ARE THEY MAD

I am very angry, the anti china protest would have been so much more effective if the crowd had turned their backs on the flame rather than getting all hot under the collar. It was easy to see the hand of China in the 'coordination' - witness the scene out side 10 Downing Street with a 'torch attendant' pushing people around so the camera gets a good photo call. The world have seen the true nature of the government of China, not un like Mugaba and his 'Free and Fair elections'. What a joke. Chinas idea of peace and friendship - is do as I say or else. We know exactly they images the chinese people will see on state TV.

I support the atheletes whole heartedly. I feel angry that police officers were placed in the unenviable position of trying to keep the thing moving along over a 31 mile route....absolutely ridiculous. Why should our officers be used as a political tool....the protestors by being predictable have shot themselves in the foot. One stupid woman even took a child on her demo he looked terrified. I will pray for all the officers, I hope they get home safely tonight. Imagine trying to cycle or run in uniform for the whole 31 miles and what do you do with a bike when you are pulled to the ground?

How much more worth while was the programme yesterday about the Terracota Army at the British Museum...fascinating. But even that allowed us to see how repressive the government is, by compulsorarily moving people (thousands of them) from their land to carry out excavations. In other cases they have moved people to build a dam. The poor chinese are prisoners of the regime treated as 'drones'.

Tibet is Tibet and should be free.


Turn the TV's off during the Olympics and make a clear point.

Love Granny xx

ROBINS FLY THE NEST

Our robin chicks fledged leaving the parents disoriented. They spent a day flying around the their old beats in confusion. At one stage they sat side beside each other on the fence.

Love Granny xxx

GOOD NEWS

I heard yesterday that I have the all clear from my biopsy. I had a personal call from my breast care nurse. They are there to respond to my concerns at any time. I want to thank again Mr Hoque my consultant and his staff at the Queen Mary's. SAVE QUEEN MARY'S HOSPITAL SIDCUP. Local hospitals are so important as are local fire stations and police stations.


I have been delighted to hear and see that Josie Russell appears to be doing well after the awful attack that killed her Mum and sister Megan. I pray her life will remain quite and calm.

I have received several very generous sponsorship pledges already so Thank You, Thank You to all. I am really looking forward to the Race although I will walk it rather than run (except perhaps short bursts)


I am some putting some names out in the ether to try and find out information about them, they are women about who I am writing in my PhD.


Jean Stratton born in Dundee
Margaretta Gibson Low born in Edinburgh


Love Granny xxx

Dear friends, you all know about my cancer - well I have decided to take part in the Race For Life to raise money for research in cancer to give something back. This is my small effort because unless the research had not been done I would probably not be here. My best friend Maggie was diagnosed almost a year to the day from my diagnosis so it is for her. My colleague Ian - his wife has terminal lung cancer and has been told that it is now in her spine. So it is for her. Another colleague died last week from cancer so it is in memory of him. Our health is the most precious thing we have. My dear dad Ralph also died from cancer in 2001 so it is for him. My dear Auntie Vickie died of cancer a year ago, so it is for her. I try to live a healthy life style. I know however that Cancer can strike anyone.

I have chosen to run around The City of London on April 1st 2008.

Below is the official online sponsorship form and this is my own page in the official site as you can see how I am doing.



http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/helenbarnard2

TALKING FASHION

I visited Bluewater of Thursday after having seen my consultant and having the little biopsy....why I hear you mutter. Well I hoped that it would cheer me up. What was there to titillate my taste buds. Indeed I found little, all the usual shops are there and I as I wandered around I noted that there were the usual suspects shopping, people with more money than sense. The ridiculous cost of clothing and some of the cheap copies of cat walk innovations (I strongly support the fashion show system as an ideas venue) poorly finished especially hems and buttons.

The places that really disapointed were Accessorize and East.

H and M had some simple cotton skirts ideal for the beach. I am also inclinded to think that the linen/cotton longer shorts with a waist tie and on the baggy side which at the moment might work for me on the beach rather than sarongs. I have noted some attempts at kaftans on the market, forget these try the real deal from north africa (as warn by Abdel in 'You' magazine p 43 in blue and white. I used to have similar when I went to Tunisa and Morocco I purchased a few and I loved wearing them.

Despite my less than satisfying trip to Bluewater I was lucky to find a Robert Wilson crime novel to take on holiday should we go - I love his books. I also found some Ruby and Millie makeup which I like a lot.

My better shopping was done in some Sidcup secondhand shops. A beautiful stretch devoire dress in maroon, and long and coloumn like, I have some great accessories to alter the overall look. I found a nice pair of black velvet trousers brand new in from Next.


Keep it simple, go for good fabrics and finish.

Love Granny xxxx








Let me highlight a beautiful dress in the Sunday Mail 'You' magazine dated 23rd (today) (page 15) It is long sleveless and slinky in black with wonderful blue and yellow flowers in the skirt. Stocked by Banana Republic (bananarepublic.eu) I love this dress, at £75 not so bad a cost. This is a dress I would wear. Again I state this magazine is worth a read on fashion issues and it is weekly.

HEALTH UP DATE

I have been so well recently that almost forget that I still have my cancer. I had a little glitch this week.. I had a small 'spot' on my scar. I was worried so I was glad I was due to see my consultant this week, when I did he did a 'punch biopsy' to clarify if it was something serious or a small infection.. either way I have to wait for two weeks. It has depressed me a bit, because I know that it can come back anywhere any time.

My dear friend Ian's wife who has terminal lung cancer learnt recently that it has migrated to her spine. She can have no more chemo so they are trying to radio it. My heart is with them both all the tiem.


Sadly a colleague called Mick Daly died last week from cancer - a recent diagnosis. My heart is with his family at this sad time, what can you say to make it less painful.


Patrick Swazie has his own cancer battle and Dame Maggie Smith.

Life is fleeting... it is about how we live our life rather than length and each of the above has 'lived'.


Love Granny xxx

IN MY GARDEN

Today it is so cold and even snowy that I am worrying for our Robin chicks. The adult birds have been very busy feeding over the last two days. We have seen the grubs in the mouths of both birds. They have a set flight plan using our garden chairs as a stop off to check out for preditors then fly into the nest. They have not been able to feed themselves so Mick put out seed and this morning the birds were feeding like crazy - probably to build up reserves for the coming awful weather. I hope the chicks survive the cold.

Talk about cheek.... we spotted super squirel making use of our bird table, which has a roof. There he sat eating nut after nut under the shelter of the roof...it was raining...clever old thing.


Love Granny xxx

TIBET

There is no greater injustice than the Chinese occupation of Tibet, if you believe the controlled media output coming from the Chinese - then wake up. If you can't see that China bans foreign media for the reason that it does not want 'You' to know what is really happening. Only a country with something to hide does this, witness Mugabe in Zimbabwe. The rich and powerful in both states are the winners, keeping the poor down and controlled - the corruption of commercialism. Do whatever you can, the smallest effort can move mountains - never forget, don't ignore it (it's in your back yard and could happen anywhere)


Support the Dalai Lama - peaceful demonstration and non violent action - raise voices in protest telling our politicians to pressure the Chinese government - you have the Olympics that does not give you carte blanch to ride rough shod over other peoples in fact it is the opposite. The Chinese are breaching the Olympic ideals.

This Easter people around the world are being crucified for freedom - Easter should be a time for the Christian voice to speak out on behalf of others, regardless of their religion.

Love Granny xxx

TOWER HAMLETS CHILDREN

Today I attended a training day for 8-13 year olds from Tower Hamlets borough, the topic was Hate and Faith Crime. It was held at Oxford House. I was so impressed with the young people, who had a strong voice and were wise beyond their years and we as a society underestimate them. They deserve the people who teach them to be the best that they can. We had some guest speakers at the end of the day and the children listened carefully to some very dry comments. This was a multiracial group of kids, getting on together, adults take note. I was even a tree covered with postits with their ideas on Hate crime, even on my nose! but think it through, we have to advise children about Hate Crime, what a sad world.


It was a real privilige to meet these kids, who if you talk to them frankly and honestly respond so well.

PS I LOVE BETHNAL GREEN (TOWER HAMLETS ALL OVER) it has colour and life.

Love Granny xxxx

CULTURE

Listen to the Robert Plant and Alison Krauss album, well I like it!!! Discovered the Culture Show on BBC 2 Saturday, excellent..... excellent group The Editors. Think Nigel Kennedy still fab after all these years. Watch Coast if you can because you get to look at how beautiful Britain is. Music is the greatest therapy.

Love Granny xxx

OUT SPOKEN LADY

News is my drug and I have views about everything - the current picture is not any exception.

Well done to Bjork, lets get real about China. I believe that the Olympics should not be held there so in my small way I shall boycott watching this summer. Talk about commercial interests prostituting themselves....there has been no move on Human Rights or pollution. The sponsors are hoping for big bucks, lots of coverage SO LET'S BOYCOTT THE GAMES. The Chinese are so selective in their conservation issues as well but do still promote traditional medicine for which many animals must die. MONEY talks, stand up against it.

A man killed himself, his passengers and three others because he was overtaking...a man described as loving speed and convicted drink driver....if ever an example for removing these drivers from the road this is it. He was always going to kill, he had a warning which he ignored so he is a murderer.

Sharron Matthews remains missing, let's all call out....own up bring her back of give her mother closure. JOIN TOGETHER to bring her back. Someone has lied and is still lying.

My heart goes out to the family of Carol Barnes, who died following a stroke. She was part of my growing love for news.


Please support with your prayers Amy Maria Molloy at 23 a widow, her husband died of cancer eight months ago. Read her article in 'You' the Sunday Mail 9th March 2008.

NEW'S NEW'S NEW'S LOVE GRANNY.

I HAVE TO SPEAK OUT - ITS MY DUTY

ODE TO MARTYN (Martyn Compton, Lance Corporal)

I looked at the screen
I saw your face
disfigured by fire - by war.
I looked at the screen
I heard you speak
made stronger by war
I looked at the screen
and screamed at the set
why again, how many more?
This is a look I have seen before.
Identity blurred not diminished
the fire in your eyes.
Martyn the man
Like so many before
victims of war.
Soldering - governments demand.
Then government must pay.

Love Granny

JAYS TAKE THE DAY

During the last week I noticed two Jays (that is a bird) trying to eat from the bird feeders in mine and my neighbours garden. This was quite odd since these birds are of a similar size to Magpies - that is big. the feeders are designed to feed very small birds who can hover. One Jay tried to hover at my feeder then tried to get at it by sitting on the bird table and the sat on the shed roof looking and I could almost see his brain working as to how to deal with the problem.

The next day two Jays tried to deal with my neighbours bird feeder they tried and tried. Does this mean food is really short in the natural environment?

Today I heard the most beautiful bird song, a tiny brown bird, I do not know what bird it was.

I spent a lovely day with my Mum, to celebrater her birthday and took her out for a meal. We nag each other but all in good humour.


Let us hope that Shannon Matthews aged 9 is found soon. Let us be straight about this, the chances are she will not be found - there is a story here. EVERY CHILD MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!!

Shoes with no heels, oh please what a stupid idea....to balance only on your toes will damage to legs and back. ALL VERY STUPID.


I did not like the Brits - all very silly except it was nice to see and hear Amy Winehous looking so much better. Beth Ditto showed what a large woman can do with red, good on you girl.

I want to see some more style around the clothes are so drab and mundane this season. Come on high street - dress real women.


Love Granny xxxx

PIGEONS ON ICE

My garden and that of my neighbours remain a hive of activity. The robins would appear to definately be back, nest building in the same location as before. I have also noticed the crows are actively building in the cemetary pine trees. It has to be spring in the air, because the squirrels were belting around the trees chasing each other round and round the trunks. The Pigeons were quite daring this morning, still in the edge of my neighbours pond which was frozen giving them a quandry since this is 'their' watering hole. Then as I watched one pigeon stepped on to the ice, and walked carefully while looking for a small break. The sun was shining and the heavy frost was melting, as if steam it was rising from the shed roof. Thank god for spring.

You will know how much I love fashion. I have been very disappointed with the way the high street have translated designs.

Let me recommend a wonderful fashion record published by Hello, it costs £6 but very put together. Let me make it clear this is about looking at high fashion and design, some you should only wear on the 'red carpet' but this is an ideas book that you can use to put together look.

I can see I will be using my collection of bangles.


I do like the following, Michael Kors page 13 sharp light trousers and sleeveless belted blouse. Chanel have a number of nice pieces, including a red and white sleeveless dress - other things I don't like.

The fabrics are stunning in all the collections but Christian Lacroix - a brilliant designer, but you have to be a certain person to wear the fabrics, there are some colours and patterns that could swamp any individual. He does have a nice black and white suit, page 74. Dior has a great three peice suit in black with a white stripe. They also have a lovely dress on page 96. I love the Stella McCartney jumpsuit, long, blue and white. Alexander McQueen has a fabulous suit in a check fabric and pleated skirt page 159. Vivienne Westwood produced a sensational black dress which I would love to own. Versace has a beautiful sea green dress page 203, simply cut with a fabulous belt. There is a similar one in brown. In both these dresses the fabric counts so if you buy a high street version, it may not work because of creasing....but love the shoes at this show. Just look at the Versace trousers and blouse on page 207 Chic, chic, chic. BY THE WAY Vivienne Westwood does some fabulous perfume....Libertine is my favourite.

I loved Roberto Cavali use of colour, lilac, lavender and blue in his very floaty collection shown on pages 216/217.

Some of the Giorgio Armani items are fabulous, the tops are the best, I especially love the jackets on page 251.

I loved Marc Jacobs '9' dress on page 269 in an orange - sensational.

Calvin Klein, is brilliant - all very simple beautiful colours, fab trousers, fab shoes p 272 to 275.

All are easy to copy.

Please..... look at the web pages about Kelsey Briggs, and the video on you tube about her.....stop child abuse.

Granny loves yer xxxxx

THERE IS SPRING IN THE AIR

Well what can I say about my beautiful garden, so full of life. Robins looking for nesting, black birds, blue tits and coal tits. Super squirel and friends was fantastic fun on my neighbours bird feeded. I am so happy to see them. Two foxes tried to mate on the lawn next door, and then chased on another across our shed. The male was big and vigourous, then there was such a different fox smaller, dark, with no brush. I thought it might be mange.

I am a huge fan of Torchwood and Primeval - excellent science fiction. Looking forward to Ashes to Ashes.

I have been looking at the fashions, and suggest women look at March issue of Harper's Bazaar - Leona Lewis is so beautiful.. I can recommend it because there are some great looks..... I have also been looking at at World Fashion and cable, the collection for Yves Saint Laurent was fab, I hope the high street translates it, because it was so wearable. Dark colours, 'A'Line swing type, short over leggings ..... really great.

I love this seasons Prada bag, but at not at the cost. Equally Mulberry bags this season look good but .....not at that price.

Agyness Deyn has a fabulous look but not in the frilled dress. Bangles, big heels, wedges, I feel for Barbara Bui shoes (page 74) cost £1,065 oh don't be stupid. But the Faith bag at £30... now thats a bit better, except I know Mum has these bags from the 1940's I used to use one. I believe the real hit will be the taylored Shift Dress, for work and play. Michael Kors, green dress is heaven p 110 and Blumarine skirt and top are to die for, and Donna Karan, wow.


If I had the perfect figure and the money I would purchase just one dress, by Etro, a hippie Tie-Dye cotton dress....it is so me. I have fallen in love again with Lenny Kravitz, I also loved Terence Trent Darby.


I have just discovered a cartoon, it is so beautiful - do loook 'Belleville Rendez-Vous' the art work is sensational and the story bizzare but do give it a go.

Live Long and prosper. Devine Granny XXXXXXXX

HOW I WISH I HAD A CAMERA

On Wednesday I had a rather spectacular acccident, I fell head first down a flight of stairs at work. I landed on my head and I have to say the sound of connection of head to concrete was about as scary as it can be, horrid. I was taken to hospital by brilliant ambulance staff and was treated by the Royal London Minor injuries staff... thank god for the NHS. Lets remember what it would be like without these dedicated,hard pressed,understaff,underfunded people.


I will not be applying for a stunt woman role anytime soon.


Mick was at home to look after me today. Thank God, because Super Squirell made a spectacular appreance in the garden. He his HUGE, and so funny, he was hanging up side down on the bird table trying to get the fat balls. Merlot barked and he was off doing his 007 impression - he jumped on to my neighbours roof and then he literally threw himself across a wide gap on to a tree - he FLEW. He makes me so happy. Mick says that he saw a very fat robin which pleased us both...... we both reflect on our last years experience with the robin babies.


Long live animals. Love Granny

ME AND MY THOUGHTS

I have been looking in the shops and I am bored! the high street translation lacks style and quality - but it is cheap and looks it. Keep to basics at the moment, jeans that suit you and invest in a decent pair of shoes, they can make your look and comfortable feet make you feel comfortable as well. Shop for a special accessory to lift any dark or bland outfit to a new level, a belt, a pashmina type scarf, a brooch what ever your feel is best for you.

Thighten your belts it is going to be a hard financial year. Revisit your wardrobe and freshen good items. Look at the trends and add your own flair. I have to say the £950 has to be too much for a hand bag, it is obscene to pay this kind of money for clothes etc - high maintenance = low ethics. I am glad that last year I invested in denim, because it is the big surprise revival this year. With a white blouse and a vest type tee shirt in white or a colour underneath looks cool. Peachy blusher is a flatering colour for most, minimal make up makes for a chic understated look.

I have not been to Bluewater for nearly a year, and I don't miss it.

Love Granny xxxx

LITTLE DONKEY

A favourite Christmas carol of mine is 'Little Donkey' it continues 'with a heavy load, little donkey, carry Mary safely on her way'. Of course it matters in relation to the story of 'Ester' she is our heavy load, I was able to see a news report about her today and you only have to see how fearful these animals are around humans. How remarkable to hear that another donkey gave birth at the sanctuary, so this means that this brute of a man treated pregnant animals with such disrespect.

I have also been watching the programme 'Elelphant Diaries' it is well worth a look, with lots of tissues easily to hand.

Today is very grey, raining and cold......lets look forward to warm gentle summer days.

Love Granny xxxx

REDWING SANCTUARY

I beg people to offer what ever donation you can afford - to any horse sanctuary that has taken in the many victims of the most dreadful event of the horses and donkeys left to die on a farm in this country. I am hoping to support the 2 month old donkey foal 'Ester' who is at Redwing Sanctuary where she is being cared for. I do this in memory of Auntie Daisy who supported donkeys herself. The court process will be long and these animals have to be cared for until it is over. Hopefuly they will find homes later. I do not have the circumstances where I could take 'Ester' in I live in a small town house. We need people to take these poor defenseless voiceless creatures and standup for them. We share this planet with animals and we have a duty of care for them and the planet.

LOVE GRANNYxxxxx

OVER HUNG

Christmas is over and has been fun, lots a kids, food and drink. On Christmas Day morning I was looking out at my garden and the trees, watching 8 squirrels racing around at the speed of light - lots of birds in evidence as well. It was the same again on Boxing Day, they are fearless jumping from branch to branch.


Damn the assassins who killed Benazir Bhutto, the bright, beautiful and educated women who scared the fanatics, fundamentalists and generals. They who could not beat her at the ballot resorted to the cowardly way. Who will be next?

A PC died on duty, with a heart condition that was known about so why was he passed fit and by whom to work on the frontline which is the most stressful of roles. Government take note - are you going to pay £200 back pay for this mans salary. Binding arbitration means just that, the talks were entered into in good faith, the government broke that faith. Now there is a debt to be paid.


Love Granny

CHRISTMAS WORD.

Well Christmas is once again descending into a battle about the shops and that is an awful condemnation of our society. Money does not matter, profits do not matter life matters. I hate the shops and there is nothing of design quality in the shops, what small amount there is, is far to expensive the rest is tat. The discounts are already happening.....which really says it all.

My view of the general financial situation in the world is that the mega rich get richer and the poor get poorer and poorer. The credit crunch is the result of the greedy lenders expoliting the media promoted desire for a particular life style - Paris Hilton for example, who would no about her if not for the press and TV - who wants to be that shallow, defined only by the $.

My heart is with the women of Basra who are being driven back to the veil under a harsh religious boot. This is the counter balance, faith should not be a tool of repression. No woman should be killed because they choose not to hide themselves. Smart, bright and clever women should be celebrated which ever choice they make. Childern should never be bought or sold for any reason. Female children of 12 should not be married to 40 year old men as per the disgusting photo in the papers the other day, the poor sad childs face spoke volumes. Every woman of every faith and culture should stand up against this. Whatever happens to this child could happen to you - wake up. The way to control a society is to control women and children. Every woman and child should have access to a roof, food, education and medical care.

Maddy remains 'lost' someone out there knows what happened, shame on you. May your life never be normal.

My joy remains my garden, full of birds as always, what I note is there are less berries about so I am putting out food for the birds. Super Squirrel remains a delightful visitor, the other day I was watching out of the window when I saw 'Super' come up over our fence at the top looking around the coming down the other side. Then staying low to the ground moved across the the bird table, then to the otherside of the garden. It was just like 'James Bond' squirrel, it was so funny.

Let's speak up about our planet, the Polar Bear and the Whale should be our guides. I am an Al Gore fan. I would like to see a complete ban on the production huge 4x4 vehicles.

I agree with the move toward tough punishments for those who use their mobile phone while driving, but prison?

Let's spare a thought for those unfortunate to have lost their homes in the floods. Many will not have a Christmas this year.

Spare a thought for our soldiers in far off battle grounds. I have never agreed with the war in Iraq but I support the soldiers doing the work demanded by government.

Rhydian should have won X factor, his voice is surprising and wonderful- he will grow into his talent. Leon was sweet, but really it was an injustice for him to win, over sentimental voting. I have so enjoyed Strictly Come Dancing the standard of development has been fantastic it will be close.

Work remains busy, the last year has past in a flash. I will be 53 this year and I am still in remission. I 'will' watch To The Manor Born, but that might be a battle with Mick. Doctor Who will also be a must watch with a turkey sandwich and strong pickled onion (bliss) I also hope to get dripping and jelly - not politically correct but a delicious memory of Christmas past.

LOVE TO YOU ALL. GRANNY

HELLO AGAIN HELLO

Hello out there, and welcome home Gillian Gibbons. What a lovely lady.

My garden continues to be my pleasure, Super Squirel was back yesterday, as were the Coal Tits, Blue Tits and even a green parrot (there are a lot in this part of the country). Squirrel was hysterial - acting just like James Bond crossing the garden.

My Mum up for a few days, the ultimate showgirl, Kylie eat your heart out, she is going to be singing to the old folks at the Christmas Party locally. I drove down to collect her yesterday, the sun made the December country side appear beautiful - which it is. what shocked me was the proliferation of Mobile Phone masts everywhere.

I am now in possession of my Body Bible the Trinny and Suzanne book is fun. I also like their prog on TV. Still keeping up my fashion checks, but I have not been to Bluewater for ages partly due to work commitments and partly - I am increasingly bored by shops, it is all same same same. I also get bored by the staff, the crush and cost ----- everything is far too expensive. The idea of visiting at Christmas Time is such a horror, listening to "I want" "I want" from kids who demand to more than they should and parents who get it for them. Spend less and think about the meaning of Christmas.

Please please, lets ban mobile phones in the transport system, I am fed up to the back teeth with listening to peoples sordid personal lives unfold. The affairs, relationship issues and debts are not my business. I listen to my Sony to block out inane chatter.


I am loving 'Cranford' on TV and Strictly Come Dancing with Len my hero. Of course Robin Hood is excellent and enjoyable.


Let's promote reading, I plan to read Cranford now.


Love Grannyxxxxxx

I'VE BEEN SAD

I cried buckets during the televised funeral of Rhys Jones, who out there knows who killed him - please speak up this person will kill again.

Jane Tomilinson died after her long battle with cancer, her husband and children are in my heart. Her funeral was also moving and poor Dickie Bird could not hold back his tears. She was selfless and inspirational - a role model for all people.

Also gone are Pavarotti and Anita Roddick. I listened to Pavarotti again and again on my CD. I am glad that I can because he raises my spirit.

I am also sickened by the continuing news of deaths of children at the hands of their parents.

You could be forgiven thinking I am verging on the depressed.

I try never to go to bed without having found something positive in my day, this usually takes the form of animals. Today for example the garden is full of butterflies. Birds are prevalent and Super Squirrel has returned. Indeed 'Wisp the Fox' has been seen several times.


Last Thursday I was sitting in St James Park in the sun, watching a man who clearly was a businessman on a stress break feeding peanuts to pigeons and squirrels who ran up his leg and along his arm to feed. Later some kind of geese walked for the lake to meet up with a young family who were picnicking. They settled down to enjoy a share of the food on offer. It was a pleasure to sit there, how lucky we are in London to have such beautiful areas to break from busy business. If looking toward the lake through the trees and you would be forgiven for forgetting you were in a major city.


Foot and Mouth has hit the poor farmers again, I am devastated to see the culling it is sickening. What is really ridiculous is that 'ramblers' are walking around the precautions in the exclusion zone.

For Northern Rock, I blame the media for stoking this run. It is stupid at this stage.

I think Boris Johnson should be the Conservative candidate for Mayor of London.

I am backing what Dr Rowan Williams with what he said today, about the conflicts in society.

Do not ban abortion but do re look at timescales, women must have domain over their body.


Love to all from Granny XXX

WHO COULD FAIL TO BE MOVED

If you saw Melanie and Stephen Jones on the televison in an appeal over the horrendous murder of their son Rhys you cannot fail to have been moved. They had such dignity despite the raw emotion. SOMEONE OUT THERE KNOWS EXACTLY WHO KILLED RHYS - SPEAK OR THIS PERSON WILL KILL AGAIN, HE HAS TASTED BLOOD WHAT HAS HE GOT TO LOSE IF HE KILLS AGAIN.

What punishment do we a society impose on this person?

Guns and knives have no place in society since we do not have to kill for food.


Let us hold the whole family in our hearts and pray that they survive. My heart is also with his young friends who he played with football with - give the courage to play on - in memory of Rhys.


For a really excellent insight into gang culture listen to Professor Gus John.


Love to all, Granny xxx

POURING WITH RAIN

The weather is pretty awful and yet more rain on the way.

I must congratulate all the A level students who got results yesterday, it is the beginning of the journey for you guys. That includes Princess Beatrice - let us hope it opens some additional doors.

I must congratulate the winner of £35 million pounds Angela Cunningham. Am I jealous, Yes, but she seems so nice and I hope that her life is lifted and not blighted. Her son's life is secure but I hope the vultures steer clear.

My anger is directed to those people who have killed children - their own in the last couple of weeks. It is also becoming to terrible for words that antisocial behaviour is developing into Murder.


My heart is with the people of Peru in an hour of darkness.


I am angry at the death of animals due to the floods, but was heartened to see that a wild life rescue centre has done stirling work in caring for sick and alling animals and orphaned animals.

Could you please stop the cold callers - on phones, just go ring someone else.


Instyle, September issue 2007. page 28 contains a picture of the best dressed woman - bar non. Dita Von Teese dressed in White, simple and clean. She is so smart and is the best kind of style icon.


I love Amy Winehouse, I am worried about her as well - but she is fitting the mould of tragic singers. The tragic situation, she will die if she is not careful. She has talent, but drugs are disasterous for such talent. Lily Allen may also end up the same way. Both girls have great style as well. Lets hope that common sense takes hold.


My ideas for the Autumn, Black, simple, chic grey, crisp white - which I will sharpen with a smart yellow cane square box hand bag. Burberry Touch for Women. I still rate Sarah Jessica Parker as a fashion Icon. I have given up eyeshadow (mostly) I now just do Mascara, blusher and glossy lippy.

WSPA
I am very angry at the pictures of murdered Mountain Gorillas tied out - murder yes because they are our near relatives, what happens to them happens to us. just when will we learn this. Destroy our world and we destroy ourselves. Please don't buy the exotic gifts, lets keep trying to show people in these countries that there are better ways to live (although of course we are no great example) If only we could clear those debts, have fairtrade and encourage people to sustain grow food.

As for the money markets that are in turmoil, well what goes around comes around, greed greed. Who remembers the pensioners who have lost their pension funds because of Bulls and Bears.


Love Granny

VICKIE'S CAKE

ANOTHER STORY

The Robins have left now the babies have grown up a flown the nest.

We partied with Victoria for her 21st hence the pictures.

I have had contact with Jackie and Claire who I met at Goring and an delighted to maintain our friendship.

I am mourning a friend I met at Goring, Martin Greensmith died on 19th July leaving a wife and son aged 11. His funeral is tomorrow. Rest in Peace Martin.

My dear friend Maggie was diagnosed with Breast Cancer last week, she has her op on the 8th of course my prayers are with her.

The weather has improved, now I am too hot.


Love From Granny xxx

SGT PEPPER ???

HIPPY PARTY GIRL

THE LUST FOR LIFE

This little story belongs to the last picture I posted to the blog.


Yesterday Merlot came to me in a right state barking and the like she wanted me to go out side into the garden. So I could hardly not. I then realised the two parent Robins were putting up very agitated noises and putting up alarm calls. Merlot was trying to push at the huge flower tub that we use to protect the patio drain. I said to Mick that I thought something might be in the drain. We discovered one of the Robin chicks had fledged and somehow fell into the drain - don't ask us how. Mick gently picked it out the poor tiny little thing was barely alive. She was cold and wet, Mick held her in cupped hands. We took her inside (I decided she was a she) and gently blew on her to dry her wings....The parents were desperate and looking for the chick. We took her out and placed her in a flowerpot with light cover. Immediately the parents fed her.


We panicked when Wisp Jnr. the baby fox appeared on the shed. Merlot went mad. We kept watch and feeding continued.


Later in the evening the baby had gone. We believe that she is ok. Merlot would have warned me if cats, fox or magpies had come into the garden.

In the morning I watched from my usual spot to watch the Robins and they both appeared to struggle trying to pull pieces of the red tree in the garden - they fluttered, they pulled at leaves and twigs. They flew off.


This afternoon, the Robins are back in the garden normality resumed.

Lots of Love to ALL GrannyXXXX

SPLENDID

Mick took me to Whistable today, I have never been before. What a lovely place, THE PLACE for fish, great shops and restaurants. It has a beach, not sand but a great place to walk. Becoming very trendy.

We also saw James and Shannon, who are due to start school in September, can you believe it. They were so pleased to see Grandad!!!! we have new pictures soon to be posted.

My heart is still with all those who are in the flood area. But who is caring for all the animals?

I must again say the Paul Potts is superb, I lay in bed the other night listening to the album - I was in heaven. I will play it at work tomorrow.

We believe the robin chicks are due to fledge soon. Yesterday Mick, Jon and I heard them when they were being fed. The poor robin parents have been working so hard. I saw one of them fly into the Fence, totally disoriented but not knocked out. The weather has not helped. Sadly we will not see them go, they will use the times when we are not in. What have we learnt.... to love our Robins. We have had the priviledge of watching nature close to. Who could ask for better.

My brother celebrated his 47th Birthday on 20th July, congratulations for that.


Let us pray for peace for all.

Love Grannyxxxxx

STILL HAVING ISSUES

Clearly I have not done to well with labelling my pictures on the blog, sorry.

I have to tell you I have just made a big discovery - Paul Potts, a fabulous voice, he made me go goose pimply. I have the album and it is on my walkman.

THREE CHEERS

I saw my consultant last Friday and was given another cancer free six months. YIPEE, I am now full hours but restricted duties.

Sadly Mandy has had good news, her tumour had grown back and she must start the last of her three sessions of Chemo. My heart is with her as ever.

This morning I watched a tabby cat being defeated by two robins defending their nests, amasing. they pushed her higher into the tree in our nighbours garden. Their tales were up, and the alarm call was going full on. Tabby then made it down, but made for the fish pond to look at the gold fish. the along came a white and ginger cat and off sent tabby!!!!! better than Eastenders this.

I had a training day today and it went well. So after a year I am back at full potential.

Mum is so much better as well.

I HAVE BEEN TARDY

Due to problems with my server and things I have not been able to edit my blogg. So a big sorry to colleagues and friends.



I have continued at work, happily enjoying the company of my friends. Sadly Kelly's mum died after a short battle with stomach cancer. It has been hard for Kelly and we all are trying to help.



I am so grateful that the NHS have given me a second chance. I will make the most of it.



Mick and I have had a wonderful holiday in Skopelos, it remains our dream to live there. We enjoy the Greek life style and people. Our villa was at the top of over 130 steep steps - heavy going so not for those with difficulty in breathing or walking. We met a lovely people, a british family with a son and Marion at the internet cafe. I loved it there because I could keep in contact with home over fresh juice and coffee. I liked to sit out on the patio garden in the warm afternoon sun. We found some lovely restaurants and had some excellent meals. I discoverd 'Greek Beans' with garlic and tomato and sausage devine with a glass of wine. I hope to manage to publish some pictures.





Mum had shingles while we were away and we have been worried about her health for over 12 weeks as she recovers. She seems a little bit better, she is at last eating and going e out. I have made contact with Rags to Bitches a company I saw on the ONE PROGRAMME that deal in vintage clothes. We need to give Mum a positive focus on the task of down sizing.





I have purchased a lovely garden furniture set to remember my much loved Auntie Vicki, so when we sit out I know she is with us. It is so her. Mind you with all the rain some hopes.





What rain, my heart goes out to those who's homes have been destroyed. But it does show how important insurance is - crisis happen.



I support the search for Maddy - missing, taken from her room in Portugal. I am on her side,not necessarily on her families side. I am afraid that I would not left three such small children on their own in a room, even if I was in the restaurant a few floors below. They will have to pay for this error in judgement for the rest of their lives.

My heart goes to the family of Beverly Samuels, Kesha Wizzart 18 and her brother Fred age 13. This is an unimaginable tragedy and these beautiful people have been bludgeoned to death lost to wider society and that is our loss. Know one has the right to take life in this way, and should not be mollie coddled.


Equally the rich like Conrad Black should expect to be found out for their crimes and we should no pity him and his family. It is pay back time.


Every child killed is a loss to wider society and those who deal with potential abuse should not be made fearful by 'pressure groups' one life saved is one life saved for the good.

I have also been away to Goring, a place to recoup from my cancer, but excercise, treatments and structure in a restful environment. To all those I met there, thanks for your friendship.

My garden has remained a peaceful haven for birds and animals. Wisp is now a regular visitor and sits among the trees (literally on the branches) and watches the world ( and wood pigeons)

We have a Robins nest and we get an unrivalled view of their behaviour. Is this normal in July?



Merlot remains my faith companion and is daft as ever.


More later, bye for now. Love Granny xxxx

I AM STILL HERE

I have been less than active on my blog as you can see. However what with work and getting back to my research there is less time to work. I have started to walk to the station, to reduce my carbon footprint - I started on Monday. However it seems that I tried a step to far to quickly because I am exhausted to day and can barely move or think.


Mick and I have been worried about his Dad who has been ill, but now thankfully on the mend. My Mum also is unwell which is a worry. I went to see her the other weekend and of course I speak daily. We had a great visit actually, we went on mass to my brothers house and met up with his step children etc. Monty and Eddie the dogs had us in hysterics.

The weather has been great this week, but the worry is about our rainful which is well down for the time of year.


I have become addicted to Oranutangs following a BBC series with Steve Leonard and Michella Strachan. Could some one tell me why we have Palm Oil!!!!!!! for which rainforest habitats are being destroyed.


My heart is with the families of the soldiers killed by a road side bomb in Iraq recently including a Female 2nd lt and a nurse from my town Southampton. Yes1 Faye Turney was wrong to sell her story but I understand why she did. She was wrongly advised. Arthur, well he is just a child really and should have not been there anyway.

My heart is with the families of those killed and injured at Virginia Tech. Go Hoggies!


The world is a sad place.

Back soon, Love Granny.

ITS BEEN A WHILE

Here I am back again.

I have been working and presenting sessions, yes I am feeling tired especially today. At least the sun is out and the garden is full of birds.

A couple of days ago I saw two coal tits, blue tits, ring dove, robin and wren. Super Squirell has not appeared since our neighbours took down the peanut feeder he could get to.

WISP has been about in the Cemetary, Mick and I watched for ages as she strolled back and forth.


FEMALE SECTION

I would like to pay tribute to two women

My thoughts are with Leading Seaman Faye Turney who was taken with 14 other sailors in an aggresive act by Iran. She is a married woman with a three year old called Molly. I am thinking also of her husband and parents. She was the pilot of one of the boats taken. She chooses not to be defined by her femininity alone. She wants her daughter to grow up reliable, independent and a strong young woman - much like her mother.

I also acknowledge Pte Michelle Norris aged 19 whose life saving action won her he Military Cross. This medical orderly was acting in the best tradition a standard set in world war one by Noel Chervaise double VC winner.


Proving that what ever people might say women have earned the right for their place in the front in, actions speak louder than words. These women are moving the goal posts on behalf of other women.


I am proud of all our soldiers, sailors and airman. I am not so proud of the government nor the war which I have always considered wrong. The two points of view are not incompatible.

FOOTBALL

England had better play more imaginatively tonight than they did the other day in Isreal. Dear god these guys are high paid professionals apparently and Rooney showed neither professionalism nor coolness of head required to keep himself out of trouble. They really need to play as a team.



FASHION

H and M have some lovely linen skirts, trousers and jackets. They also do great tights and accesories. I particularly liked a twisted bead necklace, I have it in black and brown. It is made with small beads and makes a tight, rope effect. The necklace is long and can be worn doubled up or knotted. Plain simple effective.

My colour pallet this season in black, grey, brown. Outfits are matched top to toe in toning colours and highlighte with white. I have five or six outfits for work. Three trouser outfits and two skirt outfits. For the summer I will add in cream linen long line skirts with two blouses one red and cream, one brown and cream with matching vest underneath.

Keeping to the same colours my everyday or evening outfits are more edgy.


I have been building my holiday wardrobe from the archive of items that I have, adding some cheaper new items to freshen up the look. Packing an issue of course so I have found some reusable bags that compress clothes reducing the space they take up - good value from ASDA.


I am not wild about the current trend of 70's 'Pop' pattern look. It has to be worn carefully not too many combos as these designs can overwhelm. I am much more a 'hippy' ethnic person.


TELEVISION


I have really love 'Dancing on Ice' I am a big Andrei fan. I have also enjoyed very much 'Primeval' but I remain a huge Dr Who Fan.

We watched 'March of the Penquins' the other day - superb. I do recommend this film, so much so I went and bought it.

LOTS OF LOVE TO EVERYBODY. Granny xxxxx

MAX AS A PUPPY WITH ME.

TRUELY AWFUL

For a policeman to be convicted of child porn offences on the internet is beyond belief. Found Guilty - good. Love Granny XXX

POOR FATHER

I was so sad to hear about the poor father who having just walked his daughter down the aisle on her wedding day, collapsed and died at the reception. What a tragic thing to happen. He did die happy that can be the only concellation. My thoughts are with his family at this awful time. Love Granny XXX

ONE UP FOR THE NAVY

Well at last some commonsense. A petty officer has been convicted of Rape on board ship the victim had had a vast amount to drink, she could barely remember what happened. Now listen CONSENT means informed CONSENT, not drink induced consent. I will keep pressing this message. Men if you are even thinking of having sex with a woman who is drunk, under the influence - whatever - don't. Love Granny XXX

FOXED AGAIN

Wisp paid a visit during the week, sitting on the shed looking down at Merlot, who when called came in. I stood outside and called Wisp by name, she and I looked at each other for ages - she showed no fear at all.

Super squirrel has been around, he is so funny because the neighbours, now wise to his peanut trick are not putting them out in a simple hanging system - now he can't get at them. I saw him and this is true, thrust out his big furry white chest, hands on hips as much as to say "What's going on here then" We have come to his rescue putting out nuts ourselves in the hope he will pay a visit.


The garden is alive with things you should not see yet, huge bumble bees, butterflies, lady birds and of course all the little birds. I love it. Love Granny XXX

CAPITALWOMAN

I attended the Capitalwoman conference in London last weekend. It was interesting, but really Ken Livingstone and his bunch seem to take credit for everything. Politically it was boring. The best bit was the only female bespoke taylor in London, great suits. Love Granny

I COULD HAVE SWORN IT WAS A FEATHER

I was so sure that it was a feather that floated in the wind, a small feather - but in fact it was one of the smalles moths I have ever seen. I also have to mention that the garden has been alive with Blue tits and Finches and not to mention the little Wren. Today we are watching Super Squirrel on the feeder, he is simply huge and in tip top condition, no surprise there then. He is so much fun to watch. Blossom is coming out everywhere, form the widow I can see the prettiest pink. Nature is a wonderful thing.


Yesterday evening I did a private talk to a Lions Club and it went really well. Mick helped me with the technical stuff running around getting leads and things for me.

We are booked on a holiday to Skopelos our favourite Greek Island, If anybody reads this and lives in Skopelos, do get in touch. I can't wait to go, I am so excited.

I can not believe Italy scored 3 tries in 6 minutes against Scotland. I am looking for ward to watching Ireland v England at Croke Park. Later Mick is taking me out for a meal, as a reward for my talk yesterday.

I shall be going back to work three days a week until end of March building up to full time. Fantastic. The Oncologist has discharged me from the clinic, so I really am on the way to full recovery.

Love granny xx

WHY DON'T THEY TELL US

Being a woman is 's---' First it is your periods, a pain in the arse from 13 ish to 48 ish. Messy and disgusting despite all the recent developments in personal sanitary ware. The periods are also uncomfortable and often very painful. Then there is PMT which causes all sorts of problems over which you have no control, some women are lucky and sail through, for others - ITS HELL. I stopped taking the pill in around 1983 because it made me ill, and if I was going to have sex then I felt - no condom no sex. Thereafter my periods were 28 days on the dot.

Then there is child birth, not that I've been there but I was with Debs when she had the twins, oh my God - how brave is that, giving birth is not easy!!!!!!

Now since having Chemo, periods are no more and the Tamoxifen has railroaded me into the menopause - oh my God, what 'S---' is this? I am flushed hot all the time and can't sleep, facial hair (yuk) is there a cure for this except shaving, am I going to be the bearded lady? I have no energy, no zip I can hardly bring myself to get dressed. I'm moody and I do try not to be. I have lost absolute control over my body and I hate it.


And Men get absolutely non of this 'S---' they complain about our moods, the lack of sex etc etc etc. Ladies tell them to take a hike, come back in two years. Is it any wonder men go off and look for younger women. Something tells me the odds are staked against us. If men had periods and the menopause something tells me would all so know about it and the space race would be replaced to find a high tech answer.

So what about the positive, no periods great.

I would rather sit and watch the birds in my garden - so I will. My God it's 1pm and I'm not dressed - so what!

Love Granny

WRAP IT UP

I know I have mentioned WRAP before as a fashion bible. Well the new catalogue came through for Summer very nice but too too expensive. If you dont believe me then look at www.wraponline.co.uk I like the 'preppy' look, I love the long skirts, I can get the look cheaper. I also like the sophisticated colours that they use, I need to get out there and shop.

Love Granny xxx

LONDON FASHION WEEK.

Boring, to closed to cliquey. Do we want Zero sized models - of course not, very few if any normal women can possibly want to look like a skeleton, let alone be able to achieve it. Dangerous for physical health. I would like to see some size 14s on the cat work. We are the sizes we are, how we dress ourselves is key to feeling good about ourselves. I like the older women that Dove have used. Very good looking.

If I am pushed I would say that I still like Paul Costello I have a jacket of his in black linen which I love. I like his use of fabrics. Marc Jacobs is ok (although his cat walk videos on his web site are full of very thin models who are so scarry) I am keen to try his new fragrances which are fresh a floral I would especially like to try 'Violet'.

Having said that I am very keen to try the revamped channel perfume line, a reworking of 4 orignal fragrances and six new ones. Get the Magazine Happy and on page 61 there is a good detailed guide to these new scents. I am keen to try '28 La Pausa' 'Gardenia' ' No 22' and 'Eau de Cologne' Expensive and only sold in Chanel shops! Could a nice rich sugar daddy buy me these please? only joking.


I am also a very keen supporter of Jasmine as a fragrance, very summer very fresh. I do like to shop in L'Occitane in Bluewater and they have some new fragrances, including Rose and Reine Eau de Toilet which at £22 I could probably afford and would wear all summer.


NEXT is very much a shop I have been re drawn to, I had a great pair of Black trousers from there but I have noticed in their recent adds a wonderfull Black and White small check suit at £90 with nice pocket details, 3 snappy buttons and a really cute collar, for the business woman with 'X' factor. Still to expensive for me, but the look is great.


A key fashion item, If your doing anything at all you can hardly go wrong with the white shirt, which I have always loved. Go For it there are loads about. Also this year the Tunic dress is really rather smart in my view.


A big plea please don't do sheer/see through it is so cheap to show off all your underware. Pretty bras do it for me.


I a not a Coleen Mcloughlin fan (not that she will care) I just think she has more money than sense. She is rather boring, lets face it with Wayne as her boyfriend!!!! what else can one say. I rather prefer Kelly Osbourn and Amy Winehouse looks, off the wall they key is looking different. With Winehouse, you really have to look passed her past with the drink and drugs thing to the voice which is fab and her look. She is not however a good role model - but hey. GET HER MUSIC, IT IS FAB. Britney Spears has been a big hitter this week with her bald look, hey work with it, it looked call. I do worry about her though, but more for her childrens sake than hers.

I still refer extensively to 'IN STYLE' 'YOU' magazine from the Sunday mail and GLAMOUR for my fashion information. and HAPPY is also excellent. Rather taken with two looks from Happy one by BIBA - an old favourite and DKNY who both have the MAXI dress (page 78) I love the 1970's hippy look which is very much back. Beads and Bangles are a must. Vest T shirts are fab, there are so many great styles and colours, get loads they are cheap and you can double them up. I like a slouch look and they work perfectly. Keep them long and lean. Shabby Chic thats me.


SHOES, plenty of great looks, and I love platforms (I did the first time round as well) but please no ties up the legs - be selective as platforms can really do your legs in. There is no glamour if your feet are killing you. I like the new pumps that are about, look great with a maxi skirt. Wear with opaque tights and short skirt, colour toned and matched in for length and layer tops.

My key pieces this year will be my late aunts fan which I shall use for my hot flushes, and her black beads, very fine and delicate. I am on the hunt for very comfortable baggy cargo pants, lots about but I haven't found the one for me yet.


Fashion rules OK Love Granny XXX

RETIRING

A colleague is retiring next week, we went to a function in his honour, I thought it was nice to see so many turn out. I also thought how sad we were losing another character from the job with his huge and extensive knowledge he will be a great loss. Does he care!!!! well secretly he does, but he is off to pastures new, new starts after a 30 year career are risky but essential. Good Luck to Pat and his wife.

Love Granny

SQUIRREL CHASE

Today is a lovely and spring like. Two squirrels are chasing around the trees which is highly amusing. They have just stopped for lunch. The other day one of the squirrels came down to my neighbours pond for a drink. He had just hung upside down on the feeder with fresh nuts in so I think he ate to much. These guys are so fast it is quite breathtaking.

I always try to find something beautiful and positive in the day, my key to good mental and physical health. Love Granny

FRAUD WARNING

Keep your eyes on your money. I lost £108 out of my account via a scam they took £8 congestion charge (I don't take my car into London) and then £25x2 and £50x1 through a facility in Luxembourg to use a casino gaming site (I don't gamble)

Police will only report the Theft of any card. The fraud is initially investigated by your bank. This was an online fraud. I mayhave been 'attacked' when I purchased a book online and I believe the transaction was not on a secure site I also remember being asked for my card details twice!!!!! I did get my book although not addressed to me bu my husband which we both found strange. I had done everything in my name. BE AWARE. Granny

I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYE'S

And so did Mick. About 12.50pm I looked up from the sink in the kitchen, Merlot was barking and there on the shed roof was Wisp the fox. Face on and unfazed she looked down at Merlot who was now quiet. We missed the perfect photoshot with the two in frame, but we tried. We did get one of Wisp which I hope to publish if only I could work out the new system for posting pics to the blog. Wisp has been about a lot at night and early hours, like 4am when Merlot goes into a frenzie and sounds like I am killing her. It was an amazing sight andeven when we opened the patio door she did not seem concerned. Brilliant.

If like me you love animals then you must have been heartbroken to see the picture of the Polar Bears stranded on a piece of ice.

Sadly my Aunts funeral is on Thursday 8th 2007 so if you get a chance light a candle, think about spring flowers and wish her peace. I am not very keen on flowers at funerals especially big displays. We are taking a sheath of flowers and I hope that the funeral directors will collect them and take them to a local old peoples home so that they can be enjoyed as Auntie would have wanted.

There really only the three of us left in my birth family, Mum, Neil and I. We will all be at the funeral on Thursday.

Love Granny

THE END OF AN ERA

Sadly my beloved Auntie Vicki aka Joan Riodean nee Cowlin died yesterday afternoon. She was not alone, she was in her own home and she died peacefully.

I saw her the day before her death onTuesday. She was sitting in her arm chair, looking out at her garden. She was dressed in white trousers, a red shirt and white cardigan and we joked that she could play for Manchester United dressed like that. Her hair was blond, washed and lightly set in waves. Her friend Julie had taken the trouble to do this for her. Auntie was a hairdresser and how she looked mattered to her, I never saw her anything other than smart and stylish - even when so ill. She maintained her dignity to the end. Her mind was active and she knew what she wanted. She had told both Julie and I that she was not afraid of death and was happy the end was near, but she wanted to sort out her buisness before hand. She was trying to eat and drink but even the liquid she tried to swallow hurt her "It feels like a ton of coal" she told me. Yet she had continued to do her crochet, to keep her mind and hands active.


She was fiercely independant and had been the rock that had supported her sister Ruby and her husband John. When Ruby's husband Peter died (he was the first to go) it marked the change of all their plans because all 4 had done everything together and planned a long and happy retirement doing lots of things. This never happened. Ruby became ill, and six weeks after Peter died John had a stroke so Auntie Vicki was left to cope and cope she did. Uncle John developed Altzimers but auntie coped with him at home until he died. Then there were 2. Ruby always the most fagile leant heavily of Vicki until she also died 9 years ago. Vicki moved to live in Ruby's bungalow having sold her own house and thank god she did.

Auntie kept all their pictures on a special shelf in her lounge along with other family photos of those who had died - including Young Ron her brother who died age 12 in an accident. She kept Ruby's room as it had been while she was alive, in memory of her. Beside the bed was the big picture of Ron. Neither sister ever forgot their brother. Auntie always kept the house immaculate, decorated and the garden cared for. Eventually last year she was fortunate to find Julie who helped her maintain her home when she became less able to do the physical stuff.


Auntie Ruby and Auntie Vicki were my god mothers and as I child I was often in their company and they were my role models. I was never child like - I was always an 'oldie' in my ways. I was spoilt by them and both Uncles (God Fathers) I remember these times with love and affection. Neither Aunts had children, and so I was, as the only child in the family from 1954-1960 the object of much attention. I know that Auntie Vicki, loved Julie whom she told me was like the child she would have wanted. They loved to talk and Julie held her hand as she died, surrounded by the nurses, she just slipped away.


When I left her on tuesday I had satisfied myself she was where she wanted to be with the support and care she needed, with Macmillian nurses and night staff. I nealt by her side and said - "This is a girl thing, you and I are going to fight this" She smiled and said "Yes we would"
She smelt fragrant, her skin was soft and her eyes despite weariness had that wicked look she gave me when we shared a joke. I have her wedding photograph for a keep sake, she looked so beauiful and John so proud. I am happy to know they are together again.


I am heartbroken, but she is at peace, no longer in pain and my memory of my last meeting with her is brilliant because she looked so peaceful and she seemed like her old self. She never lost her dignity what more can a person ask when they leave this world. What of her life and death?well she did it her way.


I love you Auntie. Granny XXXXXXXX

CASINO ROYALE

This is a real must see film. Mick took me on wednesday to see it. It is brilliant. Daniel Craig reinvents James Bond, he is fantastic in the role. The film is a real thriller. This is the best yet with a really good villan played by Mads Mikkelsen and Judi Dench's 'M' is excellent. Not for the faint hearted and men attached to their balls !!!!!!! Love Granny.

GOODY GOODY GOODY

At last people are waking up to the fact that Jade Goody is a terrible example of british womanhood. She is and always been loud, rude, ignorant and objectionable. She and Dannielle and Jo are classic girl bullies of the type that inhabit our society, you find them in every playground. They are shallow and stupid and pick on people they know show them up. Shilpa is beautiful, elegant, graceful, intelligent, successful and provides a threat to the other three who know they cannot compete.


I do not watch hours of big brother, I do dip in and out, out of curiosity which of course is the whole idea. What I should do and so should every one else - is switch off. I imagine that few people will want to wear a perfume known as Jade now since she has caused such a stink, by showing her true character. Hang on a minute, didn't we put our favourite 'Chav' up there in the first place.

It actually sends out as a strong message about class, education and culture as it does about racism. While I don't think it is purely racisim, it is the unconsious kind we heard about in the Macpherson report. It is the mix that is dangerous. We can see that these three are uneducated, and heaven forbid are role models for our daughters and grand daughters. It has also been clear that Jade in particular is a product of her mother's upbringing of her.....like mother like daughter. Well clearly she has never been taught manners nor good behaviour. We have all seen the pictures of Jade in the papers at a brawl where she 'intervened' to help someone so I would say to Shilpa don't be tempted to hit any of them, that would be an excuse for them to really hurt you.


I have dealt with females like them all my service, they are the same girls you see in the much publised binge drinking culture. Perhaps what hurts us also so much is seeing a reflection of british society as others see it. This summer this tribe will swan off to the sun and prove to the host countries that we are - awful, binge drinking, engaging in public sexual activity, being sick, nosiy, rude and frankly unbearable.

What I have noted is the concern that Cleo Rocas has shown, about the situation, trying to befriend this poor girl. Who has we must also accept lived a priviliged life and was protected by a loving faminly. One of the other things I have noted that it is along age that the lines have been drawn, the older sensible housemates versus cras youth.


This is reality TV....... yes reality, the three girls show clearly what and who they are in reality.

Please note that I do not want to be judged by their actions, I am nothing like them I HOPE!!!!!


vote Cleo. Love granny.

KYLIE TAKE CARE

Kylie, please listen to your body. I worry you are in denial about the fact you have been through arduous breast cancer treatment. Like me your body has been stripped of its immunity, your body has been physically stressed by an operation, poisoned by chemo to kill the cells and radiated. Do not think that because you are 18 months on that you are free to do anything you want because 12 months of that 18 months included these treatments. You have not allowed your body to regenerate itself. I know how tired I feel all the time.

Of course you must not be defined by it, limited either for that matter but....reality reality reality means by all means push yourself but with baby steps!!! a contradiction NO just sense. I am back at work but on very limited hours directed by advisors who understand what I have been through. Yes you look wonderful, yes you are brave but please listen to your doctors a severe infection could kill you. It was a big fear of mine, a chest infection since I am prone to them and realised that if I acted inappropriately I would pay a heavy price in my recovery.

In your particular case your career requires huge physical demand (on stage) and to be an icon of fashion and beauty requires you to put on a positive face all the time for the cameras! this is not worth your life.


Glamour magazine has voted you top of 50 best dressed women, and you have been in the last year congratulations. I do admire you and your look BUT the cost my dear fellow survior may be too much. GOOD LUCK. GRANNY.

IT REALLY IS A MUST - Fashion comments

I took a slow walk round Bluewater on Tuesday prior to going back to work, to see what remained of the sales and to see what I had been missing all these weeks.

A real MUST. Please take a trip to the 'Oriental Pearl' The ultimate fashion jewellery shop. It does Bags and Hats as well, but best of all (since this place makes Alladins cave look dull) you can have a piece made up to your own specifications right there and then. Loads of pretty beads to choose from. Go on - just for the fun of it.

I was on the whole disappointed, nothing really excited me. Could someone please tell me why I cannot buy ordinary Navy Blue tights, is there a 'ban' in place??????

M and S has upped its game and I do like to shop there now. The Monsoon sale is always worth a look, but it does reflect the huge mark up their dresses etc. Definately the time to by that evening dress.

I had a great encounter with a young sales woman for 'bellapierre' make up. She did me a face make over and I felt very good and she was interested in my grey hair - growing back nicely. She made me feel important and normal and I loved the look. www.bellapierre.com


I have been developing my look for work, Black, grey and white work really well, because I like to feel that I look professional and right when I am at work I certainly don't want to look ill.


A very good idea in this seasons Littlewood catalogue is the inclusion of a little book 'Trinny and Susannah - THE RULES -a beginners guide to better dressing. clear clever and focused advice.


I am a big fan of the Maxi Skirt ( a 1970's term making a come back) I loved them and wore them in the 70's and of course I still do. I also like to wear footless tights under my cotton ones, I wear a lot of sandals (my preference) and this combo works for me.

When I hit the beach from now on I shall have to wear a shrug to protect my left arm - this is fine since I love them, especially the light weight type with a T shirt. Littlewoods have some great colours, so they will look OK on the beach with a swimsuit.


I saw a classic fashion Fopah in the Magazine In Style on page 15 a picture of Miscah Barton in Matthew Williamson design dress in black, one shoulder style short puff ball with foot less tights and sandals (THIS WAS NOT A GOOD LOOK, IN FACT HIDEOUS.)


I also spotted a nice sleeveless black and white shift type dress in the magazine and went to seek it out at H and M in Bluewater, at £34 pounds it will make a nice spring summer staple with a dress up or dress down making possibilities endless. It will look fab with my long line Paul Costello Black Linen Jacket, which is a long standing friend. I might buy this dress.

I continue to beg you not to wear roman sandals with ties that go up the leg - Yuk.


As a rule I am against cut off trousers, but I noticed some nice Clamdiggers in denim by 'Love Label' in the Littlewoods catalogue. Will look great on the beach with kaftans or long jumpers. Tight trousers cut like this are not really for those over a size 16 and anyway should always be worn with consideration to bulges and outlines. These along with shorts should not be worn to the officer or for meetings. OH NO> I am not sizeist, but I think people need to make the best of themselves and not all fashions work on all people.


I am begining to put on weight due to the hormone treatment so I will have to watch what I WEAR. It always settles around my middle. So I shall be doing some excercise, while continuing to watch my diet re fats (a hangover from having my gall bladder removed)


The WRAP catalogue dropped through the letter box the other day as usual great items - but too expensive. I love this catalogue but only use it as my style guide. I am glad to say trouser and skirt waists are up at the waist in this seasons selections - please let this mean no more bellies on display (unless pregnant)


I am a bit of an oddball where fashion is concerned, I like a coordinated look, you know matching and toning - but I do like the daring, a statement if you like of my personal style, the inner me. This has it's place you know, but not in the workplace (unless this a funky and up beat sort of location) Dress appropriately and see your professional staus raise, you are taken seriously as a contender for the next project promotion etc. For me this is important since I have spent much of my life in uniform.


I have made a hair decision. When it has grown back just a little more, I shall keep it at the shorter length, grey looks better this way and it has opened up my face. I have had to give thought to changing my make up colour, and I will make a play on my eyes. I am comfortable with it this way and I like the look.


Time to go, have fun with clothes. Love Granny

THANKS RHEA.

Rhea I do thank you for your supportive comments. Have a Happy New Year. Granny

THIS IS IT

I am going back to work on Wednesday 10th. Confirmed. I can't tell you how happy I am.

The last 7 or so months have been a real journey.

Love Granny

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Happy New Year to everybody. I finished my treatments yesterday so for me that is the end of seven months of cancer focus. Now I want to widen my scope and I am glad to say I go back to work next Wednesday. Mick took me out for a meal to celebrate. I can expect the residual effects to last for two more weeks and I must see the consultant in 4 to 6 weeks to establish how successful the treatments have been. I cannot wait to go swimming again when the burns have gone.

On Jan 1st I was able to visit my Aunt in hospital to satisfy myself that she was being cared for. She looked so much better than I thought she would. She was up and dressed immaculately but has to have constant oxygen for her breathing. I get the impression that her tumor is quite large. She was an inspiration of positivity, she refuses to be down. She had initially refused treatment because she said she was to old and that it should be for the young. I believe they would no have offered if they had not been sure they could reduce it a little. She refuses to go to Clacton Hospital and remains in Colchester where she is happy. I know she is quite afraid of Clacton Hospital and would not get on well there. She looks so tiny and frail with a swollen face but has an indomitable spirit, she has a very able mind she remembers lots of things and 85 years old she makes most younger people look silly. I took her in a guardian angel and like me believes that our relatives who have died watch over us, I said to her that my guardian angels were my nana, my aunts and my dad - likewise she felt the same. I looked at the video I have of her when she was young (transfered from 35mm film) and the both of us together, what memories. She will stand her ground, she wants to go home with support, she will need oxygen constantly and home care. I am willing her on. I want her to be comfortable and safe.

I have kept my eye on the press - I am sorry to hear about the death of a five year old girl when bitten by her uncles dog! The dog is shot of course, but the person to blame is the owner not the dog, the dog was doing what dogs do and not trained other wise. People really need to take responsibility. However I leave you to read the stories about this owner and make your own judgements.

Yesterday the garden was alive with lots of birds, Bluetits and a coal tit amongst others. All these birds are so small and dart about all over the place. it is like HEATHROW as they get into a holding pattern waiting to land at my neighbours feeder. Mick has become aquainted with SUPER SQUIRREL who is the biggest either of us ever seen. In dominates the tree and races everywhere. Today it is raining heavily and steadily it all seems so grey.

I do hope the Green message will get through......however, when I have been travelling on the train to hospital I have noticed how little people care, throwing litter around without a thought, spitting etc I have had a lot of opportunity to observe behaviour - loud music, mobile phone conversations, feet on seats are particular hates of mine. There are little or no manners, with everybody barging about. On stairs particularly no one keeps to the keep left concept of safety, thereby blocking routes to others (much the way people drive without thinking) The trains are dirty and disgusting for the most part. So if they want people to travel on the train more, they need to up the conditions, reduce the fares, provide security on the train in the form of guards. I do not want to be intimidated when I travel and neither does anyone else.


Love for the New Year. Lets hope Peace is given a chance, it wont be of course, there is money in war. Granny

I ASK YOU TO PRAY

Please pray for my aunty Vicki, who is in Colchester Hospital with Lung cancer and secondary kidney cancer. I spoke to her today, she is having Radiotherapy although she initially declined on account of her age. She is comfortable and sounded cheerful. At least she is in a good place and they are caring for her nad she is not alone. She is my Godmother and I love her dearly.

Love Granny.

WHAT CHRISTMAS IS ABOUT!

Christmas is of course about the birth of Christ although you would never think it judging from the rampant consumerism that grips the nation. Some, who are less fortunate cannot indulging in the feeding frenzie that goes on. I think it is important we remember that. And what about Bethlehem? nothing changes only the uniforms.

This year we mourned the death of Auntie Elsie, and Mick and I spent Christmas with her sister, my mother-in-law because there was a big empty space at the heart of her family. I was fortunate to be given a brooch (I am a collector) of an Elephant which had been Elsie's I was touched to have been given it - for me the perfect item to remember with since Elephants never forget. She was in all our hearts.

I was sorry to hear of the death of James Brown the Godfather of Soul on Christmas Day - his words, "I feel Good" I my mantra for obvious reasons. I suspect he is singing in heaven and rocking the joint. We also lost Charlie Drake this Christmas and I suspect he is teaching God some prat falls.

This year I have been very lucky, oh yes I have (oh no you haven't, it's behind you) that is to say in true Panto style I can only think of postives. Like.... catching up with old school friends on Friends Reunited, Orville and Paul. Learning a lot about myself has been crucial. I have been busy looking at nature to give myself a much needed boost. My sister in law Elaine, has been unfailing in her phone calls to cheer me up. My brother and sister in law Gill have watched over Mum because I could not get to visit as much as I would wish. This is what I call team work. I phone Mum everyday to have a chat and to check she is ok.

Mick has been a brick, and working very hard - the farm shop has been interesting to say the least. I could not have made it through without him. We are the couple who 'bicker' but stay together because it's fun and we are a great team.


Christmas has not been free of sadness this year for others. I was so sad to hear of the death of the pilots and passengers of a helicopter in Morecombe Bay. The deaths of soldiers and civilians elsewhere in the world.

I was glad to read that the stupid ruling about not being able to convict for rape where the victim is drunk isto be dealt with by the government. Some men have hidden for to long behind this defence. Consent should be informed consent and when you are drunk you cannot give this. I am not so much concerned about the introduction of drugs into drink, the problem is that in the current climate drinks are mixed when a person has had one or two becoming doubles or even trebles in some instances. The Sex Offences Act 2004 did already deal with the issue of consent and this has not be used correctly in the courts. You have to know what you are consenting to for it to be valid, and with whom you are consenting to do it with. It is just another form of force and a way to move blame. To have sex with another who is too drunk to know what is happening or give correct consent is an abuse of trust and a shame on those who do this. They seek then to shift the blame for their actions on the victim. I do believe however that where a woman is proved to have lied about rape, that is, made a false claim deliberately then she should be named, in order to protect genuine victims.


What Christmas is about? well Christ actually.

Love from Granny.

A MILLION LOVE SONGS LATER, HERE I AM

Sorry to have been away, no mouse and no keyboard = no writing sorry.

Halfway through the radiotherapy and it's OK. My machine is Electa 2 at St Thomas's and the whole team are great fun. It is very strange I am laid out like a frog for disection and then they play battle ships on me.....with the computer all very technical. Matt is Australian and supervises the operation, he is great fun we talk cricket obviously and I think he is a little homesick. He thinks I am mad, that coming from a man who was going to three parties in one night!!!!

Lets look forward to Jan 5th when the treatment stops, and I can begin to be me again. I have a light covering of white baby hair now so perhaps when it comes through more I should dye it bright pink!!!!! Kylie looks very cool in her perfume ads with her short hair.


Let's here it for the Argentine Tango, as danced tonight on Strictly Come dancing, it is my favourite dance and I recommend anyone to see 'Tango Por Dos' when they come to London (usually at the Peacock Theater) for they do IT FANTASTICALLY as you would expect.


My heart is with the five prostitutes murdered in Ipswich. This is shocking and I wish I could be working on the case. I am a supporter of the legalisation of prostitution. However I do blame the punters, no punters (demand) no problem. It is sadly - Men who are the punters if they were not prepared to pay for sex or indeed want it then there is no trade. I have met many girls in the trade in Commercial Street and have seen the dire state that they are in when they cannot get a fix. They will do anything for 20 quid, and do. The result is running sores - many of the girls are pathetic heaps of humanity and having sex with them for cash can only be described as abuse. What man wants sex with a drugged diseased female? you would be surprised. Wives and daughters take note, in my experience it is middle class men smart and driving nice cars who go with prostitutes - not down and outs. I once found a group of men who had brought an Asian lad down for his stag night to have sex with a prostitute!!! make of that what you will, what did he pass on? and why the double standard? a girl who has sex before marriage in such cultures would be ostrasied or stoned to death. DOUBLE STANDARDS. The reality is the suspect for the murders is a husband or a brother, father or son. As I have said many times before the Drug supply trade is to blame for the decent of humanity into greater degredation. Yes these things have always been around, but so have the expoliters - those who make millions of pounds on the lives of others.

To young girls out there, this is not a glamourous life style, it is as low as you can get. But don't turn your back on these girls, turn on the men. Remember that women are generally on the lower end of the economics of a country. it is better to stay at school, get an education and beat men at their own game in the places were money is made.

It really does not help when certain famous folks flash their drugs habits in our faces and the law seems unable to deal. They are arrested for sure - only to get pultry fines and made even more glamourous by the courts. You know who I mean.


Now for FASHION. I have always been a Katherine Hepburn fan, in terms of style. In that style way I like Calvin Kline and Stella McCartney. See Instyle for jan page 31. Baggy trousers and tops are very me, in Black in grey and in blue.


Since I will never be on a Red Carpet I don't do that kind of glitz but I am Dita Von Teese fan who is just beautiful and does up front glam with panache. What I wore for a recent party was a long black linen skirt and black devore top with black beads and a large coin belt. I felt OK.


TRIBUTE. To my mother - in - laws sister Elsie Perry, who died on Wednesday. She had been ill for so long, and was determined to die at home. She was a very remarkable strong woman and I loved her dearly. When I last saw her she was in hospital, she was dressed and made up and I thought then - Yes that is the way to be - be yourself. Mum - in - Law Ellen and other sister Beattie will miss her as will I. My prays are with her. Elsie had her own style and was a great friend and sister, wife and mother.


LET'S BE POSITIVE THIS CHRISTMAS. GRANNY

HERE WE ARE AGAIN.

I have just finished my first full week of radiotherapy, it aint that bad, the Auzzie radiographers are cool and we talk cricket of course. COME ON ENGLAND. LETS SHOW SOME FIGHTING SPIRIT. The journey is a bind but not a bad as it could be. I get tired, but last night I partied. Spotted a large rat at the station, I love rats as most people know, I am not sure my fellow passengers enjoyed it quite so much. Also when I go to Tommies I stop by the London Eye - I have become friendly with a Crow, who hangs out there, I hope to get him to feed from my hand. He is so curious and fun to watch as he decides if he can trust me or not. The pigeons from trafalgar Square may be subject to a feeding ban, it says nothing about crows.


It was the 'Close Do'last night and it was nice to see old and new neighbours enjoying time out. We ate, drank and sang at TWIN noodle bar which was a hoot.

I did turn up, head neatly polished - wearing a nice silky brown skirt, vest, blouse and shrug in the same tones. Now Michelle and I did not discuss this, but both managed to turn up tone atune and style together, if not exactly twins.

THE TREE was full of activity today, squirel versus two crows and three magpies, the crows were the heavy artillery and the magpies a harrying infantry, while squirel one rushed all over the show.


Now please tell me who voted Matt king of the jungle, nice guy but not the winner, Jason and Myleen yess. Oh well thats over for another year. Tonight I am going to watch Strictly Come Dancing, Oh when can I tango again? sorry to be a bore but I LOVE IT.