at £34 not bad. This could be a day or evening item dressed up or down. I would probably go for a toning tight and shoe to lengthen the look. Chocolate is very much in this season and would add a nice touch to this dress as would naturals (wood)

Good tights tip - Golden Lady in Asda, Italian tights I love their light colour with a matching diamond pattern, I love their tarten tights and their black tights with little white spots.


I am also over the Moon that BIBA are back, this was the company I used to buy from in the 1970's wicked. I love the Black satin Cat Suit, a style I wore a lot when younger, and it is a younger persons look. You need a good back for this item and good arms.


Problem arms? then a shrug is a must.

I went shopping again, well window shopping as usual, I like what I saw in Peacocks, they have a nice Oat colour trouser in a linen mix. They have a wicked cross over blouse in a black with a feint red stripe it ties to the side, not as bad as it sounds, in cotton. Would look great with a black trouser or skirt.

There is also a nice retro 1970 pattern sleevless dress in black and red on white, It is empire line and to the knee. Watch the stitching however as always with cheaper end of the market. I would not wear black with this dress, red would be nice and pick up the red or the white of the dress, in cheap and cheerful beads, earings bangles etc etc perhaps a nice red clutch bag. An Autumn party look. Matalan was quite boring but both shops still have the longer T shirt that I love in some great colours and a £3 not a bad deal can be worn under a shirt, with jeans or what ever. Mattalan has some wicked green leather stilletoes.

A shoe tip - whether at work or on a date, clean scuff free shoes are a must. It says you care about your appearance. Good shoes make an outfit, they should also be comfortable there is nothing worse tha painful feet, it makes you feel so bad. I also have shoes in a range of colours, including the all important neutral, for choice. Basic black is great, but does not go with lighter outfits, they can look heavy and unbalance an outfit.

I am glad to see the high waist super skinny trouser and jeans is back. I am off to find the nice flat fronted, great tummy flattening trouser at Miss Selfridge a steal at £30 - this will last you all season, to dress up of down.


Oh well time to go. for my cocktail today - Mandarin and peach over ICE yummy. Love Granny

Saturday, August 19, 2006

STRAIGHT DOWN RAIN

Today, Saturday, it has been raining, and that is a good thing since we have been in a 'drought' period. In the pine trees with the sun on them, there are droplets shining like diamonds that twinkle and reflect out some colours, more beautiful than any costly necklace.

The rain was coming down, heavy and straight down, almost like a sheet of water. I noticed a feather, a tiny white curly feather and it was twisting and floating 'across' this down pour, pushed against the water as if by magic, unhurried, not bothered just doing it's thing despite what must have been great pressure, incredible. I have also just seen a young Woodpecker in the pine, just sitting there looking a bit wet and bedraggled.

It reminded me of how I view life and what I want for other women. I look back at the history of womens suffrage and rights and then I look at women today and wonder what have we achieved because we still buy into partriarchy. I want women to be better than men, by that I mean not doing things the male way. I want women to be above violence and survival of the fittest nor motivated by greed and power. I look at the girls who hang around in gangs (nothing new I must say) I look at them because they are stuck in the rut of group identitiy and not individuality. I find that very boring, and a waste of time. They lack direction and ambition and all that has been won on their behalf, health, education and opportunity are as if for nothing. I want them to have something better than what I had, and that was what the struggle has been about. CHANCE AND CHOICE and not having to settle for marriage and kids with just some fella is what I want for the girls now and in the future. Marriage is fine, if it is a partnership, love is fine if founded on mutual respect and children are important if they are wanted and loved not just something that happens after quick bonk.

These girls dress alike, and appear to see that the icons of celebrity are the ones to aspire to, when in fact it is so transient as to be unimportant. Money and glamour never last, beauty is also fragile and will disintergrate. That life is disposable and easily thrown away.


I watched a programme the other night called 'Bus Pass boob jobs' with people (over 60) seeking to hold on to a vision of their youth with boob jobs, tummy tucks and face lifts. WHY, it was so sad, especially when they really analysed why they wanted this, it was about being lonely and alone, following failed marriages - one man over 70 actually was prepared to risk his life (the action of anathstetic on his body) to take his face back to the way it was when he was in his prime. He even nearly collapsed just having botox injections. !!!!!!! It is just your face, over time it becomes the record of your life and we should be proud of this. I am so against breast augmentation and the want to have big boobs, just buys into male fantasy, a size 'ff' is rediculous.

Having just had a lump removed from my left breast, I can say with some knowledge that I would rather have a healthy boob than a size double D. I now have a large scar and a slightly misshapen boob, but it is mine and if I should in the future have to loose a breast - so be it. The only reason it becomes an issue for women is because men tell us they will not love us if we are not as they wish, or by their reaction they imply that they are turned off by us. If this is the case, you are better of without the man. I am so lucky that Mick has been so supportive, I never once felt under threat. If I had, I would have left to deal with it on my own.

I want to be 70 years of age and still doing things, reading, writing, painting - living rather than consigning myself to the trash heap of other peoples expectations. I know it might sound contradictory, when I have just trashed the choice of some elderly people to go under the knife, but actually I am not saying grow old gracefully as per my expectations, I am saying don't punish yourself for growing old, because growing old is what we all do it is part of life.


My greatest saddness this week has been when a father jumped with his two kids 50 feet from a balcony while on holiday. Following a row, he killed his 6 year old son. The fear that child experienced in that moment cannot be imagined. THIS WAS A FAMILY ROW. The father can't remember what happened - his daughter who survived will. The parents will blame each other of course. Parents, mum or dad, who kill their children when they themselves are depressed are not displaying their love for their kids just their complete disregard for them. There is a little star shining in the sky for this little boy and because I believe in a God, he is with God. I can understand why the Greek public were so angry, they are a very family oriented people and they would not have understood this. There will be many excuses, such as drink, depression and pills for this man's action, but I cannot find it in my heart to forgive him. It is likely he was trying to punish his wife for wanting to leave him. As I say so many times, children are not our possessions to be fought over or demanded in settlement, they are a precious gift.


'Shine on little light who brought such joy.
Look down and with love care for your sister.'

Love from Granny

Thursday, August 17, 2006

BLUEWATER MOURNING!

Just before my second chemo I went for a short early morning walk in Bluewater. I arrived before the shops had all opened and had a coffee and Muffin (lovely) I wanted to have a look at the things I could not afford and to see what inspiration I could glean from the pretty things. I took a note book to record some thoughts - this post is about that experience. There is a Halal food outlet in the food hall, good to see - look for Shere Khan.

CROCS, a strange brightly coloured clog shoe with foot massage interior, I would love a pair, ideal for beach holidays, washable and jolly, I have always been a clog fan, I have a black leather pair which I wear with jeans. Fun and Funky. A small stall on the lower floor (not a shop) It made me smile.

PS Mustard is not a good colour, although there is a lot about, if you wear near face, think skin tone before you buy.

Everywhere is sale mad, with 70% off in someplaces, definately a time to shop, but in high price retailers, you are still spending too much even in the sale, not worth it really. Everything is too expensive, of course shops need to move seasonal stuff quickly, I suggest they look at what they buy and what their customers want and then buy accordingly. Sales are a testament to overstocking, poor purchase decisions, marketing and size ranges.


A shop I had not seen before is MANDOLIN, Loved it a very good range of mid price clothes with some nice styles. Skirts at £49 and Dress at £49.

In Zara which has quite a nice layout I found a super spotty top (long) and various colours and a really nice long line skinny polo neck (not a good look for the older neck)

JIGSAW had a good sale, with some great skirts for autumn/winter for the officer and some nice jackets.

NEXT had a great black dress for £52 very 50's but still too expensive, I also liked the Black and White dog tooth check skirt at £26 and Jacket at £54 (good for the business woman with oomph)


I also recommend Wolford's for tights and things If I had the right figure I would have those stretchy skirts as well.

I purchased a wicked pair of earings for £2.50 (yes under a fiver) in the ACCESSORIZE sale very long, very ethnic in brass look and turquoise tassel. Ideal for when I am bald to make the statement, I'm bald so what. Very Kick Arse.


My biggest issue is that Past Times has gone, pushed out I hear due to rising rents in Bluewater. Stupid to over price the venue I think, that will only push out the price cost to the shopper.

Always shop early, give yourself time to wizz around and get a feel note your items and return to have a better look.

PS I love Oasis for Accessorises.


MY BIG MOAN, Is the staff who are endlessly bored in their work and are rude and ignorant of their customers, no customers = no job. Having said that customers should not be rude to staff either, and patience is a virtue when you can clearly see staff are busy. Busy does not mean staff discussing last night or up coming date with Co workers. Being busy is not being rude about customers who have just been in, this does not endear me to you and I WONT SHOP IN YOUR SHOP. Some staff think that their lives are more important than the customers wishes WRONG. Customer focus and customer service should be a watch word. You should know and understand company and consumer policy be professional. Have alternatives to items to discuss understand how your products work together and for god sake smile a welcome, not pushy just friendly. Also be uptodate with competitors and fashion trends.

Don't sell faulty goods in the sale, BIN THEM.


I want to see items, set out in size order ie all 12s together etc and then colour co-ordinated. I don't want to have to wade through a thousand size 10's to find a 14. I want to see some effort to understand how items work together.


Sadly, I was bored by Bluewater this time although I can see the attraction for the many mums with children - especially on either a very hot or rainy day. Large department stores bore me riggid and are predictable.


As a by the by a very interesting article in Times2 supplement on Tuesday 15/08/2006 "The Chain Gang" Secrets of the six men who run the high street" Terry Green at Tesco, Sir Philip Green (BHS) Stephen Sunnucks (GAP) Stuart Rose (M+S) Phil Wrigley (New Look) and Mike Shearwood of Zara. Please Please lets have a female revolution and unseat these money men. I am glad to see that there is a move to inhouse design teams not before time, HOW ABOUT A MOVE BACK TO British makers as well. I also welcome the idea of short style ranges, keep it moving is what I say. There are loads of young desingers out there in the fashion and design schools. INNOVATION. NOT EVERY BODY IS A SIZE 8 OR 10 (who would want to be) Not everybody wants to be Victoria Beckham, Paris Hilton or any such celeb. We are individuals and that is a beautiful thing, lifestyle is what you make it - I don't want other peoples lifestyles I want mine.

Space in shops to move around, good changing facilities, chairs, mirrors even 360 degree ones so I can see my back, good lighting and good quality interested and knowledgable staff. FOCUS FOCUS. Just don't look down your nose at the customer and your sales will grow.

Have a nice day! Granny

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

FOUND IT

IF A CHILD....
If a child lives with criticism,he learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame,he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,he learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement,he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise,he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness,he learns justice.
If a child lives with security,he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval,he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship,He learns to find love in the world.
--Author Unknown

IF A CHILD

Today there is a big item on Sky News about Domestic Violence and Children. Having worked in this area for some time, I know children suffer from DV. You should be able to find the following poem on line, I have always used it as my guiding principle when dealing with this issue. It is called 'If a Child' It can be found on greetings cards and pocket prayer cards as well. I have always carried it and if only people took its words to heart, there would be a lot less children out there afraid and alone. As I have said children are not our possessions but they are our responsibility we have a duty of care to all children. Love Granny

Sunday, August 13, 2006

SHORT CUT

Well it had to be done, the big clip - hair cut. Now I look like GI Jane. It was a sensible move, to make it less like a snow storm.

Feeling not to bad today, end of the three day regime of pills which I have taking. My best medicine, is contact via e mail and blog with my brother, e mails from my mate Jackie and the blog I love best especially for the pictures and the fun comments about American life. I love it when people get up local politicians noses so find www.national-joe-a-graphic.blogspot.com/

Am I going mad, did I see the UN resolution demand a cessation to the violence, with a time and date like (tomorrow) and it is now hell for leather to get as much land as possible. Stop the violence NOW and TALK too many people have died already.

The world is not a safe place, never was never will be because vested interests always have too much to say and too little time to listen. It is all about power over people, control of their lives by one ideology, religion or cultural tradition or another, it is about money for the few and nothing for others. We should not be deluded by the speeches and comments of the 'leaders' of nations organisations, terrorist groups or freedom fighters they have their own agendas. That is not to say we should not protect ourselves, quite the contrary we should remain vigilant at all times because ALL our lives depend on it. Religion should not be about what you wear, eat, nor how often you prey it should be about how you care for others, because one day you may need their care and understanding. Two wrongs do not and never have made a right, another well worn saying I like is 'be careful who you tread on on the way up the ladder, you will meet them on the way back down'. There is always a down - always. It is important to learn from history do not use it to justify todays actions and everybody should read all historical versions of one event rather than the package deal that is fed by group 'A' over group 'B' there is always more than one side to the story. We need to understand the whole deal, this cannot be done without all the sides being listened to with equal sensitivity.

The saddest thing is sometimes we cannot even talk to our next door neighbours for fear of alienation sad but true. We breed fear into our children, who carry on our prejudices - children are not our possessions, nor are they objects to be imposed upon they are our future. To kill a child to save a child is stupid and unnecessary. I have found that a smile to any child is responded to with curiosity then a return smile and that is a beautiful thing.


This is my personal ideology, not meant to be impossed just considered. Granny

Friday, August 11, 2006

2ND CHEMO DONE AND DUSTED

On Wednesady 9th I had my second cycle of chemo, and all went well - no ice cap. Hair loss is increasing but I am not bald yet.

Felt very tired yesterday, today I am lower than I have been. I feel very lonely all of a sudden and I am worried that Mick finds it hard to cope with as well. We talk, but I have 'C' and he finds it hard. Yesterday my good neighbour Jo, sent me a huge bunch of Sun Flowers, how kind and beautiful was that.

I think in many ways it is hard for partners, because I am being treated but mick is not. We are both going to try the aromotheraphy treatment our Macmillian Centre at the Hospital offers. It's free for both of us. A bit of separate relaxation time for us both.

Funny today has been a grey day weather wise as well as in my heart. Never mind there is always tomorrow. Oh by the way, I shall go to the hairdressers tomorrow to be shorn, all this hair falling out is so embarassing, like snow.

Love to all, Granny

Sunday, August 06, 2006


MY BROTHER'S DOG MONTY
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MY DREAM HOUSE IN THE ISLE OF WIGHT
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A WALK IN SKOPELOS 2004
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MERLOT
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GUERLAIN FAN

I was very lucky when I was younger to be introduced to a perfume range that I would continue to love. I have appreciated of course the range and development of perfumes during the last twenty years but I have to say that I remain faithful to the Perfume house of Guerlain and many of the fragrances I have worn at defining moments in my life. I was delighted to see that a whole page in HAPPY the shopping bible for September 2006 devoted to this very company. I wore the oldest of their perfumes when I married in 1975 this was 'Jicky' originally developed in 1889. I have worn Shamlimar, Mitsouko, Chamade and Samsara. I am looking forward to trying out the new fragrance 'Insolence' this seems appropriate at the moment, but I will have to be careful as the chemo may affect my skin and therefore the fragrance.

I do think it is important to note that perfumes change from skin to skin, what may smell great on someone else might not work for others. A neat trick is to purchase the more expensive perfumes in the new trend for smal sample bottles, that way you can try and not break the bank. equally with a few you have a nice choice. I am as good as my word - I have Jasper Conran 'Woman' I also have 'Fendi', 'Very Valentino', 'Flowers' by Kenzo and 'Adorable' by Mango. They also fit very nicely into small clutch bags for the refresh if needed.

My day time fragrance preferance especially for work, is simple Lily of the Valley. For the beach I like Miami Glow by J Lo which makes me think of Pina Colada's (actually I drink Margarittas I am a lime and salt fan) worn in Cuba last year (a political statement or what!!!)

I also love Vivianne Westwood fragrances, very decadant especially 'Boudoir'.

As a secondary point I also believe that body lotions in a particular fragrance are worth getting, the effect is mor subtle and of course the body coverage is good. I love Chamade body lotion.


The magazine HAPPY is worth a read if you like shopping and there is a great section on bags if that is you addiction. I am always looking for the perfect bag, I have yet to find it. In the section called THE WORD FROM THE STREET I was most impressed with Sarah Walter, Head of Fashion Communication for 'New Look' This is a good shop in the High Street and I use it quite a loot. I was happy to see that she liked the new Tartan dress in their range as she says very Vivienne Westwood. Like me Sarah likes ankle shoes ( yes I know I have said I am not a shoe person - but when I am it is ankle shoes) Knitwear, Shoulder bags and the Garbo Look (for me it was her wearing of great trousers) In the same section I liked Gillian Vadgama from (Wallis) and Anita Borzyszowska (from Gap) choices and comments.

There are some great cheapish necklaces about at the moment with many and varied bangles again these are passions of mine, I love the ethnic/South American look.


RECENT PURCHASE. I am a devotee of second hand shops and I recently found a very pretty knee length skirt in white cotton with a delicate floral 1970's design. It has soft pleats from the waist A nicer version than similar that I have seen in the High Street, I will work it with the white and pink muscle back t shirts that I have (in combination) with pink sandals. I refuse to pay the hellish prices in many of the shops and I could not afford a designer lable. The only ones that I have had are a Paul Costello, evening dress, skirt and Jumper purchased through a factory outlet. I always hunt through sales, patience is a virtue in this.

A good tip is to constantly review your wardrobe, I archive items (in bags and store) and bring out stuff already archived to create current looks. I don't waste anything, if however I really don't want an item any more then it goes to the second hand shops. I also pass on stuff to my teenage step-granddaughter. She is very Cool and loves the theater (she attends a drama club) I don't give her tat, if she doesn't like it then the wardrobe department might like to use it.


Time for a break.
Love Granny

SITUATION UPDATE.

my hair has begun to fall out which has reinforced my decision not to continue with the ice cap treatment. It is not part of the cancer treatment it is about vanity and wanting to keep hair. I may be vain, but hell my hair will grow back and I have always been growing, cuttting and changing the colour of my hair for years. I have been curly and dark, short, blond/purple, red, stripped so what the hell - bald it is. My current colour way for reference is very grey with dark bits, not unlike a badger. My blood count has been low and apparently that shows that the Chemo is working.


I am very pleased to note that the Oncology team for breast cancer (at Queen Marys hospital Sidcup) is mostly staffed by female consultants, led by Dr Rigg. I am comforted by this fact but also proud that the senior posts are women - rock on.


Yesterday I drove to Chigwell - see down but not out - to meet up with my team (work) we had a BBQ and I sat in the sun and watched Dogs and Children running around. My journey was 10 miles and I went over the Thames via the Woolwich Free Ferry which is my favourite way to do this trip.

Let's keep the Woolwich Free Ferry running, imagine the use it will get during the 2012 Olympics.


On the 9th August I have my second chemo so I may not be posting so much following that, depends on my reaction to treatment.

Love Granny

Friday, August 04, 2006


UNDER AN OAK TREE
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KILLED IN AN AIR RAID
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SLADE GREEN MEMORIAL
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WALKING IN GRAVEYARDS?

It may seem strange given my current health condition that Mick and I choose to walk in the graveyard at the back of our house.

For us it is a link to the history of the area and a place of quiet reflection. We remember others suffering and pain. Every grave has a story. We meditate and consider our own thoughts.

There are a large number of traditional travelling family (Romany) family graves the Lee's, Smith's and Brazil's to name but three. The graves have a distinctive ornate style and often give many family members details.

There are 68 graves which are defined as war graves, First and Second World War and includes 2 Home Guard. Most particular in interest is the Grave of a RFC officer 2nd Lt John Hardie of the Royal Flying Corps who died age 19 on 05/02/1918 (one of the early few) the grave is not a traditional war grave it is unique and in need of repair.


Our own particular favourite since it is feet from our wall is the grave of Reginal George Fair LOWTHER a Petty Officer Stoker RH who died 23.09.1944. He lies under a small oak tree which is so appropriate given the tradition in the Navy of HEARTS OF OAK.


There is a most important recently restored memorial to the 13 victims of the Slade Green explosion on Monday 18/02/1924 (8.45 - 9am) when 12 young women aged 16 -24 and their foreman died following an explosion that occured while they were 'breaking down' Verey Light cartridges - an extension of war munitions work. It fits so well with my research into the work available to women in the interwar period. See BEXLEY EXTRA 24/02/2006 page 14 for full story.

I will attach some pictures from the location.

Never ignore graveyards, visit them where ever you go to find out about the history of an area and the nature of death and rememberance rituals. Indispensable if researching family history.


Love Granny

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

IT'S A FASHION THING!

Last year when I was diagnosed with gall stones (Yes it has been that kind of year) I was a size 20 and rather Rubinesque. I learnt that I needed to cut down on my fat intake, so fat was stopped (most of it) I scoured the internet for self help advice and found some good stuff. I also applied the principles of GI not a diet, just sensible healthy eating and it worked. I dropped to a size 14 and lost my huge hips and arse. I got my waist back. Up to that point despite my love of fashion dressing my figure as I wanted to was impossible, I became a sack person. Buying for the larger figure is difficult but it is possible. I did not particular want to just hide my bulk but make the best of it. Fashion - ie the trend to expose tummies, is not quite what I had in mind, it accentuates the rolls of fat rather than enhances for the best, this style makes you look even fatter than you really are.

The secret is to decide what about yourself you like, eyes, hair, shoulders etc and accentuate or flatter these areas. Overwhelming yourself with too much or a mix of colours does not work drab isn't the answer either. Look critically at youself and then use colour swatches to identify the right colour ways for your own colouring, put together some colours in the same tonal range, think warm and cool colours there are lots of sites to help you. If you do not like clothes shopping use the wide range of catalogues and take you time to think and try on (keep or send back) it is easy but does require some personal engagement in the process.

Accesorise of course, but less is more sometimes, co-ordination helps an overrall look.



My current fashion notes are as follows.


At the moment, I am probably stuck in a time warp - a basic knee length denim skirt with t-shirt is my prefered day wear. Summer or Winter - bare tanned legs flip flop type shoe or heels (wedge mule) or with thick tights and boots. I also love my short demin jacket day or evening. I am not a big coat person. I belt my skirt with either a sparkly scarf or a bright citrus green. Not everybody likes or can wear the Flip Flop shoe with its toe post, I love them since I basically hate wearing shoes and would rather go bare foot. There are some really beautiful shoes like these around at affordable prices. I love the ethnic leather style, and my basics are black leather. Some can be really very 'Blingy' some now have kitten heels - if you go for this look, please take care of your feet, ugly feet do not look good nor does dry skin.

My biggest problem area is my puffy tummy, still there even after weight loss. Problem is due to lack of tummy excercise and muscle tone and the female bloating thing. My other key item at the moment is the bright skinny long line muscle back vests available in most high street shops, this allows my scar under my arm to be expose, but not too much, to the air to aid healing. It is not to gross I promise you. I tuck tshirt into my demin skirt and it stays in place.

I love the following fashion web site www.fashion-era.com which looks at history of fashion but gives up to date trends.

Please forget the long or short - shorts - ugh
Do look at Linen and Broderie Anglais tops with a nice linen skirt short or long (much better than shorts)
Avoid too many flounces but do not discount. Less is more.
Glad to see that skinnies and leggins are back, look great with a Ra Ra skirt of long line kaftans or jumpers.

I do not see myself as a FASHIONISTA but I am very clear about what I like. I am basically a Boho babe with a smarter sophisticated version for work. I am big into long ethnic skirts. Black is my favourite colour and I like the hour glass figure in the current trends. I am a huge Monsoon and East fan great places for ideas even if I cannot afford to buy regularly. I look in Matalan, Peacocks, Primark and Select for cheaper affordale options. Be selective in these shops, look at material and stiching. If the item only lasts a season, so be it. I do have a number of more expensive items that I have had for years that are go any wear do anything items. An example is a skinny, long ribbed black knitted dress (sleeveless) with a round neck, and side slit. Works for day with the demim jacket and shoes as previous mentioned ( vaired by use of a range of belts and accesories) in the evening with bling (actually pearls look stunning) and perhaps a shawl/scarf addition and higher heels (which makes the legs look fab with that slit)


I am not a bra person, but recently due to the circumstances I have had to sucumb - pretty bras work but all bras must be well fitted, get your self measures properly and find out that all important cup size. I also need to use the crop top soft type bra tops.

Catalogues vary in quality season on season so check them all out, This season I like Littlewoods and La Redoute.

They size well, for example cater for Tall, Reg and Petit in some ranges. THEY DO A REASONABLE SIZE RANGE 8 -26 IN SOME ITEMS.

In Littlewoods I like (Autumn/Winter)

a) page 11 on the Love Label the simple dress at £45 a good purchase as you will get wear out of it .
b) page 14 no 9 the Full Circle Skirt. Cost £35
c) page16 no 1 Maxi Belted Cardigan at £50
d) page 20 no2 Denim Military Jacket £40 LOVE IT
e) page 23 All the items and looks here are good and I would buy for myself.
f) page 33 item 9 SIMPLE EFFECTIVE DRESS to dress up of down. £40
g) page 34 items 4 and 5 Tunic and ruched leggings.
h) page 44 Morgan Jacket and skirt (this would be my chosen work look) expensive at £99 and £55
i) page 49 item 3 knitted dress up to size 16 (I have something similar in black, and I love it with trousers, jeans or leggings) expensive at £80 (French Connection)
j) Great selection of jeans pages 68 -73
k) page 98 Long Line cable cardigan - fantastic front love this look so much.
l) page 123 great cheaper suit look items 6 and 8 I like this and would buy myself. I love the fish tail back hem, I hate plain ordianry suits, you just blend in with the suited men, women need to stand out from the crowd (My philosophy)
m) page 143 Lace insert dress. not bad at £45
n) page 147 N0 8 Dusty Lavender skirt, LOVE IT at £35
o) page 148/9 fantastic Nichoas Millington outfits, love them and up to size 20
p) page 150 A MUST HAVE item 3 a cream beaded shrug. £45
q) page 157 item 7 Amanda Wakeley evening dress fab look and colour is dreamy satin at £89
r) page 159 item 9 another Amanda Wakeley dress for evening fab in chocolate at £89 in gorgette (would look spectacular with the shrug I mentioned)
s) page 162/3 item 3 green satin blouse and 6 and 7 Jacket and trouser teamed together would look great at that all important meeting - with smart good quality leather (black) brief case and smart clean black shoes. Don't over do but try an individual brooch. I have also always worn a breast cancer ribbon when at important meetings.
t) page 175 item 9 a wrape in jade or black, fantastic item for hols goes with skirts, jeans, dress or whatever - probably most useful in black.
u) page 185 not a bad suite for work and £55 and perhaps in lighter shade for summer meetings

A big No No Please No, is the look on page 30, God that blouse is horrendous.

They have some good basics and do stuff for expectant mums.
They have an on line site so you can see what you think of my selection www.littlewoods.com see if you can guess which items I mean!!!!

The Sunday Mail - You, magazine and Sunday Times style magazine are where I check out the trends weekly.

Some good looks in my favourite mags, INSTYLE and GLAMOUR.

I am following the trend, my Mum is known as the Wardrobe Mistress a collector of clothes since the 1940's (yes) you should see her house. She had an article written about her and it says everything about care for clothes before rampant comsumerism. Find it on line - Southern Daily Echo Weekend Magazine Jan 24-30 2004 by Kate Thompson.

Another look you will see me in is very Juliette Greco (who?-look it up)
Black trousers, Black long skinny knit jumper, flat black pointed shoes (leather) and faded 15 year old 3/4 length Black Leather Jacket raglan seleve with many changes of button (must be black) I can do the moody look as well very menacing.

PS I love window shopping at Bluewater (well, WHEN) Fancy a coffee?
Love granny